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She Served Me Well, Now Let Her Die

Interesting title for a Monday morning don’t you think? This is a concept that last week became so clear to me, almost in stark contrast to the understanding I’ve integrated through years of self-discovery, but it’s an all-over liberating feeling.

Who I have been, where I have been, what I have done and achieved or not achieved, that version on of me no longer exists… she served me well, now let her die.

Nobody panic. I’m not about to shuffle off the mortal coil (at least I hope not). This simple statement is a testament to an even simpler truth: I’ve evolved.

We mostly begin new situations with a resume or curriculum vitae of what entitles you to be here, as if breathing requires justification or certification of competence but in so reciting your life experience you dwell on past manifestations of yourself and you quite frankly can’t be that person again. It’s like attempting to fill a glass from a fast flowing river with the exact same water twice… once it’s passed you by its gone forever.

Letting the old self die is a celebration of growth not a thing to be mourned. You have been gifted with knowledge and wisdom, skills and life hacks as a result of the experiences you have traversed, but if you are looking now to experience a new set of circumstances in your life then you simply cannot keep telling the old story of you.

Today was created from yesterday, if you keep repeating yesterday’s story then tomorrow will look exactly like today. That’s terrific if today is exactly what you hoped your life would look like but after a while stagnation will ruin even your most precious dream…

Just like the fast flowing river we are meant to flow to the ocean, which then evaporates and makes clouds, which fall as rain and start a new cycle all over again. The fresh rain doesn’t keep banging on about what happened when it used to be the vast ocean and the ocean appreciates but never mentions the rain.

Who you are today needs no excuses, no justification, no preamble… let your innate kindness, light and loving heart speak for itself. Let your wit and wisdom keep pace with the pack… a history can be exaggerated but a genuine intent always finds its place.

She served me well, now let her die.

Principles 2 and 4.

More later… x

Carefully Handling My Wobbly Bits

Despite the title I assure you that this is a spiritual/self-awareness post, honest…

As I write this I’m preparing a lesson for a meditation class about creating change. I am experiencing unprecedented internal transformation at present and the process feels very comfortable for the most part simply because, having dived into the depths of self I have faced the true nature of what it is I actually wish to change in my life…

Over the last couple of days though I have had an unusually high number of conversations with friends, colleagues, and clients who are frantically transforming the external decor… from hair and wardrobe to phone and vehicle to address and interior design. Then last night it occurred to me that I too had been browsing the old paint swatches looking for the right hue to brighten up my living environment. What’s going on?

It’s simple. We grow or we die… growth is change.

The dilemma arrives when we use external change to temporarily numb the issues that are really requiring our attention. These sweeping statements of material upgrade are our 3rd dimensional attempt to force the new in our lives.

Change is always happening, but you cannot always see what is being morphed into a new and unfamiliar shape, causing apprehension and internal wobble, so we do what we can to imitate control over our lives to give ourselves the reassurance that change is good when in effect it is neither good nor bad it is simply necessary for growth, for survival.

I’ve decided that slapping some paint on the kitchen is a harmless way of carefully handling my wobbly bits while ever I’m conscious that that’s all it is.  So go forth and dye your hair, clear out your wardrobe, redesign your garden… whatever floats your boat in the moment… but don’t hide from the truth of what’s really requiring your attention underneath the surface glitter.

… And speaking of hair, let’s keep it positive today people!

More later… x

P.S. if you would like to explore what’s really ripe for transformation then my brand new Path of Petals course is starting in early March.  Check out Training and Courses on main menu.

The Path of Petals

New Course: The Path of Petals

Commencing: 3rd March 2017

Location: South East Sheffield, UK

The Path of Petals is a journey of self-discovery, inner alchemy and self-mastery. It is one of many ascension pathways requiring of its sojourners to both dig deep and reach high.

This course is a combination of many of the spiritual practices and techniques that I have taught for years and has been devised to consolidate and contextualize knowledge into wisdom through disciplined personal practice.

In some traditions the chakras, when activated and enlightened, are referred to as The Chain of Flowers, taking this principle, The Path of Petals suggests walking step by step through the chain and understanding each petal (challenge or blessing) of the chakra as you go.

The course systematically climbs the chakras through the 3rd, 4th and 5th dimensions, through 33 chakra stages, deliberately uncovering, facing and healing latent programming and old wounds, releasing the individual from conditioned responses and emerging into true grace: the epitome of 5th dimensional living. Overlit by the ascended master’s Dwjal Khul (know also as The Tibetan or The Seeker’s Master) and Serapis Bey (sometimes referred to as The Egyptian) and embracing aspects of The Essene traditions and The Kabbalah. The course will feature lightbuilding exercises, colour, crystal, visualisation and sound therapy alongside the in depth psychology work.

Ascension is the process of ‘raising up’, moving into a state of mastery over the ego and freeing oneself from the ego’s mastery over you.

This is mainly a face to face course and its participants must be able to travel to Sheffield UK on a fortnightly basis to attend the group sessions which will be supplemented with online group work via a private Facebook group on the alternate weeks in between sessions and one to one follow ups/counselling with me. It is meant to provoke a serious disciplined personal spiritual practice and therefore self-work/homework will be mandatory in order to facilitate a shift in consciousness.

This course is for you if you are aiming to make your current spiritual practice a part of your daily life without feeling like you can’t function in reality and be spiritual too; if you are looking for a supportive small group environment in which to explore the true meaning of spirituality beyond the fluffy bits (where you can stop pretending to feel love and light and actually start generating it); and if you are ready to undertake the dedication and commitment needed to transform your world into heaven here on earth.

NB: It’s worth noting that those of legend who walked this path before, had a tendency to spend 40 days in the wilderness before arriving into the state you’re perusing… so don’t think this journey will be an easy one!

I’m making the commitment to the course attendees to dedicate up to 18 months to walk this journey with you (actual course length is 72 weeks/36 live sessions) and those who decide to undergo this training will be expected to show the same level of commitment. The cost of the course reflects the intention and places are limited to just a handful to ensure everyone gets the support they need throughout the process.

Payable over 3 payments each of £333,  (the number representing the ascended master’s) the first of which is due before the course commences, then again at the end of August 2017 and the final payment is due again at the end of Feb 2018.

(Equating to a total investment in your training of £999 GBP which works out at less than £1.99 per day over the length of the course).

If you think you are ready to walk The Path of Petals contact me now for more information and to apply.

Please note that payment of first instalment will secure your place on this course.

I’m looking forward to walking the path with you.

The Most Significant Other

Directly ahead of you is a gateway. Story has it this ancient portal is enchanted and all who cross the threshold shall be changed forever. None that cross have ever returned, so then nobody can verify the truth of this faerie tale…

You have options now: the magical doorway to who knows where or, the path back from whence you came. One thing’s for certain, you may only remain here in this place between places for a short amount of time… time is a mysterious creature whom it would appear is eating up the path behind you as history disappears into myth and legend and as the monster eats, so too do your options slide into an irrevocable darkness that will continue to exist only within the recesses of your mind and memory.

It glows ahead of you, this slice through the fabric of reality, offering enticement to the uninitiated, promises of gold and fame, love and adoration, a path where all lack is left behind in the other dimension… this one, the one from which you have not yet dared step, but beware, beyond this gateway, secrets become realities and those daydreams of reward are merely that… or are they?

And the monster that is time is fast approaching. Will you, won’t you, step through the doorway of promises and dreams?

All who pass here must do so unarmed, naked and vulnerable, for this is a gateway of the soul, an initiation to burn away the lower heavy nature of the ego, of fear and of fight… only love shall pass this floral framed temporal aperture into a new day, beyond the dark moon, beyond the dark night…

What waits beyond the threshold? Step through with certainty that to pass through to the other side is to meet the most significant other that shall ever grace your path… for who you shall become awaits beyond the glow of tomorrow and I for one would love to meet her…

More later… x

Symbol of My Success

Many years ago when I first began my formal spiritual education, my then teacher, a wise old bird by the name of Janet instructed me and a group of fellow meditatees (not sure that’s even a word but I like it) to plant a seed symbolically in our minds that each time we entered a visualisation we should water, nurture, care for and tend. After several weeks most of the group had grown various beautiful flowers but me, I managed unintentionally to grow a mighty tree. Now you might imagine it was a sturdy oak as that’s an obvious statement of strength, health, longevity and ancient wisdom but no, mine was a pear tree.

This tree grew strong and contained many messages for me, for example often I would visit the tree and a ribbon would be tied around the trunk, the colour of which, as a colour therapist, had varied and poignant meanings. Wildlife used the tree as a haven and they too provided wisdom through their totem interpretations, all of which helped to shape and guide my growth and development. The most significant symbol within that sacred tree though was one solitary pear… the idea that my hard work would pay off and bare fruit.

The health, strength and even the survival of that magnificent pear tree were totally at my mercy in those early days and this week the tree has shown up for me again, bearing a single pear and asking for me to nurture its growth. It’s roots are strong, its grown exponentially in stature and that singular fruit is my only true goal… but to bring that fruit into reality I now have to mirror the techniques of watering, caring, nurturing and tending first for myself and then for my goal, that it too may bare fruit.

That pear has always been the symbol of my success.

This week I’m intending to let the pear be my guide as I explore with you simple steps to Self-Full Living, that you may also be watered, nurtured, cared for and tended… refuelled and ready to bring your goals into the light.

Are you ready for a week of exploring Principle 6: I AM Self-Full?

Watch for the pear… x

A Simple Trick To It

Are you fulfilling your potential? Actually whilst we’re on the subject do you even know what your potential is? It’s something that is often mistakenly compared to success and can be the cause of great sadness if you are wandering around in a personal wilderness asking yourself the question “oh where oh where has my potential gone?” as if it’s a thing that can be lost or for that matter defined by another person…

Potential means not yet discovered, limitless possibilities waiting to be tested and boundaries waiting to be pushed, smashed even. Potential is the moment before the truth becomes apparent.

Sadness arrives when when you refuse to try… as a Grail Knight, it may be your potential to battle and tame dragons, build castles, or in real terms overcome your fears, turn them into allies and create a life full of joy, peace and abundance that is impervious to outside opinion or criticism, but the world keeps telling you that you should live up to your elusive potential and you keep listening (and feeling somewhat inadequate as a result) don’t you? That’s because you are waiting to be defined by another, by the media, by the job title you hold, by a partner, a parent etc… but here’s the thing, it’s your potential not theirs.

If you want to start exploring what yours might be there is a simple trick to it, do more than you did last time. Go further than you did last time, learn something that you didn’t know yesterday, create because your heart wants to, explore possibility and don’t be tempted to define it… You don’t know what your potential is because you haven’t reached it yet and that’s because the limits to what’s possible change every day… it’s called growth. Sadness happens when you accept that what you achieved yesterday is all you can do. Wrong. What you achieved yesterday was all you could do yesterday… today is a brand new day.

Principle 4: I AM Truth… but my truth, like my potential is not fixed… and I reserve the right to evolve.

More later…x

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