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Gracious in Victory

I thought long and hard about writing this post. Part of me wanted to defer its subject matter until some kind of outcome has been determined for fear of jeopardising any longed for results, but I’m guided by angels and I’m guided by emotions and when something moves me to write then write I must regardless of the potential results.

I blossomed in joy yesterday when glimpses of my destination (a personal dream) appeared on the horizon with subtle hues of reflected beauty. Already walking a lighter path of late, this wave of encouragement was greeted with a heart full of love and anticipation for whatever comes this way, and my smile, both internally and externally was there for all to witness.

By the evening though, I understood a simple truth: up until now I had played the role of the gracious loser and this time as I appear to be furlongs ahead in the race towards victory, someone else would have to be licking their wounds.

If you have ever been in such a position you will know that when life and love and passion have been poured into a dream, to lose to someone else at the last hurdle is a gut wrenching experience. Self-esteem, worthiness, pride, they all come under heavy questioning in our unforgiving ego’s quest to justify what seems like destiny’s desperately unfair evaluation of the race… that’s why when it comes to competition – I move over, I always have… but not this time: God wouldn’t allow it, the prize wouldn’t allow it. Along the way I forgot it was ever a race, I began to walk, to appreciate the scenery along the way. I recognised that whatever the outcome, I’d already won.

but in the great universal balancing act somebody has to lose.

The glimpse that appeared on the horizon yesterday to make me rise and blossom, was fully visible to make another wither and fall. And I feel it… pride and hubris have no place on the path.

To be gracious in victory is to be compassionate about the pain and suffering of all the beautiful souls on this path… all the Grail Knights seeking that which was never missing from them, being denied access to the love at the centre of their quests, and as such I questioned: would it be wrong of me to express my joy? No… for I have searched long and hard to find my core and that joy, that victory that I already feel, though officially the race is not yet won, is mine to celebrate. But to gloat would I be a misuse of the gifts I have been given, in poor taste and at the expense of another human being, and so I send love… I send angels, I send my gratitude and healing, that should I ever again be the one to be gracious in defeat, let me be healed by the return of the ever flowing light to which I have contributed and refused to dim.

Your turn will come.

Principle 3: I AM Human

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full

But most of all Principle 1: I AM God and I AM Love.

More later… (when I return from my pilgrimage to Avalon, though I will pack the Intuitive Chalice Oracle for Saturday) x

The Permission Slip

Grail Oracle 6Grail Oracle Blue

The Intuitive Chalice Oracle has offered up a combination this week that will either thrill you or really piss you off!

Uniting Principle 6: I AM Self-Full with the royal blue of the throat chakra invites us to remember a time when mum would allow you to do or get you out of some school activity or other by writing a note… The Permission Slip.

What this energy flow is bringing in, is less about what the permission is for and more about the world being at odds with you on the issue of whose authorisation you need in order to do it.

As a child, it’s not so easy to override an adult’s instruction but as an adult, you have complete control over what you do, when you do it, who you do it with and for how long. Now, this may cause controversy within certain structures and organisations as we are a race of controlled, by the book, oh-my-goodness-me-I-couldn’t possibly-make-a-spontaneous-self-indulgent-decision type of people, and so when we do, eyebrows are raised, air gets sucked in and judgemental looks a plenty start rolling your way.

This week you are being asked to take control of your personal “No” and indulge your personal “Yes” on the things that are true for you, recognising when and where you are communicating with conviction or simply making excuses because you believe you owe someone an explanation for the choices you make for your own life. Nobody has the right to dictate the course of your life provided you aren’t breaking any laws and you are not required to justify being happy… this week you have the perfect opportunity to be the one who metaphorically writes the permission slip, and in doing so you can clearly communicate your needs with confidence. Communication need not be wrapped up in lengthy explanations when a simple “this is the way things are” will suffice.

Why would this piss you off? Maybe it’s just me but nobody enjoys being told what they can and can’t do, feel or say… Don’t ask a Grail Knight to justify being Self-Full… only God gets to do that.

Happy express yourself week!

More later… x