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Fighting With The Fear Of Freedom

Years ago, weary and jaded by the corporate grind, downtrodden by the internal politics of the all-too-familiar company dynamic, unable to affect real change for myself or my employees even as a senior manager, I decided that the only logical course of action open to me that didn’t mean me collapsing into another cycle of blind apathy was to quit.

Scary shit man! I mean, walking away from the stability of a decent salary at the height of a countrywide recession when you have a mortgage to pay and no clue what to do next…

That was beginning of my placing my full trust in the universe to guide me, the start of my spiritual adventure and the unification of my everyday material life with my soul’s direction for me. I’m not going to tell you I wasn’t terrified about being income-less and dependant on my then husband’s meagre wage, but the truth was that the moment I walked out of the front door of that multi-million pound personal prison, the relief I felt melted away all the fear of lack and was replaced by sheer determination.

My first task was to decide where life was going to take me next…

That’s the crux of this story… I had to decide.

Freedom is the scariest place on Earth if you have spent your life following someone else’s rules, policies, timetables, agendas… basically towing the company line. For the first time you stand there and go: what do I do? Which way do I go? God, what is my purpose?

You are so used to having your life mapped out that you panic and latch on to the first guru that seems to have got it all together, or the family member or friend that says “do this,” or “do that.”

That very voice that had you break out of the gilded cage though, will rise up within you and scream “You lead the way. We fought for the right to choose our own path now don’t give it away!”

But you’re so used to being told what to do… and now you’re fighting with the fear of freedom. The fear stems from deep within where you have yet to understand the power of responsibility, that place where you only have yourself to blame… and once you understand that blame is a redundant emotion wrapped up in judgement and self-criticism, you can swap it out for self-appreciation that regardless of whether you succeed or lose, you took the reins of the chariot and began blazing a trail of your own into the wilds of who knows where…

And when you ask God what your purpose is, He simply smiles knowing that He didn’t have to say a word for you to find it… to find you… to find freedom the moment you decided to choose for yourself.

If you are completely lost for a direction to choose then try this affirmation instead of letting someone else choose:

“God bring me a multitude of exciting opportunities today that I may sample, and choose for myself whichever brings me passion.”

Principle 1, 3, 4, 5 and 6 (that’s a whole lot of Principles!)

More later… x

 

The Celestial Mapmaker

What gives you passion gives you purpose. Without purpose you will find yourself like a rudderless ship drifting on an endless sea.

Before GPS was invented and satellites were thrust up into orbit amongst the rest of the space junk that we’ve managed to lay to waste in heaven’s, we navigated by the stars. Those of us who still believe in destiny, that our lives are literally mapped out by those same celestial bodies, are navigating the seas of personal realisation just as those sailors once navigated the globe.

Being one of those believers, I’m almost certain that something much bigger than I, something with a plan I don’t have full access to, wrote amongst those stars a combination or constellation so powerful in its magnetic pull that I would have no choice but to follow the breadcrumbs laid out for me towards a convergence that only It could possibly predict.

Why else would the synchronicities I have stumbled upon have led me to this point?

God, Source, Allah, The Tao… whatever you choose to call The Celestial Mapmaker, seems to have a failsafe when it comes to this unfolding: when you’re off course, off mission, off purpose even, and the synchronicities are ignored in your attempt to assert your presumption of free will, your passion wanes. Basically put: if it’s not written in the stars you can’t get excited about it.

This is the same premise that attracts us to a mate. If you are incompatible or not meant to interact then there is no spark… Now don’t get me wrong here, passion can be positive or negative… you can dislike someone with a passion too, but in order for there to be an impact there has to be an attraction… The Law of Attraction! The moon has a magnetic pull that moves the oceans creating waves of passion that swell and recede… the ocean cannot react otherwise… it’s a failsafe written in the stars… The moon will rise, the oceans will heave. It’s all very romantic but it has a point:

The point being that if your not passionate about something then you’re off mission. That’s not to say that every detail will inspire you but your every action will lead you towards an outcome that if you only knew how miraculous it could be, if you had just enough faith and trust to lean into the fear of the unknown and surrender to the greater plan, the rewards could be beyond your wildest dreams.

You may not have access to the big picture in your human form but you have to understand that when you embrace all that you are: The Celestial Mapmaker is you. It was written in the stars because you put it there, and that passion you feel is a spark of The Divine within you remembering the time before time when The Mind of God drew the map and The Hand of God fashioned the heavens.

Principle 1: I AM God

Principle 2: I AM Detached

Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted

More later… x

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A Festival of Freedom – When Passion Returns

It’s easy to lose sight of the path when you get lost in the details.

After hitting a brick wall career-wise about 4 years ago and not really knowing which direction I wanted to go in, I set about analysing what caused me to crash into that wall in the first place. It was simple: I was so focused on the details of what I needed to achieve that I forgot what I loved doing and why I started doing it to begin with.

I stepped out of a personal and professional prison in 2008 to build myself a new one in 2009 until I unlocked the door and let myself out less than a year later and began to soar… then came the opportunity to expand and in the process I built myself yet another set of metaphorical walls that I did somersaults to maintain until the back end of 2012 when it almost broke me… 6 months after defining The Wholly Grail, my cup was empty and I knew it.

The process of stripping away the tendency to build walls has not been an easy one because along with it came the fear of building anything at all, so instead I subconsciously devised a little Cha cha cha that took me one step forward, two steps back, to the side, together, other side, together… begin again. My ego doing battle with my soul until I understood what it was I was truly trying to create… A Festival of Freedom!

I say a festival because what I truly want is to feel joyous, abundant, healthy, happy, fulfilled every single day. Life is supposed to be fun! But I was caught up in the details and what I needed to do to achieve them.

Today, I’m inspired by what happens when passion returns. What can be achieved when you embrace your true loves and inspirations, the things that make your soul sing. They never left, they were simply buried under a mountain of details and when you remember your gifts are deeply connected to your passions you come alive and the universe shows you the path again… the one without walls.

Four years of self-healing using the Grail makes me an expert and as an expert, I know how fragile it can be without vigilance and due diligence. Principle 2: I AM Detached is the way through the details and Principle 5: I AM Liberated dismantles the prisons. It’s my least mentioned Principle in written form because it’s my own greatest healing journey.

Due diligence means doing the work… if you would like to journey into Self and set yourself free with guidance from the expert then check out The Path of Petals training course here or book a Grail Consultation here.

Passionately yours

Jo x

Essential Part of The Script

Life is a process. Unfolding with each step like an adventure story, with twists and turns taking you to who knows where, it develops by the moment from the very second you touch down here on the planet to the moment you leave and in fact beyond.

You may think you have plans, intentions, hopes, dreams and direction, all a part of the show to help drive you forward but in truth there is a much more elaborate show going on and your miniature role becomes apparent only when someone else’s slams up against it creating the main event… a bit like a small planet gently spinning through space minding its own business apart from being courteous by waving good morning to the other planets engaged in their very own orbits as they fly by… that is until some random meteor comes out of nowhere hurtling towards the gentle planet at breakneck speed and suddenly life goes from a serene routine to a scene out of the spoof disaster movie Airplane.

The more elaborate scheme going on is not subject to negotiation or reason and its Creator has no intention of explaining it to you, you’re simply expected to play your part.

You may believe that this narrative has you down as an insignificant pawn in a game you don’t understand but not so. You see, you are the most powerful player on the universal chess board, without you the narrative doesn’t work. Whether you are to win or to lose, to be the hero or the sacrificial lamb doesn’t change the fact that without your input, without you playing your role to the full, the next part of the unfolding story cannot go ahead… and the show must go on.

You affect everything within this Divine Matrix just by being a part of it. quantum physics shows that you affect it just by observing it… that’s how significant you are.

Just for today, observe every aspect of your existence, from reading this to doing your laundry to preparing your dinner as an essential part of the script… you have absolutely no idea which supposedly insignificant act will trigger the next part of the story right up until you exit stage left.

Principle 1: I AM God

More later… x

Cardinal Rule

I forgot a cardinal rule this week and it caused a stall in the flow of creativity. In order to kick start that creativity I felt the need to kick against a fixed point… a bit like a sprinter pushing hard against the blocks at ready, set, go! Unfortunately in the game of life, pushing against a fixed point usually means creating some form of personal drama as drama, in its own right is fuel for a good story… but it’s hardly helpful in creating a peaceful life. Creativity on the other hand is essential for bending the light of Source energy into a form that pleases you and fulfils your needs to move the story along.

So what was the cardinal rule?

You don’t need a reason to create.

This morning I awoke and had an urge to paint, my logical brain then piped up and said: “How is that going to move you forward on the path?” I basically chastised myself for wasting time on triviality when work needed to be done. The truth is, I make my own deadlines for work, what if today I don’t want to move forward? What if I want to sit and explore right now through a different creative medium? What if by painting I find a new passion that God wants me to use in my work? What if I really enjoy myself?

My creativity stalled because I felt I needed to mould it into a productive form that fits within the boundaries of my conventional day to day tasks, that the outcome needed to be useful in some way or strategic, calculating even. Instead of just creating from my intuitive guidance, for my pleasure, I told myself it had to have a point and a discernable purpose. My inner child had a plan and my outer grown up shat all over it from a great height… and then the well was dry.

Convention, when living a fulfilling, peaceful, joyful life, is a prison whose walls not only confine you but drain the life and light out of you…

I’ve got an overgrown garden, 3 half written training programmes in progress, meditations to record, research to complete and the next chapter of The Wholly Grail book to write… I’m off to get my paints out, sod it!

Principle 2: I AM Detached and Principle 5: I AM Liberated.

More later… x

 

On or Off The Planet

Occasionally, perhaps even once in a lifetime comes something so big that it almost knocks you on your arse.

A few days ago after teaching meditation to a group I received what is sometimes termed a ‘download’ from spirit. Two nights of no sleep as the information filtered into my consciousness brought to the fore a whole pattern spanning my life, my work and my relationships and suddenly in a cathartic rush everything made sense… a series of flashbacks mapped the synchronicities along my own personal path that have led to this point. I have a purpose.

Of course everybody does and I don’t want it to sound so dramatic, what I’m trying to articulate (I think) is that we are rarely given a glimpse of the bigger picture and the role we play in the greater whole. Often we just do the best we can from moment to moment following our joy (or pain for those of us who haven’t awoken enough to recognise there’s a choice) towards an unknowable conclusion, but if you catch a glimpse… it’s breathtaking, terrifying, blissful, awful…

Why the mixed blessings? Humanity are rarely equipped to see beyond the scope of their own experience, it’s too big and we start to question whether or not we are up to the job. I suppose it’s like becoming a parent for the first time and realising that you are no longer just responsible for yourself and that life and death are now sitting firmly within your hands, that’s why terrifying and wonderful all at the same time.

No matter how far you can see, no matter how small or large the task, no matter the size of the cog in the machine, you are irreplaceable. Nobody else on or off the planet, can possibly do the job you were sent to do. Only you have that particular genetic code, that fingerprint, those unique experiences, that singular perspective, only you can play the part set aside for you by the Greatest Magician there is and when you grasp that, you yourself become the most vivid and powerful version of you because you understand in high definition that comparing yourself to anyone and anything simple becomes an exercise in futility.

Principle 1: I AM God and Principle 4: I AM Truth. You are too.

More later… x