Saturday Oracle – At The Root Of The Matter

I’ve been contemplating this combination for a while, doing my best to ignore the obvious connotations it infers. This week Principle 1: I AM God meets the blood red base chakra to get at the root of the matter.

Whilst preparing an ascension class earlier this week I was meditating with the Ascended Master Hilarion with regards to firstly the impending lesson and secondly my own life and current circumstances. He pointed out for me a simple image of a tree… admittedly this was an impressive specimen, obviously having been there an age, but it took some digging and jostling on his part to get me to recognise what the tree represented for me.

This combination represents the tree in many ways, with roots running deep and wide into a fertile earth and a trunk that was solid and strong, so strong that it’s still the most widely used building material in the world, and then there’s the branches, boughs and leaves reaching up towards the light.

Consider that the branches etc, are the things you reach for, the things you grow and the fruits you bare… the projects, services and gifts you give to the world in your own way no matter how small. The strong trunk would have to be your health… your mind, body and emotions in balance producing vitality, energy and that necessary strength. Not just physical strength but the strength or endurance to go the distance. Then we have those roots…

The base chakra, or root as its otherwise known is not so called for no reason.

In my vision the tree, though strong and magnificent was stood alone. In order to stand alone you must have very strong roots in deed. Roots are your basic needs. They have little to do with where you come from which is the association we often make but it is to do with what makes you feel safe.

Your security, safety, sense of belonging and your resources are all in question this week as the first Principle asks about worthiness. That, combined with material needs such as home or shelter, food, water, money etc, is spelling out a week where your attention is turned to survival and possibly fraught with unnecessary worries brought on by poverty consciousness, also known as lack mentality.

Your agenda is changing from what you produce to what you use and though reality is a good place to be (compounded by Neptune now in retrograde), your inability to recognise yourself as worthy and deserving of abundance is going to be your stumbling block.

Years ago my Auntie ran one of the busiest pubs in Sheffield city centre (before the pub trade died on its ass for various reasons). Every Christmas, the pub was so rammed that the bar team got overwhelmed… in those days they didn’t use posh epos cash registers, you were expected to do the maths… but my Auntie had a strategy for her team for just such occasions and its stuck with me for 30+ years: “Think of a number and double it!”

The strategy wasn’t exactly sound but the sentiment was, you see nobody blinked an eye, nobody was counting, everyone wanted what they had to sell (a good time and a party atmosphere more than a pint of bitter I might add), and nobody cared.

Principle 1 is about having faith that all your needs will be met because you are a spark of the divine and it is only your thoughts about what you want and whether you deserve it that keep you apart from it.

So in short: Your focus is on your material well-being, and rightly so as stuff no doubt needs taking care of… but if you focus on what you don’t have you’ll create more need, if you focus on what you do have you’ll create more abundance. If you recognise that you are worthy of more, more will be added, if you assume you don’t deserve to receive then the universe will not deliver!

Remember that tree… How long did it take to get so big and strong and magnificent… you’ve made it this far, push the roots deeper and remember its the ground around you that provides the nutrients but the leaves stretching high into the air need the light of God to do anything with the resources the roots absorb. Money is not separate from God, nothing is… and you are allowed to want more of it in your life… abundance is your birth right.

More next week… x

Why Would You Want To Be Anybody Else?

They say the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence… living next door to a lovely retired couple as I do, the two of them both keen gardeners, this adage is actually very true in my case. A pristine lawn (devoid of buttercups), though appealing is far from my priority in life and I don’t hanker after a keeping up with the neighbours kind of life.

The general feeling this week from those I’ve been in contact with has had a similar feel. Not about grass you understand but about an underlying envy that directs people’s choices and somehow forces them to recreate what’s already been done.

We are each a unique manifestation of God, and Big G gave you a unique set of attributes, talents and skills with which to make magic… why wound you want to be anybody else?

The differences that you work so hard to hide or to correct as if He somehow made a mistake are a part of the greatest tapestry in existence. Attempting to morph into the nearest pretty, outwardly perfect specimen, is attempting to diminish the diversity of the pattern that exists as chaos in our eyes but as perfection from a higher perspective.

When a human being attempts perfection on a local scale, they create bland sameness… when The Divine creates perfection on a universal scale, It creates awe, wonder, inspiration and magic.

You may not have the perfect lawn, the perfect bikini body, the perfect Hollywood-white smile, or the perfect anything on the surface… but that’s all it is: surface.

That lawn my be laced with chemical weed killer and its owner using it as a way to avoid engaging with the world outside, that bikini body may endure living on lettuce leaves and wither at the thought of being seen as nothing more than “meat” despite a beautiful mind. That smile may be fake. hiding tears and trauma that nobody will ever know about because how can you possibly be sad with such a brilliant smile?

Everyone is subject to their own personal pain, and no matter how sexy they make it look on the outside, yours is the only pain you’re equipped to handle… The external qualities Big G gave you were specifically set up to teach you what you needed to know to become who you needed to be to achieve what you needed to achieve… if you then chose to become something else, someone else, then you took all the gifts He gave you and dropped them on the floor like an ungrateful toddler who was far more interested in taking what someone else was given.

Take what you have and nurture it. Nobody else has what you have and nobody else can recreate it.

Principle 1: I AM God

More later… when I’ve tended the lawn (buttercups and all)… x

 

Maintaining Focus In The Face Of Distraction

I’m devout in my spiritual daily practice, not for any other reason than it helps me stay well. When I say well I mean balanced in mind, body and soul, but over the last few days it has been almost impossible maintaining focus in the face of distraction.

Daily practice for me begins with journaling, is followed by meditation and I end the day the same way. I take a few minutes out in the afternoon to check in with my Higher Power (what I refer to as God, though I’m aware you may have a different name for It).

When that routine is disturbed for whatever reason, I feel the absence of focus begin to creep in almost immediately… you know that feeling that you’ve forgotten something important? Having that routine disturbed for a few days though, and I start to feel genuinely unhappy. I’ve been two days with a disturbed practice. It started on day one as a necessity and continued as an experiment… “what’s the worst that could happen?” I didn’t always have this routine and I must have survived before it or I wouldn’t be here, right? The experiment was kind of like seeing what it would be like to go cold turkey to break a habit… is it just a habit?

Daily practice, whatever it may be, is fundamental to my wellbeing. I used the word unhappy to describe something indescribable, but let me break it down for you:

No focus, no direction, impending sense of doom, overwhelming feeling of being alone even in a crowd, physical lethargy, headaches, anxiety, inability to cope with stressful situations, poor digestion even… all because I thought “what’s the worst that could happen?”

When Saturday’s oracle honed in on Self-Full Living (Principle 6), and particularly on taking care of your self-care/personal grooming in order to build confidence, it’s also worth noting that you are a human holy trinity: your mind, your body and your spirit require restoration and respect through meditation.

You deserve to be at the top of your own priority list, and a simple daily practice can help you achieve not just confidence but also health, happiness, balance, insight, connection and focus.

I’m off now to do just that before anything else.

More later… x

 

Saturday Oracle – Inside And Outside

This week’s oracle kicks my ass ¬†on a previous post and I can’t help but be impressed by the irony of it. A little while ago I wrote a piece called Preparing On Purpose that was all about self confidence in any given situation coming from recognition of the divine within… and I stand by that. This oracle though, is pointing toward the necessity of lavishing attention on your physical self to help support your ego-based self-conscious issues.

This is far from a negative week though, in its entirety it is encouraging you to get full-on body positive in order to fully embrace your bliss.

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full connects with the energetic seat of personal power which is the exuberant yellow solar plexus to focus you in on pleasure over the coming days. This combination has a hedonistic feel to it but along with that comes the tendency to over-indulge.

To use this energy properly, which is the desire to direct love upon oneself, you must first ask what constitutes long term benefit as opposed to short term gratification.

We are swinging into the summer season now so minds are turning towards holidays and getting “beach ready.” We are focusing on romance and generally how best to regain our playfulness that hides throughout the winter months under layers of woolly jumpers and weather worn faces… but with this shift in agenda comes a shift in confidence, and all too often we begin to berate ourselves for not being perfect (whatever distorted image of perfection we may actually be clinging to).

The Solar Plexus governs our ego, our digestion and therefore eating habits, our ability to assimilate information, our ability to accommodate abundance, our natural childlike state of joyous abandon… bliss. If a healthy sense of self confidence lives here then you’re in for a week of excitement getting ready for the fun that is set to follow, if however you struggle with loving yourself then unnecessary worries are going to befall you.

Self-Full Living is the art of taking care of one’s own needs inside and outside, now is the time to do that. Give yourself the best fighting chance of shedding the inhibitions by spending this week deliberately tending to your own body’s and your ego’s needs: Pamper, exercise, eat well, practice self-appreciation affirmations, update your wardrobe based on what looks great and feels comfortable rather than what the label says (or the number on it)…if you look and feel great you will take some of the concern away from impromptu invitations to embrace life to the full.

You deserve to jump into the next phase with your full being in a state of bliss. Get ready now!

Wishing you a week of increased self-esteem and playful preparation… x

Fighting With The Fear Of Freedom

Years ago, weary and jaded by the corporate grind, downtrodden by the internal politics of the all-too-familiar company dynamic, unable to affect real change for myself or my employees even as a senior manager, I decided that the only logical course of action open to me that didn’t mean me collapsing into another cycle of blind apathy was to quit.

Scary shit man! I mean, walking away from the stability of a decent salary at the height of a countrywide recession when you have a mortgage to pay and no clue what to do next…

That was beginning of my placing my full trust in the universe to guide me, the start of my spiritual adventure and the unification of my everyday material life with my soul’s direction for me. I’m not going to tell you I wasn’t terrified about being income-less and dependant on my then husband’s meagre wage, but the truth was that the moment I walked out of the front door of that multi-million pound personal prison, the relief I felt melted away all the fear of lack and was replaced by sheer determination.

My first task was to decide where life was going to take me next…

That’s the crux of this story… I had to decide.

Freedom is the scariest place on Earth if you have spent your life following someone else’s rules, policies, timetables, agendas… basically towing the company line. For the first time you stand there and go: what do I do? Which way do I go? God, what is my purpose?

You are so used to having your life mapped out that you panic and latch on to the first guru that seems to have got it all together, or the family member or friend that says “do this,” or “do that.”

That very voice that had you break out of the gilded cage though, will rise up within you and scream “You lead the way. We fought for the right to choose our own path now don’t give it away!”

But you’re so used to being told what to do… and now you’re fighting with the fear of freedom. The fear stems from deep within where you have yet to understand the power of responsibility, that place where you only have yourself to blame… and once you understand that blame is a redundant emotion wrapped up in judgement and self-criticism, you can swap it out for self-appreciation that regardless of whether you succeed or lose, you took the reins of the chariot and began blazing a trail of your own into the wilds of who knows where…

And when you ask God what your purpose is, He simply smiles knowing that He didn’t have to say a word for you to find it… to find you… to find freedom the moment you decided to choose for yourself.

If you are completely lost for a direction to choose then try this affirmation instead of letting someone else choose:

“God bring me a multitude of exciting opportunities today that I may sample, and choose for myself whichever brings me passion.”

Principle 1, 3, 4, 5 and 6 (that’s a whole lot of Principles!)

More later… x

 

First Monday Challenge – Revealing The Master Illusionist

After a lot of consideration I decided to follow this train of thought to see where it led me. Being the first Monday of the month, shying away from whatever is challenging is against my self-declared process and so we must be prepared to dive deep down the rabbit hole in search of our own answers and face head on what scares us the most. In my case that would be in revealing the master illusionist.

First let us understand the illusion a little better…

Someone has led you back to the point where you fall asleep and forget that you’ve been here before. I don’t mean in the reincarnation sense of having lived a physical life in a different time in a different body, though that would demonstrate this cycle on a lager scale, I mean you are going around and around with something, never really moving forward but instead being lulled into believing you are making progress when really you are being controlled, manipulated, placated. Like placing a dummy (pacifier) into the mouth of a crying baby and whispering “there there,” as the child settles and sleeps believing, at least temporarily, that the very thing that made them cry has been solved.

The master illusionist is a comforter and the means’ by which he or she comforts are mere distractions from that which would bring permanent relief and escape from the repetition of pain and peace…

Addiction is an easy hook by which to control. The promise of the substance provides a lure, the provision of a small sample of the craved for poison buys the illusionist time… is it a drug, alcohol, food, videogames, sex and romance, shopping? That temporary relief provides the “Ah yes, this time I will have what I want and this feeling I have now is proof that it’s on its way.” And now you’re asleep once more. You’ve forgotten that you’ve had a taste of this so-called proof before and you’ve forgotten that however many times you’ve repeated “it will be different this time,” here you are again.

Revealing the master illusionist is simple: who benefits from keeping you in denial of your true situation? Who now has perceived limitations as an excuse for stilted expansion? Who has created an infrastructure set up to withhold connection and intimacy? Who has ensured nobody has expectations of them that cannot be fulfilled thus negating the chance of failure, rejection and ridicule?

There will always be mirrors of the illusionist, others sent to highlight the original, those who have identified the strings, bonds and chains. They will, offer samples of the things you crave, take advantage of the devoted clientele you provide, but the true face of the master illusionist is the one that seeks out a new source of poison when a vendor dries up, the one that finds replacement numbing agents to lull you back to sleep when the pain of being awake gets to unbearable. The master illusionist will always be YOU… and the illusion will always be that you are helpless to help yourself. Only the poison changes form and whatever form it takes you convince yourself it holds all the power.

Today’s challenge is to stay awake, even if you partake of your own particular poison, do so with your eyes wide open and acknowledge the decision consciously.

At every moment through today and this week when you choose to indulge in distraction or addiction, repeat the words “I know what I’m doing and I’m choosing to do it anyway… at least until I find a permanent solution and my freedom no longer frightens me.”

Principles 3 & 5. Later this week I might go deeper into why we fear freedom.. but for now…stay awake.

More later… x

Saturday Oracle – One Step Too Far?

I’m beginning to wonder if The Sacred Chalice has made more appearances than any other card or combination in the set. It certainly seems prolific of late and each time it arrives it brings with it a slightly expanded energy. Perhaps though, this week that expansion is one step too far?

In everyone’s life there are times when you just don’t feel as if you can possibly take any more. Too much pain, too much joy, too much anything is a strain on the human psycho-emotional system and this oracle energy turns up at the moment before release.

Don’t assume that suffering is born only of negative over stimulation. Imagine if you will that you are undertaking a blissful journey. The journey, as they say is the destination, but for most the destination is a conclusion from which point a new journey can begin. If the destination is perceived to be forever out of reach, then the sojourner eventually arrives at a point where they can no longer continue because no end is in sight. This reminds me of the symbol of the Ouroboros (the snake curled around in a circle swallowing its own tail), eternally going round and round and never quite completing anything.

Now on this particular leg of our hero’s journey is a promise that you’re almost there. I’ve been seeing an image of a threshold all week that portends standing on the brink of the new, but when the Sacred Chalice shows up, as I’ve said before, it demands that you can no longer carry on doing life the same way. The proverbial tower falls, structures are rearranged as one journey ends and another begins.

This is the excruciating bit just before the miracle, just before the tipping point… but you can’t see the miracle, you can’t see the finish line, you’ve endured for so long that the promise of it sounds just like all those other promises and you are standing in the gateway, the threshold between what was and what will be and right now you have a choice…

You have no idea what stepping through will bring, you have no idea what stepping back will bring either… everything is operating at a level of uncertainty. This miracle could be supreme success at the peak of your climb or it could be sweet relief at the very bottom of your fall… and here’s your dilemma: do you believe in miracles or do you believe that to take one more step would be to fall asleep once again under the influence of the master illusionist only to begin the cycle again and perpetuity?

The Chalice shows up when you’re empty and you can be empty for one of two reasons: either you’re making room for the universe to deliver the mother load, or you have allowed life to use you up, which is it?

The fearful mind will create distress, compel you to panic and force some form of drama (after all you’ve convinced yourself you can only take so much and this is where you usually begin to struggle), but the hero will stand on the edge of heaven and wait for the gates to open, fully believing in the benevolence of the master illusionist and that this journey is not an illusion at all.

You’ve been here before… but you’re awake now, you’re aware… be The Sacred Chalice and let whatever happens next to break your heart wide open ready to be filled.

Nothing goes on forever, don’t quit right before you arrive at the destination. You’re almost there. Take a drink from the Chalice and find the strength to keep going.

More next week… x

 

Sad It’s Gone, Happy It Came

May is my absolute favourite month of the year. I just realised it was over and we have arrived into June almost in stealth mode. I was writing in my journal yesterday morning and paused to date the entry, I was overcome with a brief moment of sadness about it’s passing. I wrote: “Sad it’s gone, happy it came” and transformed that moment into deep gratitude for what is, what was and what may still be to come.

Last year, I remember having that same feeling on the Summer Solstice, (which is once again fast approaching). Instead of revelling in the midsummer festivities, I was overcome with a single thought: “it’s all downhill from here!” Not exactly the optimist’s angle of approach to things is it? But then again I was in a much different place last year and at the time I pulled myself up and reminded myself that it was “Flaming June” and there was fun to be had… make hay while the sun shines and all that stuff.

This whole attitude I was temporarily taken in by is about something much more fundamental than just the passing seasons, it’s about the climb, the pursuit, the chase… always having something to look forward to.

Principle 2: I AM Detached, asks that we remain present in the current moment… that, combined with appreciation is the antidote to any ending or at least the associated feelings of loss. The human condition though, for most of us, needs a driving ambition. When we stop climbing we start falling, when we stop growing we start dying. This cyclical force is a natural part of the duality of the entire universe in constant motion… you must honour every part of it, every age, every stage of the great procession.

Whatever you are rising towards now, you will eventually reach and then you must rise towards something new, the next stage of your journey will be different, but it will be equally as beautiful, equally as filled with moments and new memories and just as much an adventure as this current phase.

Give thanks for the climb, gives thanks for the conquer, give thanks for the decline and give thanks for the release… all serves the quest and allows a new beginning to be born again and again. May will come again and that’s something to look forward to while I play nice with the rest of the year.

More later… x

Preparing On Purpose

Be prepared. What does that even mean? As the motto of a boy scout it seems like a worthwhile pursuit, but how exactly do you expect to be prepared for the unexpected?

You are prepared, at least as well as you can be, for whatever life has to throw at you, simply because you have spent your entire life preparing for this moment… yes, this one.

Everything that has ever happened to you, every person you have ever met, every conversation you have ever participated in, everything you have witnessed, experienced, learned and done, has been in preparation for this moment. You see, God does nothing by accident. If you look back at your life you can clearly see the synchronicity of each event and how it smoothly led to the next which eventually brought you to this place. And no matter how ready (or not) you felt to undergo each transition through initiation by fire, you got here… that means you were ready and life had prepared you for the level of success or failure it required to get you to the next step…

Success or failure?

Yep! That’s what I said. Only The Great Unseen has the big picture and so what you see, as success may actually be the opposite of the catalyst you need to move the pieces across the cosmic chessboard towards your destined outcome, big picture success could require small detail failure, at least for now. But win or lose, the experience is the preparation for the next bit.

Now of course the boy scouts could be referring to the contrived concept of preparing on purpose….

Imagine for a moment you’re about to go on a first date. What does preparation look like then? Oh my goodness the lengths we go to, just in case: scrubbed, shaved, waxed, buffed, plucked, preened… moisturised, manicured, and that’s all before we select the perfect outfit… do we wear super-sexy, girl next door, casual, formal? What about shoes? Oh yeah, and do we go for the Bridget Jones knickers or the matching skimpy set? Now if you’re a boy I’d imagine the process is similar if a little less lengthy and stereotypically more focused on whether your car is waxed and buffed than your body, but what’s the point of all of this?

Are you now preparing on purpose for every possible eventuality or are you simply focusing on the external causes of your own lacking self-esteem in an attempt to convince yourself that you can cover up your imperfections? If that’s the case than I suggest that your preparation time would be better spent on learning to appreciate how beautiful you are from the inside out. Nothing is more attractive that confidence, self- love and the ability to shine your Divine essence in spite of outward appearance.

This applies to all events and encounters… you are ready now for whatever Big G sends your way…. if you aren’t ready, it won’t arrive anyway. Remember this: you are in exactly the right place at the right time, with all the appropriate training and wherewithal for whatever is coming your way. Succeed or fail, win or lose… this moment is yours. Don’t waste it on wondering if you have the right knickers on. If it’s worth all the fuss then the fuss won’t matter.

Principles 1, 2 & 6, included above, can be found here.

More later… x

Bank Holiday Monday Mental Manoeuvre – Neutral Mind

Something inside me triggered when I did the oracle reading at the weekend. It was a sort of underlying anticipation of the outcome ready to be revealed. This feeling of uncertainty, excitement and a fierce need to know are all so familiar to me… and all so unproductive, uncomfortable and power draining. If like me, your inner control freak has had its interest peaked by the unfolding of a prediction or longed for hope or dream, then you ¬†really need to get this.

Action taken to coerce, pressure, or hurry God’s timetable will result in delay, disappointment and dissatisfaction.

Applying a neutral mind however, allows a space for the universe to reveal the treasure it has amassed on your behalf without you narrowing the field of opportunities in how that delivery might take place. A neutral mind is an open mind, a fertile space for growth of knowledge and wisdom.

It’s your job to simply observe, listen, experience.

Principle 2: I AM Detached, is at the heart of this mental adjustment and involves stepping back from the game and watching how the next bit evolves… a bit like planting a seed. You give it soil, water and warm sunlight: optimum growing conditions, but ultimately it must grow of its own accord and on it’s own or God’s schedule. You have no control over how it eventually flowers or even if it will, but as you observe it break through the soil into the light you revel in the seedlings progress, maintain caring for it’s needs and provide for its survival but you cannot force it to grow nor give it a deadline.

This moment has information in it. This moment is teaching you something of great importance… is it patience? Is it acceptance? Perhaps it is teaching you to take your focus off the seedling and broaden your perspective to enjoy the whole garden?

Whatever it is that you are narrowly focusing on, whether it is a new relationship, a job opportunity, a potential project, etc, know that you can be happy now if you understand that this bit, “the in between bit,” “the neither here nor there bit” is every bit as much a part of your unfolding experience as the final reveal. You will have benefited from the journey whether the outcome is as you’d hoped or not.

It doesn’t matter how this turns out, I’m thoroughly enjoying witnessing the performance be it comedy or tragedy… it’s only drama if I’m overly invested. Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, is love without strings… that means the seedling can grow or not as it chooses. It is loved, respected and appreciated anyway. We all get 10 out of 10 for just taking part whether we win, lose or draw.

Whatever form your seedling takes, leave room in your neutral mind for it to grow (if it wants to).

More later… x

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