I’ve been working with angelic help for years now, but I’m not the most obedient student! Although I endeavour to serve as the Divine wishes, bearing in mind that we are the Divine and so in effect the angels are always guiding us towards our own wishes or at least the highest version of them, if I can’t see or imagine or indeed understand the path I’m on then it’s my tendency to dig my heels right in and rebel.

Trust is the ability to let someone or something else lead and in order to be a follower you either have to be completely asleep or you have to be awake enough to trust that giving up control is the easiest and fastest way to get where you want to be… yes that’s a contradiction and yes that’s the dilemma.

What if the angels, messengers of God, were asking you to give up control to another fallible human being because somehow your fate was wrapped up in theirs and at this point along the journey your desired outcome was dependent upon allowing them to take the lead, could you? Would you?

In a much broader sense we are doing that at every moment of every day, we allow others to make our laws, uphold them, govern our societies etc… these are all about giving up control on a slightly less personal but still relevant scale, but what I’m attempting to address here is a much more intimate and individual type of leader/follower relationship and it messes with your head in Grail terms because it’s a fine balancing act… that masculine/feminine dynamic.

I’ve come to a crossroads where the angels have recognised after hearing many an invocation for grace and mercy from me that I’m finding this part of the mission excruciating and that the cost feels too high… enter Archangel Samael, without whom free will (or at least the appearance of it) would not be available to us. Light without shadow  affords us only one choice and to embrace my whole self I must learn to dance in the shadows whilst I choose the light… poetic eh? Practically speaking it means I AM Human (Principle 3) and therefore have limits to what I can tolerate.

Archangel Samael has been working with me since last Thursday helping me to review my choices and even to get a clearer picture of where I’m trying to make choices where no real choice exists. It’s an exhausting process when you’re attached to an outcome, highlighting my need to immerse myself into  further study of Principle 2: I AM Detached.

Here’s the thing: We serve The Divine; we are The Divine, we therefore serve our own highest good. Good.

We choose the outcome and The Divine moves us towards that intention (Divine this time meaning us and including the entire universe)… Free will then consists of one question and one question only: do you want what you say you want? Because if you do, this is what it’s going to take to get it.

Let me rephrase the last question… do you want it enough? Me? I don’t know… hence the crossroads. I’ll let you know what I decide (when and if I decide). There are gentler angelic helpers if you want to undertake a similar examination of your direction but Samael deals with shifting a stubborn black and white mindset. He’s not your average fluffy winged being.

I’ll be back with some more insights from the path on Monday but in the meantime look out for the free group oracle reading on Saturday… x