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Modus Operandi Part 3: A Promise Is A Promise

If you didn’t catch the previous Modus Operandi posts (still available in the site’s archive) I’ve been exploring where our intentions to walk the path of enlightenment differ from our actions. Often we are in some form of denial about how effective our daily practice actually is and blinded to the occasions where we drift from our Higher Self’s encouragings.

Today then let me draw your attention to your failures… as if they need me to point them out. That’s the problem: we are so quick to intellectually and emotionally return to the scenes of our apparent inability to succeed that we fail to acknowledge the valuable lessons along the way. Principle 3: I AM Human, is the gateway towards forgiveness. Forgiveness of self as well as everyone else… for everything. In forgiving, we make a promise to ourselves to let go of the hurt, the shame, the self-abusive mind chatter and the limiting stories that go along with the prior failure… and a promise is a promise.

The realisation in the moment of forgiveness is that you went there but you don’t have to go there again, you know what lies down that road now. In reality though, we see the “I know how this turns out” and we think “what’s the point in resisting?” Why then is it so common for us to break those promises we make to ourselves?

As it’s Monday, a full moon and a lunar eclipse no less, I think today is a fabulous day to make a promise to yourself to not break any more promises you make to yourself. No matter what the past actions or outcomes, your soul is urging you to explore a different way of being, and to everyone else your word is your bond… you are just as worthy of being treated with that much respect especially from yourself.

Start by making an inventory of all the things you’ve promised yourself recently, reassess which ones are relevant to your present situation and plans for a brighter future and then take a look at your motives: is it for your highest good and that of those around you? Pick 3 things from your list that you can start now… don’t plan (if you’re anything like me then you’re a great planner and it can often be a form of further procrastination or an affirmation of how far from the target you currently are), just take the first step followed by small measured actions, you can always create the plan along the way. Yes I know that “failing to plan means planning to fail” in all that success training… but admit it, you tried that didn’t you?

The last thing to now is listen to yourself, your thoughts and your excuses. Remember now that forgiveness, “I AM Human” is not an excuse for not trying your best this time, but it is a full pardon for not quite hitting the mark last time around.

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Happy Monday… x

Modus Operandi Part 1 – Don’t Tell Me Show Me

The seven Wholly Grail Principles are tools by which to create inner peace, harmony, health and happiness, but they can only achieve that if you are willing to embrace them and apply them. Many of us are willing and even believe that to a certain extent we are doing the work but when push comes to shove it turns out that denial is the reality. If your Modus Operandi matches the Grail, don’t tell me show me.

Your method of operating is your truth. What that means is, no matter how much you affirm any of the 7 “I AM’s,” if you do the opposite then you’re not faithfully following the path.

Take heart, the path is the path of life and most of us are just making it up as we go along, so even affirming a Principle is the first step to getting back on the path and course correcting towards enlightenment and more tangibly wellbeing.

So what is your M.O?

Let’s take Principle 1: I AM God… This simple yet provocative statement is revealing who you truly are behind your human facade. It says “I AM Divine Light,” “I AM Worthy…” It announces to your peers (of which everyone is a candidate simply because the affirmation “I AM God” applies to everyone and everything), that you respect yourself and you understand that you have a valuable role to play in the unfolding universe.

So, you can quote the Principle as a reminder or as an accolade but if your actions are to do the opposite, like say allowing yourself to be disrespected, constantly belittling and berating yourself, accepting less than you’re worth or less than your share, then your Modus Operandi is leading you down a road towards imbalance, resentment and unhappiness… not the Grail.

Spend just 10 minutes today assessing where in your life you say “I AM God” or something similar but consistently settle for less than a divine being is worth. A declaration of worth is just hot air otherwise.

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More later… x

Preparing On Purpose

Be prepared. What does that even mean? As the motto of a boy scout it seems like a worthwhile pursuit, but how exactly do you expect to be prepared for the unexpected?

You are prepared, at least as well as you can be, for whatever life has to throw at you, simply because you have spent your entire life preparing for this moment… yes, this one.

Everything that has ever happened to you, every person you have ever met, every conversation you have ever participated in, everything you have witnessed, experienced, learned and done, has been in preparation for this moment. You see, God does nothing by accident. If you look back at your life you can clearly see the synchronicity of each event and how it smoothly led to the next which eventually brought you to this place. And no matter how ready (or not) you felt to undergo each transition through initiation by fire, you got here… that means you were ready and life had prepared you for the level of success or failure it required to get you to the next step…

Success or failure?

Yep! That’s what I said. Only The Great Unseen has the big picture and so what you see, as success may actually be the opposite of the catalyst you need to move the pieces across the cosmic chessboard towards your destined outcome, big picture success could require small detail failure, at least for now. But win or lose, the experience is the preparation for the next bit.

Now of course the boy scouts could be referring to the contrived concept of preparing on purpose….

Imagine for a moment you’re about to go on a first date. What does preparation look like then? Oh my goodness the lengths we go to, just in case: scrubbed, shaved, waxed, buffed, plucked, preened… moisturised, manicured, and that’s all before we select the perfect outfit… do we wear super-sexy, girl next door, casual, formal? What about shoes? Oh yeah, and do we go for the Bridget Jones knickers or the matching skimpy set? Now if you’re a boy I’d imagine the process is similar if a little less lengthy and stereotypically more focused on whether your car is waxed and buffed than your body, but what’s the point of all of this?

Are you now preparing on purpose for every possible eventuality or are you simply focusing on the external causes of your own lacking self-esteem in an attempt to convince yourself that you can cover up your imperfections? If that’s the case than I suggest that your preparation time would be better spent on learning to appreciate how beautiful you are from the inside out. Nothing is more attractive that confidence, self- love and the ability to shine your Divine essence in spite of outward appearance.

This applies to all events and encounters… you are ready now for whatever Big G sends your way…. if you aren’t ready, it won’t arrive anyway. Remember this: you are in exactly the right place at the right time, with all the appropriate training and wherewithal for whatever is coming your way. Succeed or fail, win or lose… this moment is yours. Don’t waste it on wondering if you have the right knickers on. If it’s worth all the fuss then the fuss won’t matter.

Principles 1, 2 & 6, included above, can be found here.

More later… x

Saturday Oracle – Your Own Best Friend

For the second week running the issue of Self-Full Living has risen to the surface to remind you that you matter…

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full combines its powerful influence with the sacral chakra to highlight your relationships and more importantly this week, where you fit into them.

Redefining boundaries will feature heavily in the next few days as you find more and more that your needs are not being met and in some cases you are being taken advantage of.

You may notice that those close to you are making the rules up as they go along and are somewhat oblivious to the effects of their actions… it’s not personal, they are simply behaving in a way that feels natural to them and as you may have been passively standing by as standards deteriorate, now is not the time to apportion blame for the fact that you feel violated or otherwise affronted.

The issue here lies in the assumption that loved ones actually know what you want… have you been clear?

Knowing where you end and others begin is a tricky business especially when you’re invested in the friendship/partnership/relationship, as rocking the boat by being vocal about what’s gone wrong can often feel confrontational if handled badly, perceivably risking the connection, but here’s the thing: strong fences, good neighbours make. In layman’s terms that’s pointing out that without boundaries conflicts ensue.

All that being said, this week it’s time to be your own best friend and take back control of your life by first accepting responsibility for allowing your energetic walls to be breached and then clarifying your position.

Everyone benefits from knowing where they stand.

Ask Archangel Michael to guide you to find the right words to use and to cut cords and attachments to fear based thoughts that have thus far caused you to remain passive or silent and ask for everyone’s highest good to be served by your assertive actions.

More next week… x

Saturday Oracle – The Onion Layer

Grail Oracle 6Grail Oracle Yellow

The Intuitive Chalice Oracle is a tool for unearthing the flow of energy happening in your life and is also used a diagnostic tool for healing with The Wholly Grail. Combining one of the Grail’s seven Principles with one of the subtle body’s seven main 3rd dimensional chakras to form a picture of what area of the mind, body or spirit is trying to get your attention at this time.

This week’s combination is spot on for me and made me whence slightly before I unleashed a smile at the underlying possibilities. Whenever Principle 6: I AM Self-Full shows up you absolutely must turn your attention inwards towards your own personal needs regardless of how much your personality drives you towards selflessness. An empty vessel can’t support anybody so it’s time to assess what’s in need of refuelling and seek to give that very thing to yourself.

When the yellow of the solar plexus chakra is highlighted its primary focus is on your self-worth, personal power, innate joy and of course the exact opposite.

Be prepared to feel the negative forces of doubt and depression this week if they haven’t already started. Self destructive behaviours are to be watched for, like: addictions such as overeating, ¬†excessive alcohol consumption, drugs and other distractions to numb or deaden the internal disturbance you may be feeling as we enter a temporary phase of feeling lost.

I want to make something clear at this point, this energy is temporary if you allow it to be and is a negative reaction to a positive shift. You have been transforming gently over the course of this year and a deep healing process has been undertaken to show you who you truly are and what you are capable of. This isn’t a hiccup in the process it’s the next phase, the next layer of the onion shedding to reveal the radiant beautiful soul beneath. The negativity is simply a fear response to yet more change but this time the work you have already put in combined with recognising what’s happening means you have the choice not to succumb to the destructive behaviours or give in to fear.

Something wonderful is just around the corner and you deserve the impending reward… rise up and make preparation. Focus on your own needs… Do you need to rest? Do you need to detox? Do you need to establish your own boundaries? Do you need to shift locations or redefine home? Do you need to be more connected to family, friends and loved ones? Fine what makes you happy and surrender the rest to an ever loving Source. Ask the angels to surround, guide and comfort you through this process and let them lead you to healthier choices based on nurturing your divine nature and not by punishing or suppressing it. Be Self-Full. That doesn’t mean being selfish, giving may be exactly what you need. Sharing can nurture the spirit just as much as becoming insular, like sharing a smile as you pass a stranger, sharing a couple of hours with a loved one over a coffee or perhaps even sharing yourself in a warm embrace with someone you love is exactly what’s called for right now.

Your innate happiness hasn’t gone anywhere, it will return once The Onion Layer is safely removed. If the onion makes you cry in the meantime… that’s healing too.

More next week… x

Saturday Oracle – Your Vibrational Match

Grail Oracle 4Grail Oracle Orange

There seems to be a fair bit of relationship advice springing forth from the oracle of late and this week’s combination is definitely pointing to opening a dialog about intimacy.

At the beginning of new relationships there is usually some form of guarded behaviour as to our true feelings and we hold back on what we feel to be emotional intimacy for fear of being hurt, ridiculed or rejected. It’s an unfortunate truth that many new couples start out by pretending to be something other than they are particularly with each other. For some reason we believe ourselves to be so much less than we are and somehow our shadow side’s take over the rational mind and distort our perception of ourselves physically, mentally and emotionally.

When Principle 4: I AM Truth jumps out of the pack it challenges you to be you in all your “f**ked up glory” because you are absolutely unique down to the cellular level… why then would you try to be anything else? When you consider the fact that everybody is just as messed up as you are, and that they have a similarly distorted view of what they view as their shortcomings… turns out we are all intimidated by making a good impression… but here’s the good bit: New relationships mean that everyone involved is far too loved-up to care if you have flaws so it’s actually the perfect time to embrace you uniqueness.

The bright orange of the sacral chakra is a magnetic energy and is calling in your mate… Emotional intimacy isn’t just about getting naked and sharing yourself physically, it’s about taking down the walls that stand between your true nature and the one who, in this moment, is your vibrational match. If you are pretending to be someone else then your vibrational match is matching the lie that you are portraying…

Get real… love is real… and you deserve that.

If you are in an existing relationship and somewhere along the line it lost its sparkle, now is a great opportunity for self-examination as to where you aren’t being honest about who you are, the person you have become, what your needs are etc, again open up a dialog with a partner… this is so for all your intimates at this time: romantic partners, your family members, your closest friends and so on… remember its about letting down walls and revealing the imperfect yet perfect you that hides beyond.

More next week… x

The Guilty Party

Grail Oracle 3Grail Oracle Yellow

I can’t believe I pulled this exact combination just two weeks ago in The Ego’s Trap! Persistent energy shows an unresolved dynamic and so let’s delve a little deeper into this combo…

Once again Principle 3: I AM Human jockeys with the yellow energy of the solar plexus chakra in a bid to create fear or cheer. The Guilty Party forces us to look at our failures and fears, our inmate human fallibility with compassion and forgiveness, but often before we arrive at those 5th dimensional qualities of grace we have to explore lower vibrations like shame and guilt to name just a couple. These judgements we make about our mistakes are often confused with the truth of who we are and we begin to see ourselves as the action, for example: “I am a failure” rather than “I have failed.”

This week you are being asked to take a leap into a familiar feeling potential-for-failure type situation but this time you are being asked to replace your fearful and self-accusatory thoughts with positive affirmations in order to short circuit what must have at some point felt like a losing streak.

Remember that when you walk into a room, no matter how many times you’ve been through that very same door, this time, with a positive outlook you could attract the successful greeting that you have been hoping for. You alone have the power to determine your success or failure and it begins with self-belief.

I believe in you.

More next week… x

The Permission Slip

Grail Oracle 6Grail Oracle Blue

The Intuitive Chalice Oracle has offered up a combination this week that will either thrill you or really piss you off!

Uniting Principle 6: I AM Self-Full with the royal blue of the throat chakra invites us to remember a time when mum would allow you to do or get you out of some school activity or other by writing a note… The Permission Slip.

What this energy flow is bringing in, is less about what the permission is for and more about the world being at odds with you on the issue of whose authorisation you need in order to do it.

As a child, it’s not so easy to override an adult’s instruction but as an adult, you have complete control over what you do, when you do it, who you do it with and for how long. Now, this may cause controversy within certain structures and organisations as we are a race of controlled, by the book, oh-my-goodness-me-I-couldn’t possibly-make-a-spontaneous-self-indulgent-decision type of people, and so when we do, eyebrows are raised, air gets sucked in and judgemental looks a plenty start rolling your way.

This week you are being asked to take control of your personal “No” and indulge your personal “Yes” on the things that are true for you, recognising when and where you are communicating with conviction or simply making excuses because you believe you owe someone an explanation for the choices you make for your own life. Nobody has the right to dictate the course of your life provided you aren’t breaking any laws and you are not required to justify being happy… this week you have the perfect opportunity to be the one who metaphorically writes the permission slip, and in doing so you can clearly communicate your needs with confidence. Communication need not be wrapped up in lengthy explanations when a simple “this is the way things are” will suffice.

Why would this piss you off? Maybe it’s just me but nobody enjoys being told what they can and can’t do, feel or say… Don’t ask a Grail Knight to justify being Self-Full… only God gets to do that.

Happy express yourself week!

More later… x

The Willing Recipient

Grail Oracle 1Grail Oracle Yellow

I’ve been chomping at the bit today to explore this combination from The Intuitive Chalice Oracle for all of us, me included, because when I pulled the cards first thing this morning to contemplate, I had such a rush of excited enthusiasm about the way the energy is flowing.

Blending the first Principle: I AM God with the bright yellow energy of the Solar Plexus, The Willing Recipient is heralding a boon of unprecedented proportions arriving either energetically or tangibly from a benevolent Source. This gift is the universe’s way of compensating you for the work you’ve done thus far in arriving safely at your present location, experience safely translated into personal wisdom and packed into your toolkit for future use on the path.

We have come through a rough passage of late, many have been walking around dazed and confused since the new moon wondering why they feel the way they do… Somewhat baffled in fact by a sense of overwhelm detracted by a field of grace… Like you are wandering around thinking, “I should be depressed. To the outside world I might look and even sound depressed… but the absolute truth is I don’t feel depressed… but I dont know why I don’t!” Ridiculous as that sounds, being sensitive to energy flow, standing on a threshold of what’s done and what’s to be offered, knowing that now is the point when everything changes but not what changes are required…

I was privileged to work with one of my healing clients this afternoon (always a pleasure… you know who you are), and I described this sense of transition as being like the old Wheel of Fortune game show whereby you are the needle on the dial and the universe has just spun you around, you’re not in control of where that needle is going to land and there is nothing you can do until it stops spinning so you might as well let go and let God until such time as you come to a full stop and a real life opportunity to choose is placed in front of you…

Now this is the fun part (or not) because you have no idea what the choice is going to be and what area of your life it’s going to affect and if indeed it is a ‘gift’ then why is a choice involved at all? Well, because the universe is all about balance and that’s why you have been making space for this gift to arrive but, and it its a big but, you are going to have to make one final sacrifice in order to receive the bounty… I wish I could tell you what it is… I’m psychic but I’m not that good! Imagine if you will, a new baby, what a blessing? You will have to grow up, give up your freedom, take on the responsibility… see what I mean about a gift that brings with it sacrifice?

So why The Willing Recipient? Principle 1 is the quest for self-worth. An angel is going to turn up at your door this week (not literally, at least I don’t think so), and say “Special delivery for the resident Grail Knight” and you now have a choice, you can say “Oh yes that’s for me, Ive been expecting something wonderful, where do I sign?” or you can say “I’m not sure who it’s for… no Grail Knight’s here just surfs and waifs and the great unwashed” and though the angel knows damn well it’s a gift just for you, he’ll wing it back to the cosmic depot and report in to the Big Fella saying “Not ready to receive, delivery declined, the package was too much, too big, too…

Being worthy isn’t about hubris, its about the quiet acceptance that you are the Divine in human form and that He doesn’t make mistakes… When your angel shows up with a gift this week, no matter how big or small, simply say “Thank you, I’m not sure if I’m ready… but I AM Willing.” The needle will stop spinning and you can make your choices.

May your week ahead be filled with a thousand blessings… all of which you are worthy of.

More next week… x

A Few Moments of Silence

What happens when the cup runs dry?

The individual Principles of the Wholly Grail are there as antidotes to the stresses and strains that life bestows, bringing you inner peace and respite from external and internal drama, but what happens when you get so out of balance, so disturbed by the happenings going on around you that several of the Principles fall of the table knocking the proverbial cup clean over and emptying it out? In basic terms your energy, mental, physical and emotional resources hit an all-time low and your fight, will and resistance to illness dissipate.

For a while you might carry on but the tell tail signs of a lack of drive, enthusiasm and zest for living will be conspicuous by their absence. Others will sense a flat texture to your energy and no matter how much you smile on the outside, what they witness with their eyes they will be unable to reconcile with what their souls sense on a deeper level. Their truth will be confused if they do not trust the intuitive whisperings of their higher selves but more importantly your truth can only be disguised for so long when there are no resources to maintain the smoke and mirrors.

So what do you do?

Rock bottom isn’t a nice place to be but it is a place where great healing takes place. It’s a place of profound change through learning and if you are lucky enough, perhaps with the aid of the angels, once you climb out, you will never have to visit this place again.

Though it is the 6th Principle: I AM Self-Full is the first place to start when there’s nothing left in your energetic storehouse. It means attending to your physical health first with proper nutrition, sleep, hydration and oxygenation/exercise. Introduce Principle 1: I AM God, by indulging in self-care activities such as massage, home beauty treatments and recognising that you are worth your own time and attention. Self-Fullness requires that you say no to anything that saps your energy so relinquish unnecessary commitments, appointments and demands… focus on what’s important… not to others but to you. Next, it’s time to combine creativity with finding yourself some happy… creativity unused or poorly managed, can be the very fire that burns you out so channel this precious resource into something fun… why do you think I started baking?

The angels will help you to prioritise what’s necessary and you can surrender anything you cannot control to them. Archangel Azrael will offer you safe space to let go and will help you grieve for what’s gone whilst Archangel Haniel will surround you in grace and help you to honour your own sensitivity and cycles of energy… none of this is possible though until you indulge in the most powerful healing tool on offer… you must meditate.

In just a few moments of silence – within and without, you can reset your Grail Quest to ready and your Grail cup upright ready to be filled.

Have a Self-Full weekend, you’re worth it.

More later… x