Do What You Must

Whatever will people think?

I’ve heard this phrase so many times that from a young age I believed it was the reason to do everything or not to do anything. Since I began my own journey into the Grail however, I’ve stopped to re-evaluate some of these repetitive negative mantras that we inadvertently pick up from generation to generation assuming that they constitute some unwritten law by which we must abide.

Whatever will people think really is no business of mine and as such I really shouldn’t be making any decisions based on this faulty set of criteria.

What do I think? What do I believe? What inspires me? What do I want? What will bring me the greatest pleasure?

Of course, in doing something wholly because it feels right for you, is no excuse for deliberately hurting or offending another but what this always boils down to is intention… if doing it your way is counter to the wishes of another ask yourself this: “Am I doing this to be deliberately contrary or am I choosing this path because it’s genuinely the right one for me?” If you answer the former, stop right now and do some deep exploration as to what part of you is trying to punish the other. If however, the latter is your honest answer then you only have one choice if you are to act out of love and not fear… you must do what you must and risk that whoever you defy will understand your integrity in choosing to walk a trail that has not yet shown its treasure to them.

Principle 4: I AM Truth, is only possible when you put aside what others may think and become the powerful co-creator of your own life, trusting that God has got your back.

More later… x

The Pregnant Pause

Grail Oracle 2Grail Oracle Orange

It was inevitable really, if I continued to do a weekly reading, choosing combinations at random, it stands to reason that sooner or later a set would repeat. Far be it from me though, to assume that the energy flowing through this combination at this time and at this point along the path would be the same as it was just a few short weeks ago when Principle 2: I AM Detached married the bright orange of the sacral chakra in The Absent Intimate.

Imagine then for a moment, one of those huge stately homes that are liberally scattered around Britain. For some odd reason in days of old, architects thought it prudent to have one room leading straight into the next in a succession of opulent displays of wealth… Nobody seemed to give a damn about the fact that you might have to walk through someone else’s bedroom to get to your own, or what horrors you might have to witness on the journey through. The image I’d like you to conjur up in your mind though, is that of the impressive heavy doors that separated each of these opulent spaces… I’ve visited a few myself and I always find it amusing that between each room is a wall so thick that it must shave at least 3ft off the dimensions of the space, and that each doorway has two doors: one leading from the room you’re in and one leading into the room you’re entering! No corridor, just a huge dark space between doors… A place of pure nothingness and seeming pointlessness.

As you pass through one door but before you pass through the second you are neither in one room nor the other, neither one state nor the other… Now imagine if door number one had closed behind you but door two had not yet opened? You’d be standing in the void between states, right?

The Pregnant Pause is that moment of standing on the thresholod and understanding that where you stand is the only place you can be for now and that although you may believe you know what lies beyond the next door, the truth is that until it has been opened you can assume nothing. You must wait here in silent prayer, in acknowledgement of the gravity of your next step and the new beginning that awaits.

The sacral chakra holds the energy of intimacy and of interconnected relationships and its worth noting that the pause at this point is due to you having given over the next move on the chess board to another player. Don’t assume you know this game… don’t assume your partner will be playing by the same rules that you are or that they will play fair… don’t assume that your partner even understands the game or the rules by which you are playing… the only thing that is sure is that the invitation to the negotiation has been sent, you have bravely stepped through your door and now you must wait here for the door to the next room to be opened by your counterpart.

This is a really nice place to sit and wait.

More next week… x

Make The Tough Choices

Powerful forces are at work in the construction of your lifestyle and indeed your existence but do you know where that power comes from?

I was contemplating this morning whether or not I should go deep or keep it light of a Wednesday morning and then it struck me: the choice was entirely mine. What then do we base our choices on?

The powerful force I’m interested in today is intent… and the choices we make based on our intentions. Just coming back to power for a moment, how scary is the fact that only you know what your true intentions are? Not scary at all if you’re coming from a heart-centred benevolent place which I hope you all are but let me put this another way, if it applies to you then it applies to everyone else… so how scary is it that only the person your dealing with knows what their true intention is?

There is power in a secret, regardless of the intention the secret is keeping, not knowing the plan puts you in a position of weakness and vulnerability and requires the trust of a child to navigate to the final destination. The power grab that is being played out on a global political scale at the moment is an example of this interaction between intention and choice… I’ll choose you because my intention is to do good… even if I don’t know what your intention is…

Of course the real power doesn’t sit in the hands of those vying for it, the real power sits in the hands of those who choose… I choose you/ I don’t choose you; I trust you/ I don’t trust you. You have a choice and that’s real power.

The power to direct your life has always been with you, heaven created it that way. It was only ever fear that allowed you to believe that you didn’t know how to take care of yourself, to make the difficult choices and moves, it was only fear that allowed you to hand over the responsibility to someone else to make the tough choices for you… it was only ever fear that made you believe they knew better than you.

If you want the power back, the power to direct your life the way you want it, here’s what you have to do to claim it back:

Decide your intention

Make the tough choices

Take responsibility

Commit to yourself

Understand that nobody else’s truth is ever any bigger or better than yours and if it feels like it is, learn from it, be inspired by it and up the ante on your commitment to embrace this new learning so that your intention and choices expand to reflect it… but definitely don’t go: “their vision for my life is better than mine, I’ll follow them and let them make the tough choices.”

You are the power.

We just took a short stroll around Principle 1: I AM God and Principle 4: I AM Truth (with a little bit of Principles 2, 3, 5, 6 and 7 sprinkled on for topping).

More later… x

Everything Else Can Wait

Grateful to be back in the land of the living this week after a full 7 days of confinement with some modern day plague or other, I’m finding myself more than a little out of sorts… Ill? No, I’m better, thanks for asking, actually it’s more a sense of feeling like I’m out of synch with the world and being annoyed at the world for it.

Have you ever felt like your schedule was completely at odds with everyone else’s? Monday is a day where traditionally the world goes back to work after the weekend but what about those of us who work non-traditional hours? My Monday this week is set to be a day tackling some of the big jobs in my garden, I’ve done next to nothing so far and its a real mess… but what’s all that got to do with the Grail? Mother Nature has a schedule all of her own and she is the one who dictates when to grow and when to rest, when to plant seeds and when to blossom… she takes her cue from the moon and the sun and has no need of permission from the rest of society to step outside the bounds of what’s considered acceptable. Mother Nature knows what’s best for her and those precious things in her care, she accepts responsibility for the storms and the rain, for the unseasonable shifts in temperature and the early or late growth of the daisies… Mother Nature has no need of our consent, for she is our teacher and we simply forgot.

We ride against our natural urges and energy levels, constructing false presets for time and for propriety, we even see fit to adjust the clock because we disagree with her teachings… or at least somebody did at some point and we, the sheep that follow, have yet to question…

It’s Monday because someone somewhere told us it was, but it wasn’t Mother Nature. She would have you understand that the sheep don’t understand Monday, they understand the moon and the sun, awake and asleep, hungry and fed, warm and cold… To find the Grail you must honour your own rhythm, honour the tender bud within until it flowers. Get in synch with yourself first, believe it or not, Mother Nature is in control of you too.

Principle 2: I AM Detached

Principle 4: I AM Truth

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full

Everything else can wait.

More later… x

The Refining Chamber

Grail Oracle 6Grail Oracle Violet

You’ve been busy creating. I’m not just talking about the last few days, weeks or even months, I’m talking about years. Years of ideas and dreams, some good, some brilliant; they have carried you through highs and lows, ignited your imagination and sparked impossible journey’s that have time and time again proved that you are a Grail Knight extraordinaire… every creation a piece of the orchestra and the symphony you are writing is reaching a crescendo…

The combination I have picked for us all this week is marrying the energies of Principle 6: I AM Self-Full with the violet of the crown chakra, the chakra of divine inspiration and the most powerful of the 3rd dimensional chakras, activated by meditation and during dreamstate… Why though, is this about creation? Actually its not. Imagine for a moment that symphony I was talking about. When you started it all those years ago you were playing a different tune, banging a different drum. Every creation since has added to the music you’re hearing now and lets face it, this crescendo is in parts excruciating… so much so that you can no longer hear the beautiful song in your heart

All those Mozart’s among us will be aware that a harmonious arrangement is more about what you leave out than what you put in… but you didn’t know that when you started did you? You just kept adding to your creations whenever a good idea popped into the mix. The Refining Chamber can only be reached by paring back the layers of outdated used-to-be-me-but-I-don’t-fit-that-mould-anymore ideas, until all that can be heard is the still small voice within, the solo violin that blesses the next step of your journey.

I know you are thinking “But I worked so hard on that, it seems a shame to waste it.” Trust me, nothing has been wasted, it has all been about the very next step and the very next step has to be all about who you are now not who you were then… can you hear that whisper in all this noise? Do you know who you are?

Meditate; strip away all that isn’t necessary; listen before you speak; watch before you act; think before you create, and allow yourself to be led to your as yet unimagined destiny that will be so much more than you can currently comprehend…

Now that’s a piece of music I’d pay money to listen to.

Blessed be your journey… more next week… x

Turning Things Around

Are you easily distracted? My brother and I always refer to my mum as a “magpie” because she is addicted to shiny things. She has no need of them but she likes them… it frustrates the heck out of my brother but it just makes me chuckle. What I’ve realised is that I’m a magpie too, not in the same way as my mum, I have an “all that glitters” policy that stops me from being sucked in by shiny material things, no my magpie tendencies are for ideas, adventures and happenings… I get distracted.

I have a time management tool that attempts to keep me on the straight and narrow, one where I allocate optimum time for the projects that are important to me, time dedicated to seeing clients, my mum has a day and there’s me time, and what advertisers would call “white space” in the diary which can be filled with friends, socialising or any of the previously listed things depending on how the mood takes me… but I get distracted… not from the stuff that’s dedicated to others, clients, mum etc. Those are commitments that are sacrosanct, but I’m really good at giving away my time for me and the projects that are important to me!

Why is that?

Why is it that we sacrifice our own stuff for everyone else’s? What’s doubly annoying in my case is that most of my projects are for everyone else… divine service requires me to get my head down and do the work so that I can deliver the Grail to all of you in a much more comprehensive way than just my regular posts. There are programmes and training, meditations requiring recording, website reviews and a book all in progress but then I get distracted… Principle 1: I AM God is about recognising your own self worth and in doing so, embracing the concept that you too are important… your stuff is important… Principle 4: I AM Truth means that what you have to say, the world needs to hear (whether it chooses to listen or not is simply the opposite aspect of the same Principle).

Have you ever noticed how the universe has a way of making you sit down and take notice when you’re off plan? Well this week I was all set to go off to a shiny workshop all about dragons but the universe had other ideas and decided to bestow me with a great gift… the lurg! I went viral at around 3am on Saturday night/morning (not in a social media sense I might add) and I’ve been under self-imposed quarantine ever since, running the highest fever I’ve had in about 3 years… but did I lay down and die? Normally I would have but I saw a fabulous opportunity, I’m now up to date, back on track and on schedule with all those projects I’ve been avoiding and I feel really proud of myself for turning things around.

I guess the moral of this story is not to let yourself get sick before you realise that you and you’re priorities are exactly that: priorities, and are just as important as those of the people you’ve made commitments to.

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full benefits everyone in the long term… give in to self care… or the world will force you to.

More later… (hopefully once I’m out of quarantine) x

 

Rapids Ahead

As it’s the first Monday of the month, I shall bestow, as is now tradition, a challenge to my fellow Grail Knights, i.e. you…

Have you been putting something off? Are you holding out on taking the steps necessary for bringing something, some dream or ambition into the light? Perhaps it’s an obligation that you’ve been pushing to the bottom of the to-do pile but just knowing its there is getting under your skin? We all have fears and dreads that we build up in our minds to be far worse than the reality, in fact for the most part, the relief of just getting those objectives underway is reward in itself…

Taking that first step is the hardest because you have created an image in your mind of just how difficult it is going to be, how awful, irksome or tiresome, but that was your tendency towards employing the very opposite of Principle 2: I AM Detached, meaning you projected an illusion ahead of you that has noting to do with reality.

I’m going to suggest that the first step be a fun one, like the unsteady, clumsy attempt to climb into a canoe at the rivers edge just before you set off downstream on an adventure. Yes there might be rapids ahead, there might even be a waterfall but you might also have a gentle meandering lazy river that just carries you past your anxieties without you even noticing… if you’re anything like me then a few emotional rapids keep the journey interesting anyway. Whatever the tendencies of this river of life, you can be sure that you will climb out at the other end exhilarated by the journey and looking forward to the next stage… go on, jump in and flow.

More later… x

The Butterfly Maiden

Grail Oracle 2Grail Oracle Yellow

Pondering this combination today, it makes sense for me to clarify how The Intuitive Chalice Oracle works. Its primary purpose when I created it, was for use as a healing and diagnostic tool to be applied with The Wholly Grail’s concept of creating a life that leans towards inner peace and joy, but later it became apparent that it is also effective as an oracle for predicting and prescibing the current flow of energies. In the case of the former, each combination has a negative interpretation because it denotes what is needed where, and therefore lack, but as an oracle it has both positive and negative interpretations and therefore can contain up to 100 combinations…

The Butterfly Maiden is a beautiful example of the positive aspect of this combination that contains Principle 2: I AM Detached and marries it up with the vibrant yellow of the Solar Plexus. In its negative context this would be a reading all about anxiety and worry caused by the impending unknown, but it isn’t… In fact it is a joyous feeling that as a professional stress-head, is completely alien to me most of the time…

Remember back to when you very first felt the brush of young love… the anticipation of possibility as romance took over your entire being and the transformative nature of the experience as you stepped from childhood into the dangerous first glimses of adulthood? Your mind awash with fantasies and dreams as you walked through your day feeling the spell you were under and yet not understanding or caring about the potential dangers… Yes… let’s talk about the dangers.

When The Butterfly Maiden steps into your life she brings firstly the promise of that transformation just like the butterfly emerging from the chrysalis, but the butterflies she’s more interested in are the ones that are dancing around in her tummy as the universe weaves it’s fantastical spell. Caution has to be advised here, not because your fantasies are about to crash and burn, goodness me, no… I’m not that pessimistic, in fact the outlook for receiving your heart’s desire, according to the current rush of energy is amazing, no, you need to be cautious because your entire energy is ungrounded whilst you exist inside your fantasy bubble. Your romantic notions are so dreamy that you are becoming detached from the outside world and increasingly clumsy with it… Can you remember what you went in the other room for? Did you just drive home, park on the drive and then think “How did I get here?” not remembering the entire journey?

You’re happy, you’re excited, your imagination is already doing the dance of romance.. but like any butterfly: you are delicate and ungrounded…

Now get your head back in the game and focus!

May The Butterfly Maiden bring you the miracle you’ve been waiting for.

More next week… x

Happy Step

I’ve been battling this morning with an internal contradiction. On the one hand “I’m ok with how things are right now” but on the other hand “I’m not ok with how things are right now.” This dilemma when put into the context of: “I’ll be happy when…” is a classic example ignoring Principle 2: I AM Detached, projecting your attention to an as yet unwritten future and delaying your happiness until those criteria have been met (which of course they never will be because by the time you’ve achieved that set of wants a new set will have taken over).

What if though, what if you are not projecting into a future or for that matter looking back into a rose tinted past? What if your attention is right here in the present moment and you are looking at this current set of circumstances and saying “I am unhappy with how things are”?

When you commence a sentence with I AM… you are stating a command to the universe, defining your being and anchoring it to a certain set of parameters, be damn sure you want “unhappy” to be one of them before you announce the intention aloud, as even the continuous thought has immense power… so that’s the first job, correcting your vocabulary… now we need to address the underlying feeling of dissatisfaction.

Right here, now, in this moment you have a choice, the choice to be happy with your life or not, and there are only 3 things that stand between you and choosing happiness: gratitude, acceptance and self-improvement.

Acceptance is the key you’re looking for but sometimes acceptance feels a little out of reach when you aren’t where you hoped you be. Beginning with gratitude lubricates the fixed consciousness you’ve acquired and widens the perspective to everything that’s beneficial about your current circumstances so start by making a comprehensive list of those things that you’re grateful for… try to keep it relevant, you can include being grateful for the trees if you like (I am) but unless your current circumstances involve being unhappy in your job as a forest ranger or tree surgeon then it’s a little out of context. Keep listing until you can see an emerging pattern to the blessings of why you’re here in this situation and acceptance becomes the next natural progression… appreciation will almost certainly begin to creep into the mix and at this stage you need to be careful because you are getting dangerously close to feeling content and oh my goodness, hold the phone, are you happy? Well, not quite…

Self-improvement? I’m not talking about the endless programs of self help stuff, I’m talking about accepting responsibility for your own life and where you are at, and then committing to taking the action needed to change it… down tools, assess the direction you wish to travel and then take measured steps towards it… not towards happiness, every step should be a happy step, but away from dissatisfaction which only comes from being unfulfilled and that comes from not living up to your potential and that comes from not being all you can be…

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full has many connotations but being the happiest, healthiest, highest achieving you is central to your well-being. If you’re unhappy, you’re not being Self-Full.

My list is underway already and I’m dangerously close to contentment…

More later… x

The Final Dragon

If I was to tell you there where only seven things that stand between you and complete mastery of your own inner peace and well-being, just seven doors to unlock to find your best life, love, and light, would you ask for the keys?

Easter Monday, and with the energy of rebirth and resurrection in full swing, what better time than to gift yourself the keys to your own freedom, the ability to embrace your greatest challenges and overcome your deepest fears simply by dedicating yourself to these seven steps to happiness.

Do I sound like a sales pitch? Ha! Sometime in the not too distant future, I will be travelling deeper into the Grail Principles for those who wish to go with me, but if you’re paying attention then you will see that the entire Wholly Grail is and has been freely available for those wishing to embark on this quest and all you have to do is tame seven dragons:

The first Dragon is named “Worthiness” and He is King.

The second Dragon is named “Presence” and He is a thief.

Dragon three is named “Forgiveness” and He is damaged.

Dragon four is named “Authenticity” and He is adaptable.

The fifth Dragon is named “Freedom” and He will not be chained.

Dragon six is named “Me” and He will reflect your every move.

The final Dragon is named “Love” and to conquer Him is to move beyond need and into peace for He is completion.

These Dragons, The Principles of The Wholly Grail will highlight the path, protect you whilst you walk it and bring you squarely home to your dreams.

Have a happy bank holiday… I’m off now to teach a Magical Chalice Workshop (The Grail through the veil of magic and mysticism).

More later… x

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