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Fighting With The Fear Of Freedom

Years ago, weary and jaded by the corporate grind, downtrodden by the internal politics of the all-too-familiar company dynamic, unable to affect real change for myself or my employees even as a senior manager, I decided that the only logical course of action open to me that didn’t mean me collapsing into another cycle of blind apathy was to quit.

Scary shit man! I mean, walking away from the stability of a decent salary at the height of a countrywide recession when you have a mortgage to pay and no clue what to do next…

That was beginning of my placing my full trust in the universe to guide me, the start of my spiritual adventure and the unification of my everyday material life with my soul’s direction for me. I’m not going to tell you I wasn’t terrified about being income-less and dependant on my then husband’s meagre wage, but the truth was that the moment I walked out of the front door of that multi-million pound personal prison, the relief I felt melted away all the fear of lack and was replaced by sheer determination.

My first task was to decide where life was going to take me next…

That’s the crux of this story… I had to decide.

Freedom is the scariest place on Earth if you have spent your life following someone else’s rules, policies, timetables, agendas… basically towing the company line. For the first time you stand there and go: what do I do? Which way do I go? God, what is my purpose?

You are so used to having your life mapped out that you panic and latch on to the first guru that seems to have got it all together, or the family member or friend that says “do this,” or “do that.”

That very voice that had you break out of the gilded cage though, will rise up within you and scream “You lead the way. We fought for the right to choose our own path now don’t give it away!”

But you’re so used to being told what to do… and now you’re fighting with the fear of freedom. The fear stems from deep within where you have yet to understand the power of responsibility, that place where you only have yourself to blame… and once you understand that blame is a redundant emotion wrapped up in judgement and self-criticism, you can swap it out for self-appreciation that regardless of whether you succeed or lose, you took the reins of the chariot and began blazing a trail of your own into the wilds of who knows where…

And when you ask God what your purpose is, He simply smiles knowing that He didn’t have to say a word for you to find it… to find you… to find freedom the moment you decided to choose for yourself.

If you are completely lost for a direction to choose then try this affirmation instead of letting someone else choose:

“God bring me a multitude of exciting opportunities today that I may sample, and choose for myself whichever brings me passion.”

Principle 1, 3, 4, 5 and 6 (that’s a whole lot of Principles!)

More later… x

 

Saturday Oracle – To Stake A Claim

Ownership is at the forefront of The Intuitive Chalice Oracle’s combination for this week as Principle 5: I AM Liberated grabs a hold of the royal blue throat chakra…

But what exactly is ownership?

Traditionally when this Principle shows up its a warning against material attachments and the price you end up paying to maintain them, but ownership extends beyond “things.” What If ownership is more to do with vocalising who you are, what you want, and what your expectations are? What if ownership was about saying out loud: “This is me, this is who I am, this is all that there is… if you want it take it, if you don’t then stay the f**k out of my face because you need my permission to take a piece of me!”

Sounds aggressive I know but it’s actually a phrase that I first said aloud over 20 years ago when I realised who I AM is enough.

So what if this combination is the ultimate in owning who you are?

The energy of course has a flip side, in this case that would be someone else’s powerful words being used to stake a claim over you or anything that is yours. Not so comfortable a feeling, eh?

As this week moves ahead and we embrace the full moon energy in Libra, the sign of balance and fairness, sharing and relationships, it’s worth taking the time to assess what it is exactly that you are staking a claim to… if it’s your own power, divinity and creativity then you’re activating the positive energy available here, if however your words seek to enslave, entrap, belittle or in any way diminish another, then the negative traits of ownership are already beginning to take a hold… seek a win/win scenario in all your interactions.

You have the power now to be all you can be… own it.

You also have the power now to free others… if it isn’t yours, release it.

More next week… x

 

For Being Wild And Free

When I posted the oracle reading at the weekend for this week, you might remember a mere mention of St Patrick’s Day and the Fae Goddess Aine, sometimes associated with or as the Faerie Queen Dana. Legends vary about the queen of the faeries but one legend has it that St Patrick was revered for having banished the Tuatha De Danan (Children of Dana or little people) from Ireland. Aine, instead of actually leaving, simply raised her vibration and made herself and her kin folk invisible to avoid conflict. All this because Paddy and his fellow invaders feared the Tuatha for being wild and free. The Fae found a way to co-exist anyway.

Of course the validity of the stories are questionable and I’m not really worried about the source of a good yarn, perhaps spun by a leprechaun of Tuatha origin who had one too many pints of Guinness before planting a smackeroony on the Blarney Stone… The point is thus: some old geezer with a stilted idea of what is acceptable behaviour decided to demonize a whole race because he wasn’t prepared to learn more about what it means to allow everyone to breathe their own uniqueness.

Now in other legends, Aine’s sexuality is suppressed and even oppressed by an older man who wants to control her… The story is one of abuse and not at all pleasant so I won’t elaborate but all in all the moral is: conform, reform, perform… and do it by someone else’s rules and expectations or be punished/banished.

The Wholly Grail’s Principles 1 through 7 all have a universal clause, what this means is although each Principle begins with the words “I AM” it applies to all, so whilst I AM, YOU ARE too. The problems really kick in when you lose sight of the fact that “you are.” When you feel less than, it is human nature to try to diminish or disempower another in order to level the field or to feel better about one’s own inadequacies. In truth the only power you ever need is in abundant supply and readily available from Source. That wild and free, pure innocence of knowing whose child you actually are, to the untrained eye can look like rebellion, disruption, non-conformist, far-too-lairy-for-words, who-do-you-think-you-are, I’ll-pull-you-down-a-peg-or-two shenanigans and strikes  fear in those who wish to control it.

Now, as you watch or participate in this St Patrick’s Day festivities, count how many leprechauns and leprechaun hats you see… The Tuatha had the last laugh because they successfully integrated themselves into the long forgotten and rewritten story as the hero of the hour… Aine/Dana left a legacy of magic and luck that means when the world celebrates on March 17th, it has nothing to do with a mean fella banishing the Fae Folk from the Emerald Isle and everything to do with embracing the wild pure spirit (and the black stuff).

Just as I finished writing this, my faerie guide Harvey, (short for Harv ‘a Mo, because he’s always trying to get me to think before I act… ha!) funnily enough also a ginger bearded little Irish dude in a green top hat, started telling me a joke…. “Did you hear the one about the Irish Saint who thought he defeated the Faerie Goddess…”

What was I waffling on about?

More later… x

A Festival of Freedom – When Passion Returns

It’s easy to lose sight of the path when you get lost in the details.

After hitting a brick wall career-wise about 4 years ago and not really knowing which direction I wanted to go in, I set about analysing what caused me to crash into that wall in the first place. It was simple: I was so focused on the details of what I needed to achieve that I forgot what I loved doing and why I started doing it to begin with.

I stepped out of a personal and professional prison in 2008 to build myself a new one in 2009 until I unlocked the door and let myself out less than a year later and began to soar… then came the opportunity to expand and in the process I built myself yet another set of metaphorical walls that I did somersaults to maintain until the back end of 2012 when it almost broke me… 6 months after defining The Wholly Grail, my cup was empty and I knew it.

The process of stripping away the tendency to build walls has not been an easy one because along with it came the fear of building anything at all, so instead I subconsciously devised a little Cha cha cha that took me one step forward, two steps back, to the side, together, other side, together… begin again. My ego doing battle with my soul until I understood what it was I was truly trying to create… A Festival of Freedom!

I say a festival because what I truly want is to feel joyous, abundant, healthy, happy, fulfilled every single day. Life is supposed to be fun! But I was caught up in the details and what I needed to do to achieve them.

Today, I’m inspired by what happens when passion returns. What can be achieved when you embrace your true loves and inspirations, the things that make your soul sing. They never left, they were simply buried under a mountain of details and when you remember your gifts are deeply connected to your passions you come alive and the universe shows you the path again… the one without walls.

Four years of self-healing using the Grail makes me an expert and as an expert, I know how fragile it can be without vigilance and due diligence. Principle 2: I AM Detached is the way through the details and Principle 5: I AM Liberated dismantles the prisons. It’s my least mentioned Principle in written form because it’s my own greatest healing journey.

Due diligence means doing the work… if you would like to journey into Self and set yourself free with guidance from the expert then check out The Path of Petals training course here or book a Grail Consultation here.

Passionately yours

Jo x

Radical Departure

The door is open, but the window is closing… the window in which to make the change by stepping through the open door.

I know you feel it, that “better the devil you know” mantra undermining your sure footed progress in pursuit of a goal, dream or transformative leap of faith, and the pull of the ever cycling karmic wheel is holding your wrist and tugging you back from the threshold with fearful questions like “What if you fail?” “What if you fall?”

Being intuitive doesn’t mean you’re immune from the effects of the inner goblin always asking you if you’re about to make a mistake but just for the sake of an experiment today ask your inner goblin this little question: “how many times have we done it your way up until now?” See the thing about repeating patterns is that you lose count really quickly and the thing about your inner goblin is he or she always starts a sentence with “Ah, but…”

The opportunity ahead of you may be a completely radical departure from your usual way of moving through life but if the goblin is honest, which to be fair he/she is merely fearful not a liar, then you’ll both have to acknowledge that in terms of where you are, the old way wasn’t working…

Walking through that door, accepting that opportunity may mean leaving something familiar behind, but to truly live up to your potential you have to be prepared to reach further, higher with every step… to become more in each breath than you were when you last inhaled… and in order to inhale ‘now and next’ you must first exhale ‘then and done.’

From where you’re standing now it may look like a giant step, but from where you’ll be tomorrow it was merely the first baby step in an entirely new direction.

Principle 2: I AM Detached

More later… x

The Free Mind

Grail Oracle 5Grail Oracle Indigo

A shift in perspective has opened up a new line of abundance to you and you didn’t know it was so easy to be free…

Principle 5: I AM Liberated and the deep indigo of the 3rd eye chakra have joined forces this week to congratulate you on tapping into the universal law off attraction.

You have spent years worrying about how to make the next pay check or meet the mortgage payment and quite often to the detriment of your sleep patterns and health but the meeting of these energies is a sign that you have let go into the flow of abundance simply by accepting that everything you need is already yours.

The free mind is a mind that is open to possibilities and therefore open to opportunities. It isn’t swayed by promises of material wealth and instead pursues the gratification found only in being useful, creative and of divine service. You may be asking what that looks like… well there’s that old Chinese proverb again: chop wood, carry water… or effectively, focus only on the task at hand, immerse yourself fully into everything you do and look for the payoff in the joy of presence rather than the monetary return on interest.

Visionary thinking is building up your cosmic coffers because that’s not your primary goal. Whereas your past worry was focused on how to make ends meet, your current attitude is on how much fun your having achieving it, God obliges by offering up enough of everything you need to keep the party going.

It really is that simple this week: free your mind of the how, and start enjoying the now. Release all that isn’t necessary and let God take care of the details.

Just as a mini disclaimer though, now isn’t the time to be irresponsible with money, respect it and allow it to flow in and out as it needs to. It will come and it will go whilst you are engaged in enjoying the free things in life like friendship, laughter, singing, dancing…

Life is good.

More next week… x

Release The Butterfly

We humans are generally a ceremonial bunch, we like to mark occasions don’t we? Just think of all the “Days” we honour on the calendar: birthdays, high days, holidays, bank holidays, national days, international days… we mark open days, launch days, and we mark closing days… but they are all just days really.

On Saturday I posted an oracle reading that foretold of a birth, a new beginning that could take any shape or form and its to those new beginnings that we tend to latch on a significant day, like: “I’ll wait until New Year to make that change” for example.

Yesterday, a fairly insignificant day as far as I’m aware, certainly in my calendar anyway, was a day of significant change for me. No pomp and circumstance, no ceremony, no launch party, just me and the angels working together to bring about a brand new beginning for me… and I haven’t stopped smiling since yesterday morning. My new start was with regards to a healthier way of being in every area of my life: mind, body and soul working in unison to find the joy in every action. I should have known earlier in the week that this transition was imminent when a giant and very beautiful butterfly decided to take over the house and give me the dilemma of how to help it escape with minimum drama or damage… then yesterday I became the butterfly after spending the morning in meditation, fully connected to Source and receiving a vision of how it could be if I freed myself from everything that held me back but with minimum drama. I didn’t plan my own transformation, God did. I didn’t “launch” the new me or the new way, I was just spontaneously born anew from a new perspective and a new direction, my job now is to simply follow His lead moment to moment to sustain joy.

After taking last week off from posting, I’d like to say I took the week off altogether but actually it was my busiest week in a long time, I noticed that, having room for me was as simple as having room for God. Meditation is the single most healing, revealing, restoring action you can take in your journey toward creating the life you want… drop the drama today and release the butterfly within, a new you is possible in any moment of any day. Don’t wait for an occasion to start living the life you always dreamed of… now’s good.

Principles 1 & 2 in action.

More later… x

 

The Lifeboat

Grail Oracle 5Grail Oracle Red

This week’s free Intuitive Chalice Oracle combines Principle 5 of The Wholly Grail: I AM Liberated with the blood red energy of the base or root chakra and it looks set to be a make or break week in one fashion or another…

When Principle 5 makes an appearance it shows that we have become slaves to the things we worked so hard for, mix that with the base chakra and not only do we confirm the material nature of those things and the, perhaps false sense of security they provide, but also that the building pressure is causing real physical harm and maybe even illness.

The ship is sinking under the mountain of stuff… financial pressures, obligations, property, and even people that rely on you and though you may be attempting to bailout as fast as you can, one man, one bucket and an entire ocean liner doesn’t quite add up to smooth sailing.

The problem we see here is that you are looking in the wrong places to fix the problem… bringing in more stuff to supplement the bailout. In real terms this looks like working harder, hiring in more help, taking on more projects to increase revenue etc but that just compounds the issue and increases the load on an already overtaxed vessel… in this case you.

You can save yourself or you can try in vain to save the ship and effectively go down with it… saving yourself means adopting an attitude, NOT of “We’re gonna need a bigger boat,” but instead “We’re gonna need a smaller one.”

Apparently a captain always goes down with his ship… what a bloody numpty! Live to sail another day by taking only what you need and jumping in “The Lifeboat” unless of course the lifeboat was taking up valuable cargo space on the ship and in trying to save your whole overwhelming existence it became the very first casualty???

You are being faced with the very real opportunity to put your life back in balance this week… don’t blow it by opting for more stress and by the same token ensuring your personal prison becomes inescapable. Time for a full scale de-clutter of you priorities.

More next week… x

Trawl For Truth

Most of what you see before you today is a product of what you were thinking yesterday. The past has a powerful grip on your current state of being because it is in evidence all around you.

Have you reached a point in your life where you feel you can no longer continue along the same lines as before? Coming to deeply understand that the balance in your situation is heavily stacked towards apparent obligation rather than towards living, loving, giving, feeling, being free, is a  key moment in your timeline at which point you have the opportunity to switch from living life unconsciously to becoming wide awake, and now all you have to do ask “why?” Why do I do that? Is it because it’s what I’ve always done? Is it because someone told me I had to? Is it simply that I haven’t yet imagined a new way to be yet?

Personal history can be your greatest teacher or you can be its prisoner but the choice is entirely yours. If you can stop for just 5 minutes today and think: ” What would I be doing now if I had a choice and there were no limitations to my experience?” Whatever comes to mind, trawl for truth… truth feels right, it doesn’t jar against your emotional centre, it brings a smile, a feeling of joy from your inner core. Sit with this vision of your truth for just a few minutes, write it down, find a picture or representation of it and begin to grow the image in your mind and in your journal or on a dream board over time…

Once this image of what you really would like to do, be, feel and have has solidified in your mind and you can easily see it each day, go back to the question about your current state: “why?”

One subtle change today can be the inaugural step towards a different reality for tomorrow… make a change.

More later… x

The Fourth Hurdle – Unravelling Ownership

I really hope you’ve managed to catch the last few posts as they have been bridging the gap between you and a fully opened heart. We began by dispelling the time trap, looked at motives behind forgiveness and tested our need for approval, now let’s explore how material possessions entrap our daily focus.

‘Things’ are fun, aren’t they? Well aren’t they? They certainly should be, that’s why we have them, but what happens when they stop being fun?

It’d be fun to have a nice car, a big house, the latest mobile phone, an Italian designer suit… you list all the things it’d be fun to have if you like as a bit of an exercise, after all, we spend so much time these days talking about manifesting… the perfect job, the perfect partner, the perfect… nothing is perfect and in a universe built on balance everything has a positive and a negative attribute.

We are governed by the law of attraction sure, but we are also governed by the law of consequence or cause and effect… be sure you are willing to pay the toll for what it is that you want. Once it’s yours it’s also your responsibility.

Let’s take that perfect job for example… now you have it, can you do it? Can you put in the hours? Can you sacrifice the freedom? Can you sacrifice the family time?… now there’s a newcomer who shows promise and your position is threatened, what do you do, up the ante? Put in more hours? Compete? Are you trying to maintain your perfect job?… is it even your perfect job anymore?

We hold on for dear life to the things we worked hard for, put so much effort into and sacrificed to get but when is that sacrifice no longer in balance with the benefit?

Is it still a fun thing?

Investment is not the same as ownership. In this world, this life, you own nothing and you can take nothing with you into the next one so rather than own stuff that eventually owns you, your time, your energy, your focus, your resources, your health and your freedom, now is the perfect moment to start investing…

Invest in your health, your loved ones, your freedom and your fun and in the serving of humanity… everything else is a waste of your precious gifts. The fourth hurdle – unravelling ownership, once overcome, changes your perspective from greedy to gratitude and makes every ‘thing’ in the world shine brighter… you can taste it all as long as you’re willing to pay the ultimate price: everything you have, has a piece of you.

Principle 5: I AM Liberated.

More later… x