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A Grail Knight’s Guide To Handling A Workaholic

Around two thousand and odd years ago there purportedly lived a man who by all intents and purposes changed the face of spirituality forever. So pivotal was his role that millennia later we still speak his name. This man was a workaholic. He was known to be a humble healer and a teacher of spiritual truths. He lived, ate, breathed and slept his mission because it was also his passion and his purpose… but this simple, gentle soul had a secret…

To maintain the pace, power and purity of the word he needed help, he knew this. Though the mission was his and his alone he understood that no man stands as an island and that others had a mission that corresponded with his own. This wise and humble sage, eternally open to the blessings and guidance of an ever loving Source, knew that part of his mission here on earth was to respect that all human life had a role to play and that he would be led to those who would be vital to his own journey… carefully he chose 12 worthy individuals and the world would remember them as disciples.

But there was another, a 13th. In a world that still shunned half the population he knew this to be a risky strategy but he was guided by the yearnings of his heart that this one knew. She knew the truth of his teachings before he uttered them for she too had a direct channel to an ever loving Creator. For the sake of the story let’s call her Mary.

Now, Mary was a beautiful flower and she understood that she distracted him from his work but this distraction was guided and gifted from heaven for it was his job to educate the world how to create that same heaven here on earth, but her job was to show him that he didn’t have to sacrifice for it… The sacrifice would come soon enough and heaven on earth was for his benefit too.

The humble sage soon learned to alternate healing and teaching the world with private time with his family, breaking bread in private juxtaposed with feeding the five thousand… And Mary, she healed him as he healed them…

Had it not been so, had he not allowed Mary to become his confidante, his lover, his wife; had he not understood that his mission included her, he would have died alone on that cross, the twelve having denied him thrice before the cock crowed and having fallen asleep in that garden in his darkest hour when he needed them most…

His work not yet complete, without her to cleanse and anoint his beautiful body laying him to rest, who then would he have appeared to upon his ascension? Those who denied him, disbelieving her?

Enough of this ancient story for now except to say this: when you understand your purpose and you become emblazoned with a passion for the Divine-dealt reason for your existence, recognise that God sends to you all the requisite pieces and people to aid the task. To this gentle sage He sent a Mary, she never questioned his journey, she walked with him every step of the way and carried on his teaching way beyond. Her passion was the Christ, but when he needed sleep she made him rest, when he needed sustenance she fed him (even if he protested: “Petal, I’m in the middle of the sermon on the mount” to which she merely smiled and replied “Jesus, will you shut up and eat” or words to that effect). When he was sick she nursed him, when he needed a sounding board, she listened… and when he needed love…

A Grail Knight’s guide to handling a workaholic begins with understanding the mission, followed by being as passionate about the end product as the one working, finding a way to support them through it whilst maintaining a Self-Full lifestyle and finally being willing to sacrifice… everything except for each other.

God has a plan and whether you are The Messiah or his Mary, desire will tell you where He thinks your focus should lie and don’t presume to know His reasons.

Principle 1: I AM God

Principle 4: I AM Truth

Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted

But most of all Principle 6: Isn’t it time you let someone take care of you?

Blessings, Jo x

Betrayed and Exposed

Divine marriage is the union of two apparently opposite forces joining to create a much greater, balanced and neutral entity. Some might describe it as yin and yang, some might embrace the idea of the god and the goddess, for many it is the meeting and commitment of soul mates that personify the quality of the sacred dance. Divine marriage is essential for each of us as we walk a conscious Grail path, but don’t assume that this involves another human being.

My writing, indeed my teaching in general is fuelled by my personal experience and journey, my own learning, seeking and often vulnerability are as I understand it, my greatest assets, but of late it has been tinged with generalities and has taken a less intimate tone… there’s a really good reason for that…

Divine marriage is sacrosanct. In a partnership, the most intimate details of your hopes, dreams, fears and fantasies are laid bare for the other party to embrace and the level of trust involved is the difference between feeling safe, loved and cared for or feeling betrayed and exposed. I’ve entered into a Divine marriage with my soul in order to know me better, in order to heal what holds me apart from the overflowing cup that is my Grail and that requires me to honour my soul’s vulnerabilities or rather it requires my soul to honour my ego’s vulnerabilities as my soul is my most invulnerable part and cannot be diminished by anyone’s actions including my own.

The most significant thing that has become apparent as a result of this union, is that I undertook the commitment in order to lead me to the Grail but the Grail was never lost, it was never out of my reach and very second my ego allowed my soul to speak and found the only words my soul knew how to say were: “I love you, welcome home” suddenly the cup overflowed and those words were all I needed.

Principle 1 & 7

More later… x

An Invocation for Grace and Mercy

I’ve been working with angelic help for years now, but I’m not the most obedient student! Although I endeavour to serve as the Divine wishes, bearing in mind that we are the Divine and so in effect the angels are always guiding us towards our own wishes or at least the highest version of them, if I can’t see or imagine or indeed understand the path I’m on then it’s my tendency to dig my heels right in and rebel.

Trust is the ability to let someone or something else lead and in order to be a follower you either have to be completely asleep or you have to be awake enough to trust that giving up control is the easiest and fastest way to get where you want to be… yes that’s a contradiction and yes that’s the dilemma.

What if the angels, messengers of God, were asking you to give up control to another fallible human being because somehow your fate was wrapped up in theirs and at this point along the journey your desired outcome was dependent upon allowing them to take the lead, could you? Would you?

In a much broader sense we are doing that at every moment of every day, we allow others to make our laws, uphold them, govern our societies etc… these are all about giving up control on a slightly less personal but still relevant scale, but what I’m attempting to address here is a much more intimate and individual type of leader/follower relationship and it messes with your head in Grail terms because it’s a fine balancing act… that masculine/feminine dynamic.

I’ve come to a crossroads where the angels have recognised after hearing many an invocation for grace and mercy from me that I’m finding this part of the mission excruciating and that the cost feels too high… enter Archangel Samael, without whom free will (or at least the appearance of it) would not be available to us. Light without shadow  affords us only one choice and to embrace my whole self I must learn to dance in the shadows whilst I choose the light… poetic eh? Practically speaking it means I AM Human (Principle 3) and therefore have limits to what I can tolerate.

Archangel Samael has been working with me since last Thursday helping me to review my choices and even to get a clearer picture of where I’m trying to make choices where no real choice exists. It’s an exhausting process when you’re attached to an outcome, highlighting my need to immerse myself into  further study of Principle 2: I AM Detached.

Here’s the thing: We serve The Divine; we are The Divine, we therefore serve our own highest good. Good.

We choose the outcome and The Divine moves us towards that intention (Divine this time meaning us and including the entire universe)… Free will then consists of one question and one question only: do you want what you say you want? Because if you do, this is what it’s going to take to get it.

Let me rephrase the last question… do you want it enough? Me? I don’t know… hence the crossroads. I’ll let you know what I decide (when and if I decide). There are gentler angelic helpers if you want to undertake a similar examination of your direction but Samael deals with shifting a stubborn black and white mindset. He’s not your average fluffy winged being.

I’ll be back with some more insights from the path on Monday but in the meantime look out for the free group oracle reading on Saturday… x

The Absent Intimate

Grail Oracle 2 Grail Oracle Orange

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock…

I can actually hear the clock in my office very loudly marking time as I write this piece and I have to admit that when I pulled the combination for us all this morning, I was secretly asking myself whether or not I should put the cards back in the deck and choose again… but what good would that do any of us? Instead I went off to do my healing sessions and began to contemplate each, seeing how the energy was playing out through the day.

This combination from the Intuitive Chalice Oracle blends Principle 2: I AM Detached, with the brilliant orange of the sacral chakra, the centre of intimacy and creativity and at first glance its a garing reminder of the biological clock running amuck and making no apologies for it… The truth is so much deeper than that and is the route of all impatience.

I’m one of the least patient people I know. Others tell me the opposite. Don’t get me wrong, I can wait forever if I know what it is I’m getting at the end of the waiting period but patience is about “waiting with grace” and I’m damn sure I’m going to make a song and dance about it whilst ever I feel like I’ve been promoted to “Advanced Mushoom Status” (Keep ’em in the dark and feed ’em on shit). I’m sue the angels despair of me regularly when I get into this mode but as always look on with deep compassion and endeavour to show me what this energy is really about… I remember when I was young, I was a drum majorette and we used to do something called “marking time,” most military marches involve this at some point, it’s where you march on the spot literally going nowhere…

Have you forgotten to create?

Whilst you are waiting (clock still ticking) for something to happen, someone to appear, dreams to come to fruition, or even just for your lift to arrive, you could be fully connected to your source of creative potential, your inner muse, and using the time to bring something else into being. Intimacy is the perfect joining of masculine and feminine, the divine marriage which sparks into life the birth of the perfect child (Oh God, I’m back to that biological clock), but it isnt just about man and woman and the “how long is it going to take to find that perfect partner with which to officiate that divine blending?” its about the masculine and feminine within you producing the perfect creation, whatever it might be.

Masculine creative energy needs feminine receptive energy to incubate and gestate an idea into existence, and if you are in the impatient stage, allowing yourself to become attached to the outcome and the deadline and the “what if?” and the “what’s the hold up?” then you have lost connection with the feminine aspect of self… She is The Absent Intimate.

If you have found yourself experiencing this impatience then may I suggest that you call on the very gentle energy of Quan Yin this week to help you find the feminine key to just being.

And if you’re waiting for something specific that you have no apparent control over, why not focus on creating something else in the meantime?

More next week… x