I can’t begin to describe to you how difficult and yet strangely comforting the last week or so has been, as I have been launched unexpectedly into handling the process of liberation. The sudden death of a loved one around the time of the new moon, a change in direction over an elderly parent’s care and a hiccup in my own health, have all pushed me to re-embrace parts of myself that I had mistakenly cast aside in the melee of daily life.
Liberation is sometimes a gentle letting go of the things that we have outgrown, but oftentimes it comes as a shock ending of something that we naively believed would be there forever. Nothing in nature is permanent and we are therefore advised in every spiritual tradition to live in the now and attach to nothing.
Human nature though, has us forming bonds for our own survival, a hang up from the days when primative tribal mentality was still the norm across the entire globe.
As we are jolted by whatever means from our intrinsic trance-like state, just long enough to see clearly the bigger plan that is subtly shielded from us in order that we continue along our daily charade, we are forced to look at our own mortality and our own sense of posessive ownership of the things, people and connections around us. Even our own bodies are on loan from the universe, as a vehicle for exploring the realm in which we find ourselves. But it’s a beautiful game and one we were falling over ourselves to be a part of no doubt.
Handling the process of liberation though, is a game of slowing down and getting to grips with where you are. I have found myself speeding up, leaning into the experience of expelling the unwanted… not gripping, not resisting but in complete opposition… forcing the process to continue. Daring the universe in a bold “let’s just get on with it then” kind of attitude. It’s not the way.
If you are handling this letting go process or finding yourself in a grieving stage, be mindful that Source has a timetable, one that is designed for you to handle even if it feels like you are falling apart (or holding it together). You are not in control of the speed at which the universe purges your karma or even how long it will take to reach your destiny.
Be prepared to let go… don’t rush forward, don’t hold back… let nature take it’s course and you will arrive exactly where you are meant to be, exactly when you are meant to be there.
Allow yourself to feel.