It struck me recently that at times life appears to herd you into a pen or down a narrow funnel into a situation that you didn’t choose… well at least not consciously anyway. Although at these times you’re focused on a desired outcome in one direction, your life around you seems to get tighter and tighter where you took your eye off the ball. At these moments you are forced to scramble to save what you have or to let go completely and lose everything, potentially risking bag lady status.
One of the problems at these junctures is that there are no guarantees at all of success in either direction. Focusing on saving yourself from falling guarantees a repeat pattern but not an improvement, and letting go completely guarantees losses but no actual gains. The only real guidance you have at a time like this is how the journey feels.
Fear is the shepherd that will coax you towards the opposite of happiness, but it can disguise itself as temporary relief. Relief is a skilled liar that will lull you into believing all is well when really all that is occurring is a short stay of execution. Dramatic I know, but think about it… are you scrambling to save everything you have because you are afraid of having less? Isn’t that settling for mediocre?
The Wholly Grail’s Principle 5: I AM Liberated asks you to let go of all that keeps you from living your most precious dream, and holding onto the opposite of happiness just because you are terrified your most precious dream cannot possibly exist is exactly what prevents it from existing.
I haven’t got the hang of it yet… I realised last night I was scrambling towards the opposite of happiness because it felt safe. I realised I was trying to save something that drained me, made me feel less than the miracle maker that I am, just because my most precious dream is showing no signs of manifesting (if it did I would jump without hesitation into the abyss of bliss). So I asked Big G this morning, “God, help me to be brave enough to risk it all for happiness.”
…and then I went out and rescued what I already had, just in case He isn’t quick enough with the answer. (Principle 3: I AM Human)!
Be braver than me, stop heading towards the opposite of happiness.
More later… x