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A Very Merry Moment To Moment

After a period of apparent adversity, I emerged back into joy for the sake of joy yesterday. I awoke feeling not just optimistic but as if I had already arrived into the centre of my own dream life, all details present and accounted for… like that moment when you win the life lottery and suddenly the sky is brighter and rainbows start appearing everywhere in your experience.

Nothing major had changed externally of course, (except the smile obviously plastered across my face), I had merely stepped fully out of the slipstream of time and into the eternal moment… the present. My Christmas Present!

I’m not going to go into detail about the various devious mindgrabbers that have kept me from my personal Grail of late, but I’ve never made claims other than that I struggle with Principle 2: I AM Detached, the art of remaining present. I’m usually off whittling about what’s next or not next, sometimes rehashing what happened last or last year… knowing its a futile activity doesn’t make it easier when you’re attempting to unravel a lifetime of programming or unconscious addiction… I’m a self-confessed stress-head or rather, I have been. I’ve told you before that when you begin a sentence with I AM, you better end it with something you actually want to be because the universe is constantly listening to your claims and adjusting the rudder to fulfil them for you… that being said, I AM happy to announce that I AM Happy!

Getting out of the slipstream only needs to happen momentarily for you to get that feeling, it’s like the Chalice swells a little to allow more contents to fill it. It’s just your perception of course, those contents were already there except you failed to noticed, I failed to notice… and I notice everything!

Keep your joy alive this Christmas by not minding so much. It doesn’t matter if you didn’t finish shopping, if you did a shoddy job of wrapping gifts, if Christmas dinner isn’t ready on time… none of that matters… what matters is that you laugh your way through disaster and see the whole weekend through the eyes of a child: focused on the moment and squeezing every last drop of bliss out of it.

May I wish you a very merry moment to moment… x

 

Endless Playtime

August Bank Holiday in the UK is traditionally the last fling at hedonistic abandon for kids of all ages before September arrives and with it that call back to school… I’m no exception to the rule. Embracing the inner child seems to be the theme for me at the moment as I go deeper down the rabbit hole into the light filled kingdom of bliss.

It’s a weird and long overdue sensation this hugely overflowing Grail cup that I’m currently not only drinking from but actually appear to be swimming in, and its a feeling that were I able to furnish you with it via this technological transmission, I would happily dump a mountain of blessings in your lap… and that’s the key. I learned as a little girl (and again just yesterday in fact), sharing the love, the joy, the endless playtime, goes a huge way towards centering your focus on this never-ending moment… and who wouldn’t appreciate a never-ending internal summer?

Whilst this bank holiday may be a day off for many, I’m not suggesting that irresponsibility become your way of life, I’m simply wishing for you the curiosity of a child’s spirit in everything you do… may your life, work, health and relationships be an endless playtime that you too may share wherever you go and with whomever you meet.

Principle 2: I AM Detached

More later x

Cardinal Rule

I forgot a cardinal rule this week and it caused a stall in the flow of creativity. In order to kick start that creativity I felt the need to kick against a fixed point… a bit like a sprinter pushing hard against the blocks at ready, set, go! Unfortunately in the game of life, pushing against a fixed point usually means creating some form of personal drama as drama, in its own right is fuel for a good story… but it’s hardly helpful in creating a peaceful life. Creativity on the other hand is essential for bending the light of Source energy into a form that pleases you and fulfils your needs to move the story along.

So what was the cardinal rule?

You don’t need a reason to create.

This morning I awoke and had an urge to paint, my logical brain then piped up and said: “How is that going to move you forward on the path?” I basically chastised myself for wasting time on triviality when work needed to be done. The truth is, I make my own deadlines for work, what if today I don’t want to move forward? What if I want to sit and explore right now through a different creative medium? What if by painting I find a new passion that God wants me to use in my work? What if I really enjoy myself?

My creativity stalled because I felt I needed to mould it into a productive form that fits within the boundaries of my conventional day to day tasks, that the outcome needed to be useful in some way or strategic, calculating even. Instead of just creating from my intuitive guidance, for my pleasure, I told myself it had to have a point and a discernable purpose. My inner child had a plan and my outer grown up shat all over it from a great height… and then the well was dry.

Convention, when living a fulfilling, peaceful, joyful life, is a prison whose walls not only confine you but drain the life and light out of you…

I’ve got an overgrown garden, 3 half written training programmes in progress, meditations to record, research to complete and the next chapter of The Wholly Grail book to write… I’m off to get my paints out, sod it!

Principle 2: I AM Detached and Principle 5: I AM Liberated.

More later… x