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Saturday Oracle – A Glance Back Towards Yesterday

Principle 4: I AM Truth is standing on the precipice of the vibrant orange sacral chakra this week asking for you to reclaim your integrity within a close relationship or following the end of one as you’re guided to take a glance back towards yesterday.

I wasn’t surprised by this combination as my vague knowledge of astrology is very aware that Venus is turning retrograde around now and being the planet of love, desire, passion, relationships, intimacy and connecting, all the things associated with the sacral chakra they in a highlighted position at present. The idea that the celestial love goddess appears in the sky to be travelling backwards doesn’t invite you to go backwards as such but instead to review and reflect with a view to heal. But that’s enough astrology, let’s get back to the Principle in question…

I AM Truth. What the heck does that mean?

Inside you, at a deep level you have access to your own truth. Some of us have buried it under blame, projection, deflection, ego, anger and a few other useless emotions and tactics that help us to avoid taking responsibility for where we are and how we got here.

Something valuable, I’d go as far as to say beautiful, has been lost because the truth was painful. Owning your truth even if it’s potentially going to be scorned upon by others is sign that your Grail and your self-esteem are intact. The opinions of others are just that, and though it may be true for them it doesn’t have to be so for you. Your actions have had consequences and you’ve cast aside the opportunity for unity, connection, intimacy, friendship, co-creation and commitment, even family because your pride had you lashing out to protect your reputation… underneath all the bluster you knew what was true but you chose to destroy something, someone. It may not be as dramatic as that… you’ll know when you glance back with compassion, for yourself if for nobody else.

This week’s energy flow has potential. I said at the beginning that this Principle is standing on a precipice, does that mean you can fix it? Retrograde Venus is hoping you will learn from it for sure but the other party has drawn a line and you have no way of crossing it now. A negative aspect of Principle 4 is that communication is all but blocked so attempting to rescue the remains of what’s been lost is damn near impossible. But this reading is about learning so that you can apply truth to all your dealings. Understanding how to open yourself up to emotional intimacy is about understanding that in vulnerability lies strength. The most magical relationship is the one in which there is no blame, where honesty is a given not a currency to be traded and where the more ammunition you give your loved one the more bullets they have to protect your love with instead of loading the gun and firing it at you.

Now then, since the new moon last week, we have entered a portal in which the end of a karmic cycle occurs. It remains open, like the precipice, until the full moon on the 12th March. I suggest you take a leap of faith, dive into the orange abyss and retrieve you… that way when the next potential love affair enters your orbit, all of you, your entire being will be ready to enter the arena and surrender to another human being who is ready to surrender to you.

Right I’m off to celebrate and eat cake with my lovely mum who is 80 years young today!

More next week… x

The Authentic Voice – Stripped Naked

What is it you think I want to hear?

We run through life at a hundred miles an hour forgetting what this whole journey is for: connecting, learning and growing. In an effort to honour that gift I set out this week with an agenda to have no fixed schedule but to fill every moment with joy. I also, being conscientious of that, noticed how often others limited my moment to moment experience with stuff that wasn’t mine, assuming I’m not already really busy.

Now this was a week of hard work, enjoyable, inspiring, loving service, combined with conversations with beautiful friends and family… that was one of my prerequisite components to achieve the experience I was looking for… but this is briefly what I got:

Exactly what is it you think I want to hear?

Authenticity means allowing the soul to be stripped naked and vulnerable… showing feelings, not suppressing ego; letting the raw, pure self rise, fears and all into a loving, accepting open forum for healing… but all bar one of my undeniably amazing friends (thank you Sue), decided that they would pretend to have already absorbed and applied the wisdom and this time it was different.

Now you may think I’m being sceptical here until you understand that just hours later the repetitive patterns restarted in each of them.

There’s a reason that we go around the boulder time and time again instead of flowing gently downstream towards new experiences and that is simply: denial.

“I’m ascending” spoken aloud, proclaimed for all to hear, (or whatever specific words are used to express the sentiment of growth and change), is the ego’s way of convincing others that they are moving up in the world or the imaginary hierarchy of souls. It’s a symptom of a lack of self-worth and a red light to a lack of self-work.

You have nothing to prove to me. You have nothing to prove to anyone except to yourself (God within you) and no matter how loud you shout “this time it’s different” your soul will quietly sit back and watch your ego jump through every hoop and fly the trapeze at the circus knowing full well that there is always more work to do.

When you come to me and speak the words aloud “I’m drowning,” or something like it, when you no longer need to pretend you’re ok when you’re not, that’s when the authentic voice – stripped naked, takes over and ascension really begins.

You have to face the darkness in order to shine your light.

Principles 1: I AM God, & 4: I AM Truth.

More later… x

The First Hurdle – Unravelling Detachment

Between God and your heart, between you and home sit 5 seemingly insurmountable obstacles, the first of which is time.

The concept itself is flawed as in heaven time does not exist. Now don’t get yourself into that headspace where you start believing that you live outside of heaven because you dont, anymore than you exist outside of hell… these two opposing constructs are simply manifestations of your state being and your perception of it: heaven is home “Holding The Grail” whereas hell is feeling separate from, locked outside of and finding the cup empty.

It is said that time heals all things, this concept too is flawed. Recognising here and now that you are whole even in your emptiness allows the healing to occur and takes time out of the equation… the saying is therefore only true if you consider that the removal of time (or waiting) heals all things.

You can wait for an eternity to feel better or you can choose to feel better now. You can wait forever to have what you think will make you happy or you can be happy with what you have right now. Time makes no difference to how far from home you are or how far from God/Yourself you are, time is an illusory excuse to not take a chance on embracing all that you are meant to be… which you already are in this moment.

Time opens up a chasm between the wounding and the wounded and the wider the chasm, the more forgetful the wounded becomes… but the wound still exists. Closing the gap by taking time out of the equation completely allows you to face the hurt, pain, emptiness etcetera, head on, recognising that when you sit in the presence of your own vulnerability and don’t try to distract from it, fill it or obscure it in any way, shape or form that it is not your enemy it is your trusted ally, your best friend and your faithful servant. You have allowed time to hold you apart from you because you couldn’t face the intensity of who you really are.

Now you can see the first hurdle – unravelling detachment, don’t allow it to spill the contents of your cup again. Whatever you are suffering from or for, time is not your ally, being present with what’s true for now is.

Principle 2: I AM Detached

More later… x