Tag Archives: Presence

Flowing Towards What’s Growing

Each morning and evening, when I wake and before I go to sleep, I journal. Nothing extensive, just a few lines of thoughts, feelings, experiences and a prayer. This sacred act helps bring clarity and focus, relieves repetitive thought and ensures any suppressed issues are brought into the light… in short its a healing process that forms part of my Self-Full routine and one I’d highly recommend to anyone.

As I picked up my journal today I caught sight of a short entry from last week that made me smile… it simply read: “Dear God, please protect my happy bubble!”

What a wonderful image to portray in words.

The reference sought to acknowledge the fragility of joy within a mind that is habituated to stress through years of looking too far forward and too far back. I tell myself that comes with the territory of an intuitive, prophecy is rarely based in the now and that of course is where my happy bubble exists.

God’s answer came in very quickly the day I wrote it with the overwhelming internal message “How can I protect you from yourself… when you won’t let Me?” That’s what made me smile. When the insight becomes tangible for you that you are all powerful when it comes to the choice of presence. When you understand that the sharp edges that threaten your happy bubble are the metaphorical knives and arrows of your own thoughts and that you have the free will to transform “if, but and maybe” into moment to moment “flowing towards what’s growing,” then happy becomes less of a gamble and transforms into a natural friend that stands with you regardless of the external twists and turns that penetrate the outer veil when the universe wants to ramp up the story a notch.

Principle 2: I AM Detached is my happy bubble. If I want God to protect it, then I have to put down the knives!

More later… x

P.S. if you want to find your happy bubble through deep spiritual practice then you could do worse than to check out my brand new ascension training: The Path of Petals commencing early March.

The Real Treasures

Winter Solstice Blessings to you all.

In my last post I asked that you join me today in sending more love out into the world, you can read that via the archive but today let’s also concentrate on loving what’s present in our lives.

Principle 2: I AM Detached asks that you focus not in the past or in the future, but in the present and on what is. The winter solstice is the longest night of the year wrapped up in the stress of the Christmas season, when blessings are sometimes hardest to see and easiest to overlook… but not if you focus on the real treasures present in your experience.

Family, friends, health, home… love, that’s the key to everything. There may be a million things that you want and are actively striving for but just for now, settle down to accept and appreciate where you are, what you have and who you are sharing it with.

Keep the light in your heart until it returns to the world. In the deep midwinter let us all become beacons of hope, gratitude and grace that set the example for the rest to follow.

Blessings Abound x

Saturday Oracle – Calling The Control Tower

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Anxiety levels are on the rise and its not just because of the impending holidays…

Since Last Tuesday’s new moon I have been in contact with numerous people who have been overcome with an intense stress energy that is apparently set to lead us into this coming week.

When Principle 2: I AM Detached meets the overly fizzy orange of the sacral chakra, the central nervous system becomes frazzled by the onslaught of stress hormones such as cortisol and adrenalin pushing us into high alert and depleting vital resources and coping skills.

About two years ago I was suffering from an eye injury compounded by my body misinterpreting the threat and undertaking the task of attacking itself instead of the problem. In danger of losing my sight, that meant I had to take massive doses of steroids to suppress my immune response for an extended amount of time. Steroids are basically pharmacological versions of those stress hormones I mentioned earlier… The result was terrifying.

For several months I felt as though I had fractured my own mind, watching an internal battle play out between the different aspects of self over the most basic decisions like whether or not it was a good idea to make a cup of tea and partake of the beverage after 9.30 pm… not exactly a life threatening choice but enough that I began to panic as one version of me argued for and one argued against all the while the sane higher self was desperately trying to get them to listen to reason in that it made no difference whatsoever… my lovely mum eventually settled the argument via the phone, like landing a unmanned airplane remotely from the control tower.

It sounds funny now but the blind panic, shaking, surging anxiety and feeling of being out of control of even the most basic things is a very frightening experience.

In the last few days, these feelings, to a much lesser degree have begun to surface… luckily, being many months now free of prescription pharmaceutical aid (both eyeballs intact), the road to recovery is much less frightening and at least now recognisable without calling the control tower!

Imagine my surprise though when others started reporting in similar symptoms…

Here’s the thing, 2016 has been a year of clearing, literally letting go of the old, of endings. The New Moon, reported to be bringing love and abundance was a magical doorway highlighting the residue of the years work and reminding you that constant letting go causes perforations in the subtle bodies making you extra sensitive to both internal shifts and external manipulation.

Staying present is the most effective method of survival through this short-term flux. Your mind is your enemy during times of stress… your body is your friend… mindfulness is key. Focus on your breath, relaxing each muscle group in order, let go of anywhere you are holding tension and avoid asking why, acknowledging what’s happening during a panic attack is often enough to release its grip. Be very gentle with yourself this week avoid high stress environments and people, and use the age old mantra: this too shall pass.

Back next week… x

Freak-Out Dance Routine

There comes a moment in time where the urgency passes and the fear subsidies making way for a new wave of positive and progressive energy. Rationally, you understand that the possibility of recurrence exists but when grace descends and forms a bubble of joy around you, that possibility becomes a hazy half forgotten dream that you can choose to either focus on and allow to come sharply into focus or you can allow to slip away into the midst of the other dark shapeless forms that dwell beyond the bubble.

This week will go down in history… but then so will every other week. What’s done is done and this is where we are. I don’t know about you but where I am right now is pretty significant as far as the journey goes, significant because this is the only place that matters… right here, right now.

I remember back about 18 years ago I shared a flat with a friend who was a morning person (I had no idea until then that such people even existed), but she had this habit of waking me up in the morning by making me do a full on freak-out dance routine to “Right Here, Right Now” (was that Fatboy Slim? I can’t remember), anyway needless to say, that’s all there is… and when the sun came up this morning on another blessed day, I remembered to be present with what is now… and then I did a freak-out dance routine around the kitchen to something equally as rousing!

The point being that the sun did come up. No matter how shit it appears to be at any one time, sooner or later that despair will transform, if you allow it to, into acceptance and from acceptance into appreciation, from appreciation in to full-on gratitude and when surrounded by that now exponentially growing bubble of grace it won’t be long until gratitude becomes jubilation!

Apply Principle 2: I AM Detached to your philosophy today, get out of your head and into your body (via Fatboy Slim or other worthy rhythmic noise maker… I’m finding Robin Thicke works for me currently) get present with what is and learn to freak-out for a whole different and altogether more positive reason!

More later (when I’ve stopped wearing the kitchen floor out and singing loudly at the neighbours)… x

Where The Magic Happens

The path is created step by step, moment by moment each time you make a choice… and trust me you make a million choices, consciously or unconsciously across the space of any 24 hours, from what to wear to what to drink, to how to comb your hair or whether today is a good day to change you life entirely. Even adjusting your position microscopically to feel more comfortable is a choice but we often just do it as it comes naturally… something coming naturally is easily trained out when you activate a mindful approach to decision making…

Let’s take the consistent complainer for instance. Quite often they have no concept that their attitude is a negative one or indeed that they are sharing it, just as you may not have noticed that you just altered your posture because your neck was aching from looking down at the device you’re currently reading this from. Chances are they have fallen into the habitual state of acting without thinking first, of allowing conditioning and programming to take over and automatically fill in the blanks when it comes to making choices…

But right here, in this moment, that’s where the magic happens, right here you have a choice…

Before you act, think about the ramifications of your next move… this is not meant to cripple you into inaction, it’s purpose is to put you fully in control of your own life, knowing that the outcome, whether positive or negative is one that you have crafted. When you choose from an unconscious pattern of choice making you get to the end product and ask “why does this always happen to me?” Just because you weren’t paying attention to the decisions you were making doesn’t mean you weren’t making them, so think…

The first job is to recognise that you actually have a choice in front of you… if you are the serial complainer maybe you can start by counting how many complaints you utter during one solitary conversation (it’s just to raise your awareness that its happening). Next ask yourself a single question: “How can I see this situation differently?” What about venturing further by asking: “What would change in my life if I saw it differently?”

Sounds like it might take some time to get retrained but when you realise how much time you wasted walking the path completely asleep and unaware of the creative power you hold, seems like a short term trade off to me.

So, here where the magic happens, what’s it going to be? Choose wisely.

Principles 1 and 2: I AM God and I AM Detached.

More later… x

One of The Most Boring Posts

This post could seriously mess up my blog strategy… but seeing as though I write what I feel and there is no strategy, that shouldn’t actually be a problem. This is possibly one of the most boring posts I’m ever going to write…

Being a passionate soul, my most inspired articles come from a place of anguish and of suffering. I’m not afraid of that truth: personal experience combined with professional application means I know what I’m talking about, so to feel through each Principle of The Wholly Grail can be what we term research and vigorous testing, realtime, on the ground human guinea pig style… seeing as though The Wholly Grail was rolled out in 2012 as my philosophy for creating inner peace and happiness a fair few human guinea pigs have been subjected to its methods since then.

I’ve found that The Wholly Grail offers solutions to every problem if you’re willing to do the work and because life is constantly offering up tests there has been much to work on and with… it’s not anecdotal evidence it’s real lives, mine included, that have undergone transformative processes through embracing the seven main Principles. But what I wanted to share with you today is my confession of what constitutes a boring post…

Inner peace means acceptance, acceptance means no drama, no drama means no anguish or suffering and this girl is so very happy to be boring if all that is the case.

My own personal and most sticky Principle has always been 2: I AM Detached. Dealing with being present and being grateful for where I am here in the moment, for the current situation, for the people in my life, for the things I have and for the love I’ve been blessed with. Do I have it all? That depends on your perspective… I have everything I need, though there are things I still want. In giving up the wanting and knowing that if it’s meant to be here it will arrive when it’s good and ready and all I have to do is stay open and believe… not that it will arrive, but that I will be just fine if it doesn’t. My drama has always been in believing that something was missing but nothing ever was save for one thing… me.

I’m not lost anymore. I AM God (Principle 1 – everything and everyone is), and nothing is ever lost to me except when I insist on covering my eyes, shielding my heart and I refuse to see…

My Wholly Grail is overflowing with an abundance of grace… so excuse me if I’m boring you but… I’m happy!

If you’d like to find your happy too, LIKE, FOLLOW, SHARE and come back later to find out what’s new.

More later… x

Far More Profound

I have to admit that its been unusually difficult to write this post. I don’t mean difficult in an emotional sense, but in a creative sense. I seem to have got myself all turned around, unfocused and adrift. You might think that I’m still in holiday mode after my jaunt to Glastonbury but in actual fact where I’ve been for the last 24 hours is more akin to a visit to in internal jumble sale…

Imagine if you will, a mishmash of information and subtle intuitions arriving en masse in no particular order and taking up residence inside your head. Now do you best to either ignore or make sense of it… that’s where I’ve been.

I decided to spend yesterday doing a combination of practical physical work as mundane as I could muster (like laundry) and intermittent meditation to return to Source and clear my thoughts. Each time I entered a meditative state though, being a channel, more information flooded in, each time, I touched clarity but upon my return, the jumble sale increased. Instead of returning from Avalon with an overflowing cup, I arrived home with an overflowing head!

Recapturing the inner peace offered by the Wholly Grail isn’t a hard task once you identify the essence of what’s wrong and for me a combination of two Principles have switched off the psychic bombardment in an instant and returned my equilibrium, grounding me and cleansing away the residue whilst allowing me to hold the information… Principle 2: I AM Detached requires absolute presence. You cannot be grounded in the present when you’re attempting to reconcile the past or anticipate the future, now is where it’s happening and I’m at home here in this place of instant manifestation. Principle 4: I AM Truth dictates the need for trust that there may be a dichotomy between what you feel to be correct for you and what another states as gospel, history or fact, and that dichotomy is natural and acceptable.

Nothing I learned on my travels matches the guidebooks, that’s ok. Nothing I felt on my travels matches the rumours, that’s ok too. Nothing I learned about myself in the process matches my expectations, that’s a confirmation that the class I taught prior to leaving, about expectation leading to disappointment was right on point, and that’s ok too… what I did learn was that the Grail Principles are far more profound than even I imagined and that I have something important to do… and I learned that the way I do it will not suit everyone… and that’s fine too.

If you have been enjoying The Wholly Grail free insights then please share them, give others an opportunity to make their own mind’s up. If you are seeing one of my posts for the first time then scroll back through the archives and also explore the basic Principles, find your way to that place of peace within you… you won’t find it out there, that’s the point in case you missed it… I did, and I will again, but I have 7 easy steps to find my way home… follow me, I know the way.

More later… x

 

Endless Playtime

August Bank Holiday in the UK is traditionally the last fling at hedonistic abandon for kids of all ages before September arrives and with it that call back to school… I’m no exception to the rule.¬†Embracing the inner child seems to be the theme for me at the moment as I go deeper down the rabbit hole into the light filled kingdom of bliss.

It’s a weird and long overdue sensation this hugely overflowing Grail cup that I’m currently not only drinking from but actually appear to be swimming in, and its a feeling that were I able to furnish you with it via this technological transmission, I would happily dump a mountain of blessings in your lap… and that’s the key. I learned as a little girl (and again just yesterday in fact), sharing the love, the joy, the endless playtime, goes a huge way towards centering your focus on this never-ending moment… and who wouldn’t appreciate a never-ending internal summer?

Whilst this bank holiday may be a day off for many, I’m not suggesting that irresponsibility become your way of life, I’m simply wishing for you the curiosity of a child’s spirit in everything you do… may your life, work, health and relationships be an endless playtime that you too may share wherever you go and with whomever you meet.

Principle 2: I AM Detached

More later x

The Free Mind

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A shift in perspective has opened up a new line of abundance to you and you didn’t know it was so easy to be free…

Principle 5: I AM Liberated and the deep indigo of the 3rd eye chakra have joined forces this week to congratulate you on tapping into the universal law off attraction.

You have spent years worrying about how to make the next pay check or meet the mortgage payment and quite often to the detriment of your sleep patterns and health but the meeting of these energies is a sign that you have let go into the flow of abundance simply by accepting that everything you need is already yours.

The free mind is a mind that is open to possibilities and therefore open to opportunities. It isn’t swayed by promises of material wealth and instead pursues the gratification found only in being useful, creative and of divine service. You may be asking what that looks like… well there’s that old Chinese proverb again: chop wood, carry water… or effectively, focus only on the task at hand, immerse yourself fully into everything you do and look for the payoff in the joy of presence rather than the monetary return on interest.

Visionary thinking is building up your cosmic coffers because that’s not your primary goal. Whereas your past worry was focused on how to make ends meet, your current attitude is on how much fun your having achieving it, God obliges by offering up enough of everything you need to keep the party going.

It really is that simple this week: free your mind of the how, and start enjoying the now. Release all that isn’t necessary and let God take care of the details.

Just as a mini disclaimer though, now isn’t the time to be irresponsible with money, respect it and allow it to flow in and out as it needs to. It will come and it will go whilst you are engaged in enjoying the free things in life like friendship, laughter, singing, dancing…

Life is good.

More next week… x

The Simplest of Gifts

There’s something very attractive about the idea of having it all, having everything you want in this life, isn’t there? You feel a seductive pull towards things, people, situations and lifestyles that can come off as all but deafening to the ego who sits amidst the shiny screaming “more more more!”

You have no concept what you need. That’s God’s job. Surrendering to the flow of life brings into sharp focus the inappropriate choices you have made up until now as you relax into wanting what is and appreciating the simplest of gifts… like breath.

There’s nothing wrong with shiny, you understand that. There’s nothing wrong with wanting things, people, situations and lifestyles that appear from a distance to be shiny… as long as you understand that its the wanting that produces the feeling, the chasing that amounts to the adventure and that once attained, not only can the object of your hunt never live up to the shiny glimpses you’ve caught along the way but nor can it fulfil your need to want, to hunt, to seek.

Once you have it, that’s the point at which you must once again learn to surrender. You have no idea what you need. That’s God’s job. Your job is now to relax into wanting what is, what has become, and appreciating the simplest of gifts… like love.

Principles 2 & 5

More later… x