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New Life Begins With Death

Easter is almost upon us and I may be a little early but it feels right to me to be talking about new beginnings.

I began this year with an intention to create a life I didn’t feel the need to escape from, a life filled with joy and peace and love, that didn’t require a vacation to recover from it’s stresses however many times a year. I set off by announcing to my friends, especially the ones I usually travel with, that this year I wasn’t booking anything… not because I don’t intend to travel but because I feel the need to reconsider my reasons for doing so… I’m creating a life that’s built on discovery rather than escape, a life where I run to, not from.

In order to create this, which you must understand is quite an undertaking from where I was to where I want to be, I needed to take this year to stand and face those things I spent years attempting to escape, mostly though, I needed to face myself, my fears and my false assumptions about who I am.

The oracle at the weekend was all about owning who you are, what you want, and your expectations. It embraced Principle 5: I AM Liberated, which is focused primarily on freedom from material attachments but is more importantly about the stuff that you grip onto causing you to miss out on the stuff you really want.

New life begins with death. If you dream of being something different then you must let die who you were. If you dream of financial abundance then you must let die the things that drain your flow of abundance, if you dream of the perfect relationship then you must let die the dysfunctional connections that stand in your way, if you dream of amazing health and vitality then you must let die the counter-productive habits that thwart your progress, and if you want the perfect career that inspires you everyday to be creative and have fun, then you must let die the small self and step into your purpose.

I’m making real progress. Will I be done within a year? Does it matter? Creating a perfect life is a lifelong project, like I said, I don’t need to escape from the process because the process of creation is the process of living the perfect life.

Let the old you die, she’s served her time. Your new life is already here.

More later… x

 

Saturday Oracle – A Glance Back Towards Yesterday

Principle 4: I AM Truth is standing on the precipice of the vibrant orange sacral chakra this week asking for you to reclaim your integrity within a close relationship or following the end of one as you’re guided to take a glance back towards yesterday.

I wasn’t surprised by this combination as my vague knowledge of astrology is very aware that Venus is turning retrograde around now and being the planet of love, desire, passion, relationships, intimacy and connecting, all the things associated with the sacral chakra they in a highlighted position at present. The idea that the celestial love goddess appears in the sky to be travelling backwards doesn’t invite you to go backwards as such but instead to review and reflect with a view to heal. But that’s enough astrology, let’s get back to the Principle in question…

I AM Truth. What the heck does that mean?

Inside you, at a deep level you have access to your own truth. Some of us have buried it under blame, projection, deflection, ego, anger and a few other useless emotions and tactics that help us to avoid taking responsibility for where we are and how we got here.

Something valuable, I’d go as far as to say beautiful, has been lost because the truth was painful. Owning your truth even if it’s potentially going to be scorned upon by others is sign that your Grail and your self-esteem are intact. The opinions of others are just that, and though it may be true for them it doesn’t have to be so for you. Your actions have had consequences and you’ve cast aside the opportunity for unity, connection, intimacy, friendship, co-creation and commitment, even family because your pride had you lashing out to protect your reputation… underneath all the bluster you knew what was true but you chose to destroy something, someone. It may not be as dramatic as that… you’ll know when you glance back with compassion, for yourself if for nobody else.

This week’s energy flow has potential. I said at the beginning that this Principle is standing on a precipice, does that mean you can fix it? Retrograde Venus is hoping you will learn from it for sure but the other party has drawn a line and you have no way of crossing it now. A negative aspect of Principle 4 is that communication is all but blocked so attempting to rescue the remains of what’s been lost is damn near impossible. But this reading is about learning so that you can apply truth to all your dealings. Understanding how to open yourself up to emotional intimacy is about understanding that in vulnerability lies strength. The most magical relationship is the one in which there is no blame, where honesty is a given not a currency to be traded and where the more ammunition you give your loved one the more bullets they have to protect your love with instead of loading the gun and firing it at you.

Now then, since the new moon last week, we have entered a portal in which the end of a karmic cycle occurs. It remains open, like the precipice, until the full moon on the 12th March. I suggest you take a leap of faith, dive into the orange abyss and retrieve you… that way when the next potential love affair enters your orbit, all of you, your entire being will be ready to enter the arena and surrender to another human being who is ready to surrender to you.

Right I’m off to celebrate and eat cake with my lovely mum who is 80 years young today!

More next week… x

Monday Miracle – A Dream In The Making

I want you to know that you are not alone.

The last week or so has for many been a turbulent one. The universe has thrown everything it can your way to awaken you to the possibilities of a new way of being, but you cannot bring the old you along on the next part of the adventure. Let her (or him) die a metaphorical death so that you may be born anew.

It’s an anxious time, birth, but that’s what you are going through… maybe you’re bringing something forth in the external world like a new project, career, relationship or even an actual baby, but essentially the hidden miracle is that you are the very thing that you are giving birth to. Whatever is being created is creating a new version of you. Make no mistake that you will be changed forever.

There are cords, threads, hooks and chains all keeping you shackled to that old familiar version of yourself… some look like friends, family, old loves, habits both good and bad, fully invested in the previous incarnation that is attempting to return to stardust, reforming into a lighter, brighter more natural replacement. They won’t let go of what they know easily, she (he) could be depended upon to act a certain way, follow a certain pattern, be cajoled or controlled into what they needed regardless of how you felt or what you needed from her (him). I know you’re afraid. You too have come to have certain expectations of how life should be, what you are worth and whether this is your lot. You know this place. It’s safe. But it’s also stifling, restricted and painful…. let her die.

You are not alone.

The end of a karmic cycle is upon you and as unmapped as the onward path may be, you will be walking it with other intrepid souls who won’t let you fall.

This Monday Miracle is a dream in the making… feel out those old attachments, threads and chains and decide which ones bring joy, which bring sorrow, sadness and fear, choose to feed the joyful connections as you are reborn into the light and as you turn from the darkness all else will simply fade away.

This is the true you, your authentic self… and she (he) is magnificent.

Principle 1: I AM God, Principle 4: I AM Truth

More later… x

Look Again At The Miracles

Do you remember why you first connected with someone? What it was that drew you towards a relationship/friendship/partnership with them?

Over time everything evolves to a point where it then begins to decay, like the seasons: spring is a time of new beginnings, learning, growth; it transforms into a summer of celebration when everything is in full bloom; which gives way to autumn when we first harvest the abundance before decay commences and we allow the natural cycle to wither into winter, a time in which that which is no longer working dies and all else sleeps a restorative sleep and regeneration occurs. The seed of what has passed prepares to germinate into a fresh new beginning when the inevitable cycle begins anew.

Don’t go kidding yourself that anything in existence is immune from this cycle, relationships included.

It can be difficult when things begin to move into an autumn/winter phase, especially as we never really know what can survive or indeed whether we even want it to, so the process can feel like an agonising dismantling of the structures you believe define you… but they do not define you and this recognition begins the awakening of your individuation.

All relationships whether good, bad or indifferent, act as a mirror for your own self examination and understanding. You become an explorer, an adventurer, a seeker and learner at the beginning… allowing your natural childlike curiosity to lead you through uncharted waters; you thrive in your own beauty and vitality when the summer phase washes over you and then responsibility and daily life become the mundane teachers of early autumn… right before giving way to discontent and the beginning of the end… of this cycle anyway.

It is an inevitable cycle but this is not a pessimistic diatribe into an inevitable end…

Though winter must come to all endeavours, so too must a new spring. Nowhere is it written that winter must spell the end of your human entanglements, the cycle in fact suggests that you are merely recreating new energy to be born anew. So I take you back to the beginning of this piece: Do you remember why you first connected with someone? What it was that first drew you towards a relationship/friendship/partnership with them?

We forget to see the beauty, the multifaceted and infinitely layered capacity that every human being has to amaze, inspire, and reflect back our own divinity because we forget to tell them that it exists within them. We remind them constantly of how they don’t measure up to our expectations instead of seeing through the eyes of innocence and wonder into the depths of all that they do that is fascinating, enchanting and extraordinary.

Look again at the miracles they perform daily: the strength they have to keep going, the generosity they show to others, their determination, their wisdom, their playfulness… re-read their story as an individual as well as the chapters they share with you and then focus in on the characteristics that you mirror back to each other and ask yourself if you are focused on the positive influence of the partnership or on the niggles that you have allowed to push you into a negative slump towards winter.

Everything must end eventually, but a healer would at least try to save the patient before allowing an unnecessary death.

All your relationships need regularly resuscitation but the reboot has to come from you… who can you reflect beauty back at today?

I’d just like to say, you inspire me, you make me the best I can be and I am eternally grateful for you.

Principle 1: I AM God. Principle 3: I AM Human. Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted.

More later… x

 

First Monday Challenge – The Starting Blocks

“Welcome to 2017. Please remember to fasten your seatbelts and remain in your seat until the ride has completely come to a halt…” except it never really does come to a halt does it?

The first Monday of the year and we are all geared up for this universal 1 year (whatever that is), having survived by the skin of our teeth the “9” year of endings that felt like it went on forever at times and yet it seems just moments since I began a post with the words “first Monday of the year.”

What exactly does it look and feel like to be geared up for a year of fresh starts and new beginnings though?

Many of you will be holding your breath waiting for the new to come colliding in through the front door (and for a few it might), but for the most part this cosmic stream that we have placed power into mainly through collective intention is simply providing optimum conditions for you to create anew. The challenge here is when to begin and when to wait.

I know you’re already knelt at the starting blocks but the truth is that you may still be missing some vital information, inspiration, or the direction in which to set off running and so now is the time for reflection, meditation, consolidation and decision making, otherwise when the starting pistol does get around to firing you’ll be spinning on the spot losing vital energy.

Get a pen and paper, write down what you really want to create this year, as both tangible, measurable outcomes and as the resultant feelings and emotions that go with them… use the 7 Principles of The Wholly Grail as guidance if you like, they will provide you with:

Self- worth, Presence, Forgiveness, Authenticity, Freedom, Health and Personal Fulfilment and Balanced Relationships… that’s not a bad place to start now is it? Once you’ve got your list, meditate on it, rule out all the clutter and pare that list down to just 3 things (all the feelings, but just 3 actual goals). These are your priorities… your current hearts desires. This is where your energy should go and which direction you need to set off in when the momentum takes you.

Remember something else important too… when you set off towards your destiny, it sets off in search of you. That’s gonna be a bit shit if you’re running blindly in the opposite direction so get focused. What’s another few days, weeks, months?

When the ride sets off, it will be the ride of your life, but for now you have to wait for the rollercoaster to fill up with the component parts and players… prepare…wait…

More later… x

This Reverberating Web

I’ve been processing on a much more conscious level of late, the idea of home and what constitutes environmental comfort. Probably since my home was turned upside down a few months ago whilst the builders demolished and rebuilt my bathroom causing chaos in what seemed like every other room… that’s the point: you cannot contain a major change in one area of your life without everything else being affected, at least on a minor level. Minor adjustments to the continuum send shockwaves down every strand of the web however minute and seemingly unnoticeable at first.

Shockwaves, like sound waves can be carried on the wind and travel long distances, becoming diluted the further they travel, moving from deafening to an almost indiscernable haunting melody that is so faint that you’re not sure if it’s your subconscious playing tricks on you, before it fades completely having run its course.

When you consider your life, the structures that you’ve built for yourself like family, relationships, career, social standing, financial nest egg, your house or abode etc, these things that currently define your level of comfort and what makes you feel at home, what would happen if just one of those things were to dramatically change?

They will change.

Life is far from static and what you see as being your comfort zone will inevitably be tested… if you don’t step outside of it now and again the divine will shift the goalposts anyway to force you to look beyond your own back yard and understand that yesterday’s optimal is far from today’s potential… change is growth and the only way to survive change is to redefine home…

Looking within at your core beliefs and your connection to a higher power, knowing that who you are: a beautiful soul on an adventure, is the pure essence lying beneath the veneer, and holding onto the notion that this reverberating web is the greatest fun you can ever possibly experience (if you choose to see it that way) is quite enough to wake you up to the truth that home is so much bigger than the structures you have built up around yourself and that regardless of outer appearances, only a minor adjustment and a little time and distance from the main event horizon and the cacophony will once again become a haunting melody that you are perfectly at home dancing to.

Principles 1 & 5

More later… x

 

Release The Butterfly

We humans are generally a ceremonial bunch, we like to mark occasions don’t we? Just think of all the “Days” we honour on the calendar: birthdays, high days, holidays, bank holidays, national days, international days… we mark open days, launch days, and we mark closing days… but they are all just days really.

On Saturday I posted an oracle reading that foretold of a birth, a new beginning that could take any shape or form and its to those new beginnings that we tend to latch on a significant day, like: “I’ll wait until New Year to make that change” for example.

Yesterday, a fairly insignificant day as far as I’m aware, certainly in my calendar anyway, was a day of significant change for me. No pomp and circumstance, no ceremony, no launch party, just me and the angels working together to bring about a brand new beginning for me… and I haven’t stopped smiling since yesterday morning. My new start was with regards to a healthier way of being in every area of my life: mind, body and soul working in unison to find the joy in every action. I should have known earlier in the week that this transition was imminent when a giant and very beautiful butterfly decided to take over the house and give me the dilemma of how to help it escape with minimum drama or damage… then yesterday I became the butterfly after spending the morning in meditation, fully connected to Source and receiving a vision of how it could be if I freed myself from everything that held me back but with minimum drama. I didn’t plan my own transformation, God did. I didn’t “launch” the new me or the new way, I was just spontaneously born anew from a new perspective and a new direction, my job now is to simply follow His lead moment to moment to sustain joy.

After taking last week off from posting, I’d like to say I took the week off altogether but actually it was my busiest week in a long time, I noticed that, having room for me was as simple as having room for God. Meditation is the single most healing, revealing, restoring action you can take in your journey toward creating the life you want… drop the drama today and release the butterfly within, a new you is possible in any moment of any day. Don’t wait for an occasion to start living the life you always dreamed of… now’s good.

Principles 1 & 2 in action.

More later… x

 

The Mirrorcle

Grail Oracle 1Grail Oracle Orange

Free readings from The Intuitive Chalice Oracle have been posted weekly now for a good few months and inevitably combinations will come up more than once. Though this particular combination appeared a while ago as “The Creative Director” it’s back now as The Mirrorcle to provide us more context on the current energy stream.

Bringing together Principle 1: I AM God, with the vibrant orange of the sacral chakra, The Mirrorcle embraces the concept of birth and new beginnings.

It’s time to see the beauty of your creations as a new life is thrust into being. Don’t be fooled by the notion that this new life must represent an actual baby, no, this could also be a new idea, new business venture, new hobbie, new relationship… it could be an art project… New situations birthed into your world bring with them uncertainty, you have to adjust to accommodating change, but there is something fundamentally beautiful about this creation because as the rather odd spelling of miracle suggests, this endeavour is a reflection of the divine within you.

To recognise beauty in another: a being or an object, is to connect fully with God present in its energetic makeup. The simple and incorruptible Law of Reflection states that you cannot recognise in another that which is not already present within you.

All that being said, look out for the new in your life this week… invite in, open your heart to it and tell it how beautiful it is, you both benefit from acknowledging divinty… even if new can be a little scary.

More next week… x

The Dyson Effect

Toying with the idea of emptiness this morning at the prompting of an intuitive connection to an underlying impending shift in personal circumstances, I was exploring the concept of a true vacuum. You see, emptiness suggests the lack of something but the universal way of things is that as soon as space becomes available something rushes in to fill the gap. More to the point, this is only so within a vacuum where it literally sucks in everything around it because a vacuum is a place where nature is excluded, growth is excluded, life is excluded … and that cannot be allowed to remain.

What we term empty in an emotional context is actually far from it, like a room in a house that is vacant… there appears to be nothing there, but there is air, there is probably dust, and there is certainly energy of one form or another. The room though is waiting to be filled. Unlike the Dyson Effect whereby the vacuum generated within the space would suck in new life, this room requires intent in order to be refilled with the vibrancy of a new situation, like furniture and a purpose for instance.

Let me offer up an emotional comparison:

You feel empty… now explore that for a moment. You are never actually empty. Like the room is full of air and dust and energy, so are you, the question is what is the consistency of the air and dust and energy?

Does the emptiness actually equate to loneliness or does it equate to anticipation?

The Dyson Effect (not at all a technical or scientific term but an analogy based solely on my vacuum cleaner) sucks in everything in its path, no discernment required… it eats the dust, the dirt, the rug, the cat (actually I don’t have a cat but if I did it would now be happily residing inside the Dyson), because a true vacuum doesn’t distinguish what it wants… but you, in a state of emptiness are also ready to be filled. What you fill your empty room with (your heart, mind and soul in this case) is determined by that consistency of residual energy.

Loneliness, if that’s your current state of (un)emptiness is a negative focus on lack, honing in only on what appears to be missing from the room, whereas anticipation is a joyful acceptance that what has past has created an opening for a whole new slew of blessings and opportunities…

What is the consistency of the energy in your empty room?

Mine? I’ve removed all the dust with the Dyson… all that’s left is the anticipation of lovely stuff filling my open heart, because that’s all I’ve made space for.

More later… x

 

Trawl For Truth

Most of what you see before you today is a product of what you were thinking yesterday. The past has a powerful grip on your current state of being because it is in evidence all around you.

Have you reached a point in your life where you feel you can no longer continue along the same lines as before? Coming to deeply understand that the balance in your situation is heavily stacked towards apparent obligation rather than towards living, loving, giving, feeling, being free, is a ¬†key moment in your timeline at which point you have the opportunity to switch from living life unconsciously to becoming wide awake, and now all you have to do ask “why?” Why do I do that? Is it because it’s what I’ve always done? Is it because someone told me I had to? Is it simply that I haven’t yet imagined a new way to be yet?

Personal history can be your greatest teacher or you can be its prisoner but the choice is entirely yours. If you can stop for just 5 minutes today and think: ” What would I be doing now if I had a choice and there were no limitations to my experience?” Whatever comes to mind, trawl for truth… truth feels right, it doesn’t jar against your emotional centre, it brings a smile, a feeling of joy from your inner core. Sit with this vision of your truth for just a few minutes, write it down, find a picture or representation of it and begin to grow the image in your mind and in your journal or on a dream board over time…

Once this image of what you really would like to do, be, feel and have has solidified in your mind and you can easily see it each day, go back to the question about your current state: “why?”

One subtle change today can be the inaugural step towards a different reality for tomorrow… make a change.

More later… x