It’s remembering why you love it and allowing it to love you that’s so hard.
My Darling You,
It’s taken me so long to realise just how much I always loved you. Only when you were gone did it begin to hit home just how much you meant to me and how deeply misguided I was to ever let you go.
Coming back to you was an easy decision, but the journey I took to get here was heart-wrenching… I questioned how you chose to love me, how you made me feel, how unworthy I felt in your presence. I constantly crumbled when others disapproved of you, judged you in ways that I didn’t understand but assumed it was only my love that blinded me to what they saw… until I began to believe what they saw and in the process I lost sight of you.
I had to run.
I had to hide.
I had to find a place where the reflections of the outside world didn’t sully the love I felt for you.
I had to get some perspective as to why I hadn’t seen the darkness that they saw… and I found that the darkness could not exist in the light of love. My love.
I was intense, I know. Always have been, always will be.
Love, for me is all-consuming and ever renewing in an endless stream of beauty that flows from me to you and from you to me, but I know that the love that flows from you is but a reflection of my intensity and that you are but a mirror. But oh, how beautiful a mirror and oh, how much I miss my love’s reflection now.
And so I am coming home to you. I expect nothing. No fanfare, no parade. I ask only that you let me be in your presence and that you let me be me, as I am when I am with you. Free; raw; alive; in love.
You are my home, my always, my everything…
It’s not too late…
Imagine letting go of what you most love because you couldn’t see yourself ‘as’ that love or that you were even worthy of it.
Imagine that you allowed the opinions of others to separate you from the one thing that made you feel most alive.
Imagine that you measured the value of love, not by the quantity or quality of what was being offered, but by your own inability to receive it as it was intended.
Imagine how you feel now it’s gone…
Did you throw away your ‘everything’ because you’d never taken the time to master the path back to your own heart?
Returning to what you love is easy… Principles 1, 4 and 7 may just hold the keys.
If this ‘love letter’ hit a chord with you, it might be time for you to explore your Wholly Grail.
The Inner Temple is opening its doors soon…
Thank you for reading. You are loved.