I have to admit there is more than just a little irony in this article because I’m finding balance when the world keeps spinning figuratively, literally and perceivably.
I relaunched the blog last week along with a new Facebook group for women, a new email list, several different video offerings including exclusive Grail content and the return of my YouTube Dragon Readings, which I adore doing so much. So to all intents and purposes, the world really speeded up for me after I had taken quite a significant amount of time out to explore my direction, whilst also managing my own emotional healing journey and looking after my elderly mum who has been in and out of hospital for over a year now.
I got to contemplating how the world just keeps on spinning no matter what we go through, not because it just came to me in a flash, but because in the midst of this (though I’d like to call it a finely honed and precision relaunch), in reality, chaotic and frenzied return to my Grail work, I seem to have developed a rather queer inner ear imbalance that causes everything to look like it is spining.
I remember this feeling from years ago when I used to enjoy alcohol. You know that awful sensation you get when you’re pissed out of your face and you lie down, then the room starts pretending to be the waltzer at the fairground… and there’s you, clinging on for dear life in case you go flying off the end of the bed?
Yeah, that feeling!
Well, that’s me at the moment, minus the alcohol.
Inner ear infection? Maybe. Virus? Possibly. The onset of vertigo? Potentially… whatever it is, it’s timing couldn’t be more inconvenient or it’s message more poignant: something is out of balance.
If I also take into account my physical reaction to the imbalance, it gives a clue to what I might be responding to energetically. I keep veering off sideways and falling over! A sideways move instead of moving forward?
Imbalance in our our lives occurs for all sorts of reasons and often when we think we are moving forward we are actually not really tackling the one thing that the universe wants us to face. In my case I have taken massive action to deal with all the peripheral stuff that supports my soul’s mission, but I have yet to actually tackle the main event. I’ve side-stepped the difficult bit in favour of the pretty trimmings and the universe has said: “Oi! do you think We can’t see what you’re doing?”
Finding balance, for me, is now having to come from multiple angles:
- I’ve had to get really Self-Full.
- I’ve had to stop and assess where I’m at.
- I’ve had to say no to everything that isn’t “On Purpose.”
- I’ve had to acknowledge where fear is leading me into denial.
When I listen to my own soul’s voice and really hear what it is asking me to heed, I automatically begin to unravel the difficulties I get myself into, and I do that by returning to the Grail time and time again… I ask myself if I can honestly say I am living the “I AM” statements that make up the 7 Principles and then I seek to understand if not, why not?
- Do I really accept myself for who I am?
- Am I fully present with what is or am I projecting?
- Am I blaming myself or another for what is (or was)?
- Am I being swayed by opinion rather than holding fast to my truth?
- Am I holding on so tightly to what I have that I’ve become it’s captive?
- Am I taking responsibility for caring for my own needs?
- And am I somehow restricting the flow of abundance from the universe?
I can honestly say that there are more than a few on the list that are requiring another look for me and the most important step is remembering that every time we embark on a new leg of the journey, we are required to revisit the Grail.
The Grail is peace, balance, joy, fulfilment… and because the world keeps spinning, it keeps getting knocked over and requires that you reset it… that doesn’t mean it’s not fun, and I’m having lot’s of that at present trying to find the right formula for tackling the big things and the little things, at the core and the periphery…
I’m finding balance when the world keeps spinning!
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