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For The Weekend – Learning The Art Of Forgiveness

I’ve travelled to hell and back over the course of this week. It was a most illuminating journey. Taking a small group through a higher ascension training last Sunday, I was allowed by spirit to see for the first time how many of the 7 gates I’d passed through (9 in some teachings), on the way to my own personal hell. And then shown how easily I could climb through the golden gates in the other direction by learning the art of forgiveness.

Principle 3: I AM Human, is the way home to redemption.

This is not a biblical dissemination of sinful behaviour, on the contrary, it’s about the pieces of ourselves that we trade for our vision of what will fill the emptiness we feel when disconnected from our own higher power. The gates include self-transgressions like loss of self-respect, self-worth, humiliation, degradation etc. and we rarely see the outward effects when we are mesmerized by the end goal… that thing that we want, in effect would never lead us into compromising our own integrity if it was ever actually worth having.

The first gate on the way to redemption is acceptance. Also the first step on the way to forgiveness. Acceptance is a state of surrender to what is… it’s the end of the slippery slope. Here you stop struggling and look into the mirror of your life, which is reflected in your surroundings and tangible so-called reality, but you take a look with humility and reverence. I say humility because you must claim ultimate responsibility, and reverence because although you may not enjoy what you see, the awesome power it took to build this reality is a power that flows through you… you have God within you and you can use it to create miracles too.

Now comes the hard part: turn your face to the heavens and away from what was leading you into hell. You may have been stripped naked little by little at every gate you passed through but God created you naked and as you realise that is where you are heading once again, He can wash you clean.

That did end up sounding quite biblical didn’t it?

Let me put it another way… you were born naked, screaming, shitting, pissing and puking and the world looked on and said “Ahhh how beautiful.” Consider this moment, no matter how much crap you appear to be covered in, to be another crack at the great game. Acceptance will lead you to responsibility, responsibility will guide you back to empowerment, empowerment to empathy, empathy to forgiveness and forgiveness will lead to liberation and to love.

Forgive yourself first, forgive those who opened the gates, forgive those who attempted to strip you naked and sully your innocent soul, forgive those who watched you fall, forgive those who laughed at your pain and then finally smile gently with compassion as you watch and wait for them to come to a place of acceptance that in order to open the gates they too had to be standing knee deep in the shit.

Help them out when they ask. That’s what the gates of heaven demand.

This weekend, ask yourself how many gates you’ve passed through? Meditate with the Sumarian Goddess Ishtar, she will help you do a fearless assessment of what you blindly gave up for your goal.

More later… x

The Silencer

Grail Oracle 3Grail Oracle Green

This week sees the meeting of the heart and the mind as you begin to recognise the power of your own feelings. They need to be heard and to be acknowledged, not by others but by you.

A combination of Principle 3: I AM Human with the emerald green of the heart chakra is highlighting your habit of suppressing your deepest emotions and the need to forgive yourself for not listening to what is buried so deep within your being.

The Silencer is a survival instinct that has been overruling your needs without you even noticing and has done so for so long that you don’t even know he or she exists. Don’t look out outside yourself for this person or entity (though when this combination arrives its possible that someone else is doing it to you also), instead look to where you deny your emotions simply by dismissing them as nonsense.

Have you ever been told “Don’t be silly” for allowing your feelings to show? How many times do you say that to yourself?

The Silencer started out life as your ally, protecting you from ridicule or unwanted attention but over many years has become your internal abuser and is now being called out…

This week, first you must listen without judgement to your thoughts and feelings, secondly you must listen to your immediate knee-jerk internal reactions knowing that the voice you hear is The Silencer… your final job is to forgive yourself for all the times you’ve been disrespectful of your own heart and now begin to truly hear, fully feel and start living, loving and laughing again.

More next week… x