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Rediscovering Your Light – The Music In Me

This moment feels like an awakening, where many are opening up to the message within. The music in me has been activated at a level I have not experienced before and it feels like the dawn of a new age of light, following on from what I feel I want to refer to as my dark years.

The music in me was present at my birth and has simply been lying dormant, awaiting a time when Spirit decided to activate the next level.

The first recognisable activation was a total breakdown of my health in 2003, the second in 2008 when I quit my corporate job to work for spirit, the next occurred in 2012 when I began to unravel what I had built… at that precise time Spirit unlocked my understanding of The Grail… The Grail had always been my music but had now found a structure: a melody.

The dismantling has taken me 7 years, dark years. I don’t use the word dark to describe something bad or to be feared, but more to describe the time a seed spends in the fertile earth waiting to be awakened by spring. A remembering of love in the womb-like state before rebirth.

Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, the focus of the Intuitive Chalice Oracle at the weekend, proposes the ingress of light that in turn flows out through each of us to be transmitted through our own unique melody like the in-breath and the out-breath of the universe… The dark years are your whole being inhaling.

Darkness seems to absorb light until it becomes so saturated that when it’s consumed enough, it shines.

Consider the flow then to be a slower process, the blink of an eye in universal terms but in terms of a human lifespan: the in-breath can take years… light years.

Now entering the light years, my music is shifting… The melody remains as it was but the key has changed.

Becoming a channel for Spirit requires that you trust the process, allowing for the dreamtime, the dark years where the music is reforming and maturing, where the light is reshaping the vessel and new understanding is carving away the shell of the seed. When the time is right there will be no question… no need to ask if the light has returned… it was always within you transforming you at a cellular level for the moment when Source calls to you to say: “Now exhale, child.”

The music is in you too. It exists as your own unique purpose, mission and at some point, passion. Trust that when the time is right, the world will hear you exhale.

If you would like help through the healing and reshaping of your dark years and understanding where you are on your Grail path, please do get in touch or book a transformative session.

More later… x

The Kiss Of Death

(…and why I had to stop)

Standing in the interior castle courtyard and not wanting to ignore any detail of the unfolding story, this time when Death came riding around me on his white horse I stood motionless awaiting his next move.

The skeletal features of this armoured figure somehow staring without eyes into my very soul as he dismounted the powerful mare and stood before me. His presence so much gentler, settling and reassuring than I had assumed, but why I was surprised by this when my entire spiritual journey has been guided by the Archangel of Death, I don’t know.

Death leaned in and removed my hood, softly kissing me on the forehead before handing me the single white rose he carried as an emblem, signifying the resilience of the spirit. Climbing back on his horse he turned to me and nodded before he sped away across the courtyard and disappeared into the mist.

I’d been kissed by death.

Of course it was merely a meditation but the symbology was so intense that I had to write about the experience and how it is shaping my reality today.

The Death card in a traditional tarot deck has all the hallmarks of the image I described above: the armoured (sometimes cloaked) skeleton on a horse and the symbol of the white rose. The skeleton being the most resilient part of the human body and the rose, which each year is pruned down to just its own skeleton only to return back stronger the following season with even more abundant blooms… this is the cycle of death and rebirth, of transformation occurring only when all superfluous clutter is sufficiently cleared away to reveal the hardiest most resilient part, the foundation of what is worthy of growth.

That’s why I had to stop. I couldn’t see the roses for the weeds, and the beauty I had cultivated privately and professionally was in danger of being lost. Death kissed me to show me I had pruned away enough now and what remained was the beautiful rose already in bloom that I just couldn’t see.

The arrival of Death was not a signal of losses to come, but the beautiful gift of knowing that the losses are over and the new beginning has arrived. This time, with nothing but that which is worthy of growing. 

Arriving back in the castle courtyard this morning, I was flanked by white rose bushes in full bloom, lining the path to my destination. I’m home.

Principle 4: I AM Truth and Principle 5: I AM Liberated.

More later… x

Monday Mating Musings – This Time Around

In the Oracle post at the weekend I mentioned its similarities with the tarot cards: The Tower, Star and Wheel of Fortune. As a collection they offer the breaking down of circumstances and a hopeful outlook towards a second chance at mastery as fate brings something around again for consideration. Will you do it differently this time around?

Life goes around in cycles and we are often faced with familiar situations that, although the details may have changed such as the faces, places and appearances, but the lesson is often exactly as it was before simply because we didn’t settle it right. Sometimes the players are the same but the timing makes all the difference…

Let’s take relationships for example… My current astrology transit is full of the reappearance of an old acquaintance or former love… a connection that is unresolved coming back to the fore for us to have another crack at it. Being an avid supporter and promoter of Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, I have no problem with people showing up in my life again, simply because I don’t carry grudges, I don’t have space for them and I don’t like the taste a grudge leaves in your mouth. That being said, I do often ask the questions: why now and what for?

I’m an inquisitive soul and learning is a much faster process when we ask questions but to be honest, just observing is as effective when it comes to relationships especially when you’ve been there before. This time around you have a road map, landmarks, signs and signals… but you also have a brand new day, another crack at the whip and therefore a chance to follow a different path to a different kind of relationship or outcome but that takes real bravery…

When you know what the pitfalls are in a union, why would you choose to repeat them? The universe has seen fit to bring the unlikely pieces together for whatever reason, magnetic pieces of a bigger puzzle that keep attracting each other together only for one of you to flip polarity and repel at the last minute. But why do we have to flip polarity? Fear? Fear of what? Am I the one whose polarity switches?

I have a fatal flaw when it comes to relationships: I believe in complete emotional honesty. I believe in being upfront about how I feel, I completely own my own feelings and I’m really not afraid of them. Obviously that’s not really a flaw, it’s a refreshingly uncomplicated “know-where-you-stand” position for another to be faced with, but it also burns really hot and is often too intense for those who have, for reasons of self preservation, had to suppress within themselves. So how can I do it different this time? Should I play it cool? Should I pretend I’m just not that interested? Should I ignore completely the opportunities I’m faced with?

Here is the thing: I love me. Who I am has taken years to accept, to acknowledge as a worthy and beautiful divine being (Principle 1: I AM God). My light is blinding, I burn with such intensity that like the Sun, I create worlds… if you are afraid of my fire, I understand, but do not ask me to tame it, to diminish my light or offer less than all of myself, because to do so would only burn me and nobody has the right to ask me to self harm.

This time around, what needs to be different is this early warning: “If you choose to approach, make sure you are fireproof. Leave the  extinguisher at the door, it will put out the flame in everyone involved. Don’t fear my honesty, it is your shield and your mirror, instead fear your own heart’s armour that keeps you in perpetual separation from that which you seek.”

Wow! That turned out to be a bit more personal than I intended but hey, I’m not looking for a repeat performance, I’m looking for a brand new version of divine dance.

What are you going to do differently this time around?

More later (when I’ve finished my packing)… x

 

Saturday Oracle – Heads: You Win, Tails: You Still Win

Our trusty favourite: The Sacred Chalice makes an appearance this week and of course we don’t need to pull a chakra challenge card with this indicator as it stands alone and speaks for itself. And it affects every part of your life when it shows up. We don’t always consider it a favourite though, considering it could literally go either way unless of course you begin to take the attitude and perspective of “Heads: you win, Tails: you still win.”

If life, health, wealth, love and happiness were the contents of a cup (or sacred chalice), then the fuller the cup the more of those things you would enjoy, or any combination of them. What if the cup spilled? Now you would consider yourself to be really unlucky in those areas and to potentially have lost everything, right?

What if the now empty cup was instead considered and pure, clear vessel in which create abundance with fresh energy and new versions of those things that you think you lost? What if the spilled contents were merely making way for more beautiful opportunities to flow into your life?

When you see this week as a win-win situation whichever way the Chalice shows up, then the surge of wonderful that is headed your way will be just that, provided you employ every one of the Grail Principles.

Change is inevitable. The Sacred Chalice is akin to a blended Tower, Star and Wheel of Fortune in the tarot. It can bring blessings but it can also bring stress as your circumstances shift. Whatever is going on around you, keep a keen eye on your health and well-being while the chaos subsides and remember that whatever is making a mess in the moment, be it an upturned or an overflowing Grail cup, when the dust settles and you look back at it from the other side of this week, you will see the miracles and the potential for even more.

More next week… x

 

Developing Reverence In The Transitory Nature Of Everything

“This too shall pass.”

A statement meant to comfort, clarifying that no state of being is permanent and therefore if you don’t like how things are you need only wait, and with the passing of time whatever is will become something new.

As human beings we take comfort in only a part of that story, simply because we crave stability to counter the uncontrollable effects of change and evolution, we fight against the passing of anything except our most excruciating experiences which of course we welcome the release of and from.

Developing reverence in the transitory nature of everything is a matter of observing from a detached perspective the cycles and seasons that come and go, reflecting every aspect of birth, life, decay, death and eventually rebirth. For me at this time of year as we begin to notice the daylight hours shortening, the acorns falling and the out-breath of nature sighing as she gives up her harvest before she sleeps, I begin to feel the passing of time more keenly than I do in the early spring months… spring is where life returns whereas autumn signals the beginning of the end… in truth it is all passing and it will all return, always in a different form… next year the oak will be older and taller, the acorns will have transformed into a saplings and what has passed will provide sustenance for the new growth.

This natural progression of unfolding is true of everything. Nothing is outside of nature, everything has its season and all will leave behind an imprint that goes on to nourish what’s next, even if it’s just a memory, a blessing and a lesson.

Principle 2: I AM Detached asks that you stay present with what is. By honouring what is, you pay homage to what was and participate in the creation of what is to come.

Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted asks that you do not grip onto any thing, anyone, or any circumstances. Let all flow to you, through and from you… unconditionally love what you are offered without wanting to change its essence for it is in essence already changing… be prepared then to love also what it becomes.

“This too shall pass.”

More later… x

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Monday Miracle – A Dream In The Making

I want you to know that you are not alone.

The last week or so has for many been a turbulent one. The universe has thrown everything it can your way to awaken you to the possibilities of a new way of being, but you cannot bring the old you along on the next part of the adventure. Let her (or him) die a metaphorical death so that you may be born anew.

It’s an anxious time, birth, but that’s what you are going through… maybe you’re bringing something forth in the external world like a new project, career, relationship or even an actual baby, but essentially the hidden miracle is that you are the very thing that you are giving birth to. Whatever is being created is creating a new version of you. Make no mistake that you will be changed forever.

There are cords, threads, hooks and chains all keeping you shackled to that old familiar version of yourself… some look like friends, family, old loves, habits both good and bad, fully invested in the previous incarnation that is attempting to return to stardust, reforming into a lighter, brighter more natural replacement. They won’t let go of what they know easily, she (he) could be depended upon to act a certain way, follow a certain pattern, be cajoled or controlled into what they needed regardless of how you felt or what you needed from her (him). I know you’re afraid. You too have come to have certain expectations of how life should be, what you are worth and whether this is your lot. You know this place. It’s safe. But it’s also stifling, restricted and painful…. let her die.

You are not alone.

The end of a karmic cycle is upon you and as unmapped as the onward path may be, you will be walking it with other intrepid souls who won’t let you fall.

This Monday Miracle is a dream in the making… feel out those old attachments, threads and chains and decide which ones bring joy, which bring sorrow, sadness and fear, choose to feed the joyful connections as you are reborn into the light and as you turn from the darkness all else will simply fade away.

This is the true you, your authentic self… and she (he) is magnificent.

Principle 1: I AM God, Principle 4: I AM Truth

More later… x

Demolishing The Pillars

I ran and I ran and I ran as fast as I could, as far as I could and when I stopped running I was right there where I stood.

No matter how far and how fast you run, when you are done running you will find that you couldn’t escape from yourself, from your thoughts, your memories, your faulty precepts and from your attitude about your life… so why do so many insist on running?

A fresh start isn’t such a bad thing of course, a new set of scenery and a chance to reinvent yourself without the resistance of environmental history and the people that make assumptions based on your past performance would absolutely have benefits but what’s to stop you from creating the same life in your new found location? What’s to stop you making the same mistakes over and over again?

Before you start making drastic changes to your external situation by demolishing the pillars of security you’ve built for yourself, take stock of the internal landscapes that you are honouring by mirroring in your everyday life… The beliefs you hold onto about who you are, where you’re positioned in relation to the world about you, what voices are guiding your decisions and if they are yours, a higher guidance or simply the negative echoes of other people’s opinions.

Adjusting your compass is a vital piece of the puzzle when attempting to redesign your life and if your compass isn’t set to true north then you will run toward a repeat performance of unsatisfactory or unsuitable.

The word compass is the leading edge of the word compassion and before you check out, you need to check in… check in on your compassion for yourself first and get friendly with who you are, who you’ve been and who you want to become. If your intended new self requires a new location, new compatriots and connections in order to create optimal conditions for growth then the opportunity will present itself, until then… where are you going?

Just so you know… I believe you’re perfection in progress… wherever you are.

Every one of the 7 Principles is contained within this piece.

More later… x