Now here’s a subject I don’t broach very often…
A beautiful friend of mine has become obsessed with his own mortality. He must mention it at least twice a week by slipping it in to an otherwise jovial interaction. I’m not sure if he is intending me to notice or if he has even noticed himself, but this underlying fear of his own mortal end (though he will insist that he has reconciled with the fact that all life must in fact cease eventually), has subtly changed his behaviour, so I’m going to attempt a Wholly Grail take on it… not on death itself, for at that moment your Grail is full as you finally and fully return back to Source, but instead on the fear of dying, of leaving those you love behind, of not quite getting done what you intended… but more importantly, holding back on starting something new just in case.
Just in case… that’s a death in itself isn’t it? You deny yourself joy just in case you can’t finish it… it’s like really wanting a big piece of chocolate fudge cake with lashings of ice cream after dinner but then not ordering for fear you can’t finish it… sod that for a game of soldiers: indulge, enjoy, savour every minute, no matter how many minutes you may or may not have left or how many spoonfuls you can demolish before your tummy screams stop!
Those you share your life with will weep, they will feel the pain of your loss, they will grieve, they will heal, and they will remember… or you can deny them that piece of chocolate cake that is you by withholding the love inside for fear that it might be soon taken away.
God is in charge of the chocolate cake and it’s portions, whatever fears you have, however justified, you just don’t know… He does (and He’s not saying).
Principle 2: I AM Detached is the art of being present, of living loving, giving, sharing… right here in this moment. No matter your age, your health, your positive or negative outlook, we’re all heading exactly the same way to exactly the same destination and this journey is simply ’til death do us part.
Your only decision is this: am I going to savour the chocolate cake while I can?
More later… (whilst I’m still here to indulge) x