As this Modus Operandi series has progressed I hope you have begun to understand the difference between how you think you might be following the Wholly Grail Principles for inner peace as opposed to how you actually carry out your day to day life in opposition to your intentions. The title “Me Versus Myself” is true then for all these practices of self-defeating behaviours but never more so than when it comes to your health and self care.
Principle 6: I AM Self-Full, is vast in concept because it involves putting your own needs first in order to fill your cup ready to serve and share with others… that can mean intellectually, emotionally, creatively, professionally, intimately etc. Whatever way you give of yourself, if you fail to take care of your own basic needs by constantly placing others before yourself you will eventually drain the cup and become ill, ineffective and eventually unable to be of service to anyone… including yourself!
Some believe it selfish to put their own needs first, going without meals, without sleep, pushing hard to try to rescue others, failing to enforce personal boundaries and basically martyring themselves in the process to the point of burnout. Giving of yourself until there is nothing left will leave your dependents ultimately without the very person they depend on, so tell me: how does that work out to be less selfish?
Once the selfish aspect is dispelled we get to tackle the other side of denial, the side that says “I always take good care of myself” when actually you really don’t…
How nutritious is your diet, the very fuel for your body? Are you conscientiously equipping your physical vessel for the task ahead or are you so frenetic that you ram in whatever is in front of you without thinking just to provide fast but low grade energy to continue whatever you have currently deemed so much more important?
Do you rest your mind as well as your body adequately? Sleep when your mind is busy might as well be no sleep at all. I know a fair few people who survive on little or no sleep because deadlines and demands are put ahead of their health and others who spend so much time over-thinking and worrying that their quality of sleep is poor. Meditation, and a disciplined wind down practice can be of enormous benefit to this problem but here’s the thing: if you don’t adhere to Principle 1: I AM God, understanding your true worth and your value to the rest of humanity then you will never place yourself, your health and your happiness as a priority in your life.
I haven’t even touched the surface of being Self-Full here but you’re starting to get the picture.
More later… x