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Taking Home Wherever You Go

Life is full of uncertainties. We find ourselves moving through different spheres of being whether we are trying to illicit change or not. The journey is always happening even when life feels static.

Because the motion of transformation occurs at such an imperceptible rate during your normal daily grind, unless you look back with purpose at how life was say a year ago, your fearful self doesn’t get spooked because the flow was slow and natural.

What about those times of sudden shift though?

The use of the word home in the title is no more about your street address than it is about your furniture, in fact moving house could be one of the sudden shifts I’m referring to, as could a birth, a death, a new relationship or the end of one to name but a few. No, the home I’m referring to is the sense of stability, confidence and inner well-being that life is ok no matter what chaos is happening externally.

Familiarity, is the key to feeling safe. When you find that part of you which remains constant through all your experiences, the unshakable, unbreakable essence of who you are, who you came here to share as a gift to the world, that’s when you understand that home is a state of mind wrapped up in a quantum field that you are incapable of ever leaving and that change is merely an update in the illusory theatrical scenery and actors in the story.

If the story didn’t evolve, we’d all stop playing. When it evolves at pace we all get jittery simply because we lose our place in the script and are forced to ad lib without warning, making the plot twists that bit more nail biting, edge of your seat, sometimes excruciating.

The truth is that home is within not without and that everything else, everyone else, is just temporary shelter.

Remember who you are. Principle 1: I AM God.

Want to understand this and the other Principles? Go here.

More later… x

Stuck Between Floors

The old world, the one you once called home, the one where the inhabitants were ushered here and there day by day; heads down, unaware of the injustice visited upon them by the shepherds of the self proclaimed utopia; once you raised your eyes from your feet and the pavement in front of you and stepped out of line, sneaking past the guard who had been equally as brainwashed into believing he was protecting some kind of social order… that world to which you once belonged when you were asleep, is now an alien place to you.

They know you are no longer entranced. To go back there is not an option.

The new world, the one with an army more equipped with technology, fire power, resources and subterfuge, the one you imagined you might infiltrate to see what was really going on, that place is terrifying to you… to be a sheep or a wolf? You can survive for so long being an evolved sheep in wolf’s clothing, there are those who won’t bat an eyelid as you carefully manoeuvre through this dangerous territory… after all you look the part, you talk the talk… but you smell like a lamb to the slaughter and you don’t know the ropes here. What do you do? You can’t stay, it’s not safe… and you certainly can’t go home…

Home?

Change is enormously distressing even when you know it’s necessary. Enlightenment, means change. Like stepping into an elevator at the ground floor and pressing the button to ascend only to find that you become stuck between floors. The time in that space can be a frantic grapple to get to a place of safety but you have no real understanding of what safety is, simply because the floor below you stifles your newly open receptors but the floor above seems just as uninspiring and full of pretenders with hidden secrets…

Where is home?

The elevator is your friend. The gentle background music and the reassuring voice “lift going up.” This isolation is not a trap.

You aren’t stuck, the small box in which you are shielded, raising you far beyond the only floors you believed existed will deposit you in its own sweet time to a place so far beyond the drab, way past the shiny and garish, into a place where sheep and wolves transform through Grace into genuinely beautiful individuals who will open their arms to accept you as the magical doors open… and for the first time you will know that you’ve truly arrived home.

Hold your nerve, don’t get off until you reach your floor… you belong much higher than ever dared believe.

Principles 1 & 4.

More later… x

 

I’ve Reached My Limit

I’ve been thinking a lot about priorities of late and more specifically what mine are, and then out of the blue at about 1.30 this morning I had a moment of sudden clarity that I’d had everything upside down…

It sometimes takes an emergency to help you re-evaluate your plans for the future and where you yourself fit into them, what you’re willing to accept and where your boundaries truly are. The last two days have been a bit of a whirlwind albeit a short-lived one that have seen the foundation’s of my own reality get a little shaken like the proverbial tower in the tarot deck… luckily the tower didn’t fall this time but it’s only a matter of time before it does… Life is so very precious… love is a gift… family is everything.

My priorities have had me testing the strength of my roots and calculating what I was prepared to give up for something apparently greater for quite some time and I know now what the answer is…

Have you every been in a position where you have had to choose one way of life over another, one person over another, one location over another? I’ve been freeing myself up from all my ties and anchors for years in order to make that choice an easy one but in the early hours of the morning I realised something… I don’t want to. There is something in my current life that I love so very dearly that to leave would be the end of who I truly am… that’s not to say that there isn’t a place for my dreams to arrive and set up camp here, I’ve left the door open and made a space, in my life, in my heart, in my schedule and even in my home to create something amazing, but right here has something for me that the rest of the world is missing and until the inevitable day that she no longer exists in physical form… I’m home.

When you evaluate what’s really true for you, start by focusing on what you already have that you love before you ponder what you haven’t yet got that you would like… that new thing will come with needs, boundaries and conditions… make sure you don’t give up yours to achieve it… your dreams may have to be malleable to accommodate what already exists in your reality. I always ask “What are you prepared to give up?” Well, I’ve reached my limit. Nothing more for now… I’ve been accommodating enough and now it’s someone else’s turn to do the compromising and meet me half way.

Principle 1: I AM God (and I matter)

Principle 2: I AM Detached (and what’s present is what’s important)

Principle 4: I AM Truth (and I won’t ignore what’s true for me now)

Principle 5: I AM Self-Full (and this is what I need).

Priorities change… forgive me if I move you down the list… though you are pretty high up there, the only person at the top… is me.

More later… x

This Reverberating Web

I’ve been processing on a much more conscious level of late, the idea of home and what constitutes environmental comfort. Probably since my home was turned upside down a few months ago whilst the builders demolished and rebuilt my bathroom causing chaos in what seemed like every other room… that’s the point: you cannot contain a major change in one area of your life without everything else being affected, at least on a minor level. Minor adjustments to the continuum send shockwaves down every strand of the web however minute and seemingly unnoticeable at first.

Shockwaves, like sound waves can be carried on the wind and travel long distances, becoming diluted the further they travel, moving from deafening to an almost indiscernable haunting melody that is so faint that you’re not sure if it’s your subconscious playing tricks on you, before it fades completely having run its course.

When you consider your life, the structures that you’ve built for yourself like family, relationships, career, social standing, financial nest egg, your house or abode etc, these things that currently define your level of comfort and what makes you feel at home, what would happen if just one of those things were to dramatically change?

They will change.

Life is far from static and what you see as being your comfort zone will inevitably be tested… if you don’t step outside of it now and again the divine will shift the goalposts anyway to force you to look beyond your own back yard and understand that yesterday’s optimal is far from today’s potential… change is growth and the only way to survive change is to redefine home…

Looking within at your core beliefs and your connection to a higher power, knowing that who you are: a beautiful soul on an adventure, is the pure essence lying beneath the veneer, and holding onto the notion that this reverberating web is the greatest fun you can ever possibly experience (if you choose to see it that way) is quite enough to wake you up to the truth that home is so much bigger than the structures you have built up around yourself and that regardless of outer appearances, only a minor adjustment and a little time and distance from the main event horizon and the cacophony will once again become a haunting melody that you are perfectly at home dancing to.

Principles 1 & 5

More later… x

 

Far More Profound

I have to admit that its been unusually difficult to write this post. I don’t mean difficult in an emotional sense, but in a creative sense. I seem to have got myself all turned around, unfocused and adrift. You might think that I’m still in holiday mode after my jaunt to Glastonbury but in actual fact where I’ve been for the last 24 hours is more akin to a visit to in internal jumble sale…

Imagine if you will, a mishmash of information and subtle intuitions arriving en masse in no particular order and taking up residence inside your head. Now do you best to either ignore or make sense of it… that’s where I’ve been.

I decided to spend yesterday doing a combination of practical physical work as mundane as I could muster (like laundry) and intermittent meditation to return to Source and clear my thoughts. Each time I entered a meditative state though, being a channel, more information flooded in, each time, I touched clarity but upon my return, the jumble sale increased. Instead of returning from Avalon with an overflowing cup, I arrived home with an overflowing head!

Recapturing the inner peace offered by the Wholly Grail isn’t a hard task once you identify the essence of what’s wrong and for me a combination of two Principles have switched off the psychic bombardment in an instant and returned my equilibrium, grounding me and cleansing away the residue whilst allowing me to hold the information… Principle 2: I AM Detached requires absolute presence. You cannot be grounded in the present when you’re attempting to reconcile the past or anticipate the future, now is where it’s happening and I’m at home here in this place of instant manifestation. Principle 4: I AM Truth dictates the need for trust that there may be a dichotomy between what you feel to be correct for you and what another states as gospel, history or fact, and that dichotomy is natural and acceptable.

Nothing I learned on my travels matches the guidebooks, that’s ok. Nothing I felt on my travels matches the rumours, that’s ok too. Nothing I learned about myself in the process matches my expectations, that’s a confirmation that the class I taught prior to leaving, about expectation leading to disappointment was right on point, and that’s ok too… what I did learn was that the Grail Principles are far more profound than even I imagined and that I have something important to do… and I learned that the way I do it will not suit everyone… and that’s fine too.

If you have been enjoying The Wholly Grail free insights then please share them, give others an opportunity to make their own mind’s up. If you are seeing one of my posts for the first time then scroll back through the archives and also explore the basic Principles, find your way to that place of peace within you… you won’t find it out there, that’s the point in case you missed it… I did, and I will again, but I have 7 easy steps to find my way home… follow me, I know the way.

More later… x

 

That Place Where You Are Free

Where on the Grail path are you?

That’s a question that when asked, you may be tempted to list your spiritual accomplishments, many trainings, how many people you’ve helped and the number of certificates you’ve gained in the process. You may rank your distance travelled along the road by your income or your ability to live without one, these are all just comparables and comparing yourself to an outside standard actually means you are about as far from your destination as you can get.

It’s not a race, it’s not a competition, it’s the journey home.

When you’re asked where are you on your Grail path, the answer you’re looking for is “I’m home.”

Now you have to decide what coming home actually means for you. For me it’s peace, fulfilment, love, clarity, creativity, wonder and grace… an enlightened state of Open-Heartedness that can only be achieved when when both Principle 1: I AM God and Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted sit in unison. All the other Principles are guidelines to dismantle the blocks to embracing the first and the last. Coming home isn’t a long journey and in fact has nothing to do with distance. It’s a different path for each of us and there are a million external distractions to pull you from your quest, disorienting you and claiming to be the way home to the Grail but if it’s external its not home… I promise you it can’t be found out there. Sure you will catch a glimpse of it in the outside world, when you find momentary joy the Grail will appear, but it’s the joy that is home not the temporary trinket that you imagined brought that joy to you.

Home is that place where you are free and anything else is a poor imitation. Across these next few posts I’ll examine the 5 stages between God and your heart… the Principles that stand between you and home… between now and the next post though, your job is to examine what areas of your life you don’t feel free… let’s get serious about the quest this week.

More later… x

The Faraway Rumble

Grail Oracle 4Grail Oracle Red

Things are afoot that are creating a shade of uncertainty and you may not be able to put your finger on it.

The combination of Principle 4: I AM Truth with the intense red of the 3rd dimensional base chakra is posing the question of what makes you feel secure and whether you are about to compromise that security to follow another’s truth.

The Faraway Rumble is suggestive of an undercurrent of change to which you may feel that you have no real power to stop but by being passive you are actually complicit in allowing your home, whatever home means to you, to be determined by someone or something that has no real interest in your individual hopes, dreams and fears.

When I pulled this combination and began writing, my concentration was fixed on the personal implications of another human being arriving into your home with new ideas and intentions and upsetting the apple cart, but as I got further into the energy it became apparent that more globally and politically this energy is playing out as shifts in power and infrastructure are being negotiated with no real truth for us to make a discernable choice that has not been touched by hype and propaganda.

It’s not my forte to explore the political scene but I wanted to make you aware on both a personal and transpersonal level that just because that rumble still seems faraway doesn’t mean that it isn’t your home, your security, your life that will be directly affected by the oncoming tremor.

This week you will be met with a choice and this choice may have been on the horizon for some time but now you are confronted with a tangible countdown to change. The truth is not obvious, your truth I mean, simply because you do not have enough information to form a clear picture in your mind of what accepting this change will really mean for your future… don’t be fooled by the shiny promises of those who are selling you this new life, do your own research… explore deep within your being for your own truth. Take the time to address your own personal goblins so that you can choose from love and not fear. Remember that a Grail Knight is a hero not an idiot… the quest requires risking it all for love but even those risks need to be calculated.

Love asks what’s best for everyone and comes up with a beautiful compromise it doesn’t say “…you would if you loved me.”

The Faraway Rumble is heading in your direction, time to assess what really makes you feel secure.

More next week… x