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For The Weekend – Learning The Art Of Forgiveness

I’ve travelled to hell and back over the course of this week. It was a most illuminating journey. Taking a small group through a higher ascension training last Sunday, I was allowed by spirit to see for the first time how many of the 7 gates I’d passed through (9 in some teachings), on the way to my own personal hell. And then shown how easily I could climb through the golden gates in the other direction by learning the art of forgiveness.

Principle 3: I AM Human, is the way home to redemption.

This is not a biblical dissemination of sinful behaviour, on the contrary, it’s about the pieces of ourselves that we trade for our vision of what will fill the emptiness we feel when disconnected from our own higher power. The gates include self-transgressions like loss of self-respect, self-worth, humiliation, degradation etc. and we rarely see the outward effects when we are mesmerized by the end goal… that thing that we want, in effect would never lead us into compromising our own integrity if it was ever actually worth having.

The first gate on the way to redemption is acceptance. Also the first step on the way to forgiveness. Acceptance is a state of surrender to what is… it’s the end of the slippery slope. Here you stop struggling and look into the mirror of your life, which is reflected in your surroundings and tangible so-called reality, but you take a look with humility and reverence. I say humility because you must claim ultimate responsibility, and reverence because although you may not enjoy what you see, the awesome power it took to build this reality is a power that flows through you… you have God within you and you can use it to create miracles too.

Now comes the hard part: turn your face to the heavens and away from what was leading you into hell. You may have been stripped naked little by little at every gate you passed through but God created you naked and as you realise that is where you are heading once again, He can wash you clean.

That did end up sounding quite biblical didn’t it?

Let me put it another way… you were born naked, screaming, shitting, pissing and puking and the world looked on and said “Ahhh how beautiful.” Consider this moment, no matter how much crap you appear to be covered in, to be another crack at the great game. Acceptance will lead you to responsibility, responsibility will guide you back to empowerment, empowerment to empathy, empathy to forgiveness and forgiveness will lead to liberation and to love.

Forgive yourself first, forgive those who opened the gates, forgive those who attempted to strip you naked and sully your innocent soul, forgive those who watched you fall, forgive those who laughed at your pain and then finally smile gently with compassion as you watch and wait for them to come to a place of acceptance that in order to open the gates they too had to be standing knee deep in the shit.

Help them out when they ask. That’s what the gates of heaven demand.

This weekend, ask yourself how many gates you’ve passed through? Meditate with the Sumarian Goddess Ishtar, she will help you do a fearless assessment of what you blindly gave up for your goal.

More later… x

Tiptoe On A Knife Edge

Balance is in full focus today as we arrive at the Spring Equinox (autumn if you’re in the Southern Hemisphere) that seemed to creep up on us whilst we were occupied with everything and nothing. One of two points in the calendar where the light and the darkness share precisely the same amount of moments and we pivot towards a new dominance. As we tiptoe on a knife edge seasonally, so too do we have an emotional choice to make… do we favour the darkness or the light.

The oracle combination I pulled at the weekend mirrored this shift from healthy exploration into potential addition and sets the scene for this post. Though it appears at first glance to have a sinister undertone it is in fact an invitation to understand that within you exists that point of perfect balance, liminal space, neither light nor dark, just sublime equilibrium, a pause between breaths, when you are neither one thing nor the other and power runs through you without resistance or hindrance… and then trust, faith, belief and innocence give way to fear on this knife edge… fear of falling.

When you fear something you create it.

Where you had balance you resorted to your conditioned state of believing that you needed something to maintain it, that someone might try to take it from you and you must protect it. And in that moment you veer to the left or to the right and the sharp line you were treading begins to wobble as you flail about trying to regain your centre but falling at this stage is inevitable… just as surely as tomorrow the light, the daylight hours will gain ground in the north and the darkness or night will take back dominion over the south.

It’s a subtle shift, a tilt you may not notice at first, but opposing forces must continue to circle around each other so that the elaborate game of life goes on.

Take time to honour and notice the shift within. Whatever state you are moving from or to emotionally, physically, intellectually, geographically… what ever area of your personal experience is evolving, observe, respect and bless this point of transition.

Take a moment today to assess where you’re at. Don’t panic, don’t struggle, balance will be restored naturally when you relax and trust that you are exactly where you need to be. Principle 2: I AM Detached will help you stay present with what is and Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted allows giving and receiving in equal measure… or in other words: perfect balance.

More later… x

Saturday Oracle – Too Much Of A Good Thing

Is it possible to have too much of a good thing?

After last week’s oracle encouraged us to embrace the wild side, this week’s combination seems a little concerned that we might just go from indulgence to over-indulgence to compulsive and addictive negative behaviours.

Principle 3: I AM Human teams up with the bright yellow solar plexus to bring us a bit of a dual message here: on the one hand there’s the addiction to potential self-abuse which I’ll come to in a moment and on the other, there’s the underlying reason for it… failed expectations.

The solar plexus is the seat of personal power and the house of the ego. When it takes a metaphorical beating it seeks to self-sooth and suppress that feeling. People take to all sorts of numbing techniques to achieve this from overeating, shopaholism, alcoholism and drug abuse to name but a few… what start out as a fun time, a treat or an indulgence, when taken to the extreme, become a dangerous spiral towards self-destruction.

As this week opens, so too do potential reminders of personal failure and disappointment that will, while you’re attempting to escape from or forget, have you racing towards the distractions, that you hope will fill the gaping hole that seems to be forming in the pit of your stomach.

There is a way back to balance and it begins with recognising your patterns. Principle 3: I AM Human, is a key reminder of the need for forgiveness, first and foremost of self. When you acknowledge that you are human and therefore perfectly imperfect, you give yourself permission to let go of the self punishment. Forgiveness is not an ideal its a healing aspect of grace, but it takes the courage to first admit that some things are out of your control… like the past… like the future… There is a much bigger energy at play than the human aspect of each of us as individuals and when we bow to this Higher Power, admit to the pain we’ve been until now trying to numb and allow this all encompassing energy fully into our lives, Spirit fills the spaces with pure light and love and there is nothing left to try to fill….

This is the true meaning of an overflowing cup… (not the one you filled with calories or worse as a substitute).

Let God in.

More next week… x

Saturday Oracle – A Glance Back Towards Yesterday

Principle 4: I AM Truth is standing on the precipice of the vibrant orange sacral chakra this week asking for you to reclaim your integrity within a close relationship or following the end of one as you’re guided to take a glance back towards yesterday.

I wasn’t surprised by this combination as my vague knowledge of astrology is very aware that Venus is turning retrograde around now and being the planet of love, desire, passion, relationships, intimacy and connecting, all the things associated with the sacral chakra they in a highlighted position at present. The idea that the celestial love goddess appears in the sky to be travelling backwards doesn’t invite you to go backwards as such but instead to review and reflect with a view to heal. But that’s enough astrology, let’s get back to the Principle in question…

I AM Truth. What the heck does that mean?

Inside you, at a deep level you have access to your own truth. Some of us have buried it under blame, projection, deflection, ego, anger and a few other useless emotions and tactics that help us to avoid taking responsibility for where we are and how we got here.

Something valuable, I’d go as far as to say beautiful, has been lost because the truth was painful. Owning your truth even if it’s potentially going to be scorned upon by others is sign that your Grail and your self-esteem are intact. The opinions of others are just that, and though it may be true for them it doesn’t have to be so for you. Your actions have had consequences and you’ve cast aside the opportunity for unity, connection, intimacy, friendship, co-creation and commitment, even family because your pride had you lashing out to protect your reputation… underneath all the bluster you knew what was true but you chose to destroy something, someone. It may not be as dramatic as that… you’ll know when you glance back with compassion, for yourself if for nobody else.

This week’s energy flow has potential. I said at the beginning that this Principle is standing on a precipice, does that mean you can fix it? Retrograde Venus is hoping you will learn from it for sure but the other party has drawn a line and you have no way of crossing it now. A negative aspect of Principle 4 is that communication is all but blocked so attempting to rescue the remains of what’s been lost is damn near impossible. But this reading is about learning so that you can apply truth to all your dealings. Understanding how to open yourself up to emotional intimacy is about understanding that in vulnerability lies strength. The most magical relationship is the one in which there is no blame, where honesty is a given not a currency to be traded and where the more ammunition you give your loved one the more bullets they have to protect your love with instead of loading the gun and firing it at you.

Now then, since the new moon last week, we have entered a portal in which the end of a karmic cycle occurs. It remains open, like the precipice, until the full moon on the 12th March. I suggest you take a leap of faith, dive into the orange abyss and retrieve you… that way when the next potential love affair enters your orbit, all of you, your entire being will be ready to enter the arena and surrender to another human being who is ready to surrender to you.

Right I’m off to celebrate and eat cake with my lovely mum who is 80 years young today!

More next week… x

Experiencing An Internal Revolution

Everybody deals with emotional trauma in a different way. My immune system shuts down and become susceptible to illness… but it’s not my permanent or preferred place of residence.

I wanted to take this opportunity to guide you through healing from experiencing an internal revolution, that on the surface at least, can manifest as physical health issues.

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full is the way back to vitality whenever your health is compromised physically, emotionally or even spiritually and begins with a very basic premise: “me first.”

Untie all the commitments, promises, deadlines, self-imposed pressures and superfluous tasks and get busy with what’s really important… healing. Feeling better. Nurturing your mind, body and spirit on every level.

Start with rest, complete rest. It doesn’t mean you have to take to your bed, rest can be simply snuggling by the fire with a good book, relaxing in a bubble bath or such like. Next comes nourishment. Healing from the inside out means feeding your body healing foods, foods filled with life force that are fresh and pure. Don’t forget the life giving elixir that is clean water either, your vital organs need to detox from the flood of poisons that brought you to this state.

Now you must purify what is feeding your mind. The external world can be detrimental to the sensitive empath when your system is overloaded so now is the perfect opportunity to detox your information intake: If at all possible you should unplug from the digital hive mind altogether and instead read an uplifting book or two. Doing a digital detox can also be effective if you de-clutter your feeds and bookmarks, for example you might unsubscribe from anything and anyone that causes you more stress, unfollow and unfriend any negative influences and choose new ones whose inspiration supports your healing path.

Then you need to be honest with those around you. Principle 4: I AM Truth is a powerful reclamation of Self. Just by stating “this is where I am and this is what I need” can go a long way towards releasing what’s draining you… you don’t always have to be the one with the answers, you don’t have to be the glue that holds society together… doesn’t it already feel so much better knowing that the only thing that you have to fix right now is you?

And now stretch… Yoga, Pilates, something gentle. A walk (when you’re ready) and then breathe… reconnect with nature, even if it’s just pottering in the garden. And create, be it art, music, poetry, baking a masterpiece… maybe even a vision board of your most beautiful dream, we all need to express our creative inner muse, so do that too.

Whatever you need to do to come back to you, that’s your only job to survive the alchemical side effects of the revolution as you recuperate and prepare for the next leg of the quest. That’s where I’m at.

More later… x

N.B. Always consult your GP/Physician with regards to any health concerns you may have.

Saturday Oracle – The Welcome Mat

Dealing with emotional pain is a very personal journey and there are no real rules on how to protect yourself from further assail, but there are common markers along the road to healing.

This week’s combination, bringing together a matching energetic set: Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted and the emerald green of the heart chakra, are highlighting a part of that process that is crucial to your forward journey.

You are being asked, as we step into a week containing a powerful new moon and a solar eclipse, to look at the walls you have furnished around your emotional centre as a result of recent tribulations and more poignantly, how those walls may affect new relationships.

Self-preservation is a serious business and hardwired into human circuitry, meaning any and all risks that follow pain, that may result in more of the same, are understandably cut off at the pass. The wounded heart certainly doesn’t roll out the welcome mat to would be assailants…

…But you’re being warned this week that you are seeing threats where there are friends and allies, and in searching for safe haven you may be creating a prison or isolation you won’t want to remain inside for long.

Love is being offered to you in more than one form in the days ahead. Do not be tempted to lock out the very thing you need because having been a victim of another’s character flaws forces you to become a victim of your own.

I AM Open-Hearted is the Principle of the true Grail Knight, the true hero who lets love be the guiding light in all interactions. You are being called to step into the light of absolute faith, trust and surrender to the highest power of all… nobody will blame you for being cautious, that’s your right, but you have the power within you to win. Nobody can put out your light, that is the Divine shining through you and it is inextinguishable.

New life is knocking at your door, the door to your heart… open up and give it a chance to prove it is worthy of touching heaven, because that what lives inside your love. Heaven.

More next week… x