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First Monday Challenge – Revealing The Master Illusionist

After a lot of consideration I decided to follow this train of thought to see where it led me. Being the first Monday of the month, shying away from whatever is challenging is against my self-declared process and so we must be prepared to dive deep down the rabbit hole in search of our own answers and face head on what scares us the most. In my case that would be in revealing the master illusionist.

First let us understand the illusion a little better…

Someone has led you back to the point where you fall asleep and forget that you’ve been here before. I don’t mean in the reincarnation sense of having lived a physical life in a different time in a different body, though that would demonstrate this cycle on a lager scale, I mean you are going around and around with something, never really moving forward but instead being lulled into believing you are making progress when really you are being controlled, manipulated, placated. Like placing a dummy (pacifier) into the mouth of a crying baby and whispering “there there,” as the child settles and sleeps believing, at least temporarily, that the very thing that made them cry has been solved.

The master illusionist is a comforter and the means’ by which he or she comforts are mere distractions from that which would bring permanent relief and escape from the repetition of pain and peace…

Addiction is an easy hook by which to control. The promise of the substance provides a lure, the provision of a small sample of the craved for poison buys the illusionist time… is it a drug, alcohol, food, videogames, sex and romance, shopping? That temporary relief provides the “Ah yes, this time I will have what I want and this feeling I have now is proof that it’s on its way.” And now you’re asleep once more. You’ve forgotten that you’ve had a taste of this so-called proof before and you’ve forgotten that however many times you’ve repeated “it will be different this time,” here you are again.

Revealing the master illusionist is simple: who benefits from keeping you in denial of your true situation? Who now has perceived limitations as an excuse for stilted expansion? Who has created an infrastructure set up to withhold connection and intimacy? Who has ensured nobody has expectations of them that cannot be fulfilled thus negating the chance of failure, rejection and ridicule?

There will always be mirrors of the illusionist, others sent to highlight the original, those who have identified the strings, bonds and chains. They will, offer samples of the things you crave, take advantage of the devoted clientele you provide, but the true face of the master illusionist is the one that seeks out a new source of poison when a vendor dries up, the one that finds replacement numbing agents to lull you back to sleep when the pain of being awake gets to unbearable. The master illusionist will always be YOU… and the illusion will always be that you are helpless to help yourself. Only the poison changes form and whatever form it takes you convince yourself it holds all the power.

Today’s challenge is to stay awake, even if you partake of your own particular poison, do so with your eyes wide open and acknowledge the decision consciously.

At every moment through today and this week when you choose to indulge in distraction or addiction, repeat the words “I know what I’m doing and I’m choosing to do it anyway… at least until I find a permanent solution and my freedom no longer frightens me.”

Principles 3 & 5. Later this week I might go deeper into why we fear freedom.. but for now…stay awake.

More later… x

After The Storm

I love the smell of the air immediately after the storm. Everything is more alive, more vibrant, washed clean by the rain and in full colour. It’s a time when, as a child I would take off my shoes and walk along the York stone paving with bare feet just so I could feel the wet, cool, solid foundation reminding me that this moment counts.

This moment counts.

What you do with it is your choice. It could be life changing, life affirming or it could pass by as a simple moment of acknowledgment of all that there is… you don’t have to do anything of course, you can go on with your daily rounds without looking up, without truly, fully breathing in, and without a clue that the moment is passing you by.

Having selected Principle 6: I AM Self-Full as the lead card in Saturday’s Intuitive Chalice Oracle, I’m mindful of the focus energy this week on doing what’s right for you and doing it slowly and with purpose. It’s being compounded by the gentle new moon in Taurus arriving in the early hours of Wednesday morning (about 01:16am UK time). The emphasis for me is about focus: all or nothing, this and only this… It may seem like limiting choices and expression of variety but for now at least, that way lies scattered thinking and dispersed intentions. I am my primary focus. My needs are paramount.

The storm has passed and it’s time to ponder the emergence of fresh perspective and tend to the fundamentals like health, home and happiness.

Whatever storms you have been facing have blown away the cobwebs and the chaos has transformed into a fertile landscape for planting new seeds. Some of those seeds you rescued from what went before, some you have dreamed anew but the only thing that matters now are the dreams you’ve dreamed for you.

Take off your shoes, put your feet on the ground, breathe, smile… and draw the moment inward until it fills you.

Happy Monday… x

 

Saturday Oracle – Wearing Shadow Shackles

It’s all in the mind.

As you wander, almost furiously into this week, searching for an escape from the restrictions imposed upon you by your own confusion, there’s a danger of becoming further enmeshed in the internal drama.

When Principle 5: I AM Liberated meets the inky brow chakra then you are wearing shadow shackles that have no real substance except in your imagination which has cornered you with your own fear.

This is a powerful week, combining a new moon and the Chinese New Year and you are putting yourself under immense pressure to do something, anything in fact, but the urgency is an illusion and you would do well to ride out the storm happening inside your head and wait for new information to arrive.

Don’t be rushed into taking premature action that you might regret later and moreover, if you are waiting for someone else to act first then give them more time… you have no idea what they are dealing with and you know they will come through for you in the end.

Principle 5 is grounded in the material and the physical things that appear to keep us trapped, but this is a precarious transition where you are quite likely to throw the baby out with the bath water in an effort to free yourself from what was actually nothing more than your faulty perception.

Time out folks, rest, relax… take a vacation if it’s possible but most of all go within and contemplate what constitutes true freedom before you sell off the family silver or walk away from your hard won career.

Ask for help from someone you trust who isn’t invested in the outcome to help you get clarity… and give the rest to God. He’s got a handle on the whole theatrical set up and will dispatch angels to show you the way the minute you stop playing the impending disaster movie inside your visual cortex and surrender… you’re ok, it’s all in the mind.

More next week… x

 

Saturday Oracle – Happy Place

Grail Oracle 6Grail Oracle Yellow

This week’s oracle sees the union of Principle 6 with the bright yellow of the solar plexus chakra.

It’s hard to find your way back from fear but that’s exactly what this week is bringing for you, though don’t be fooled into thinking that it won’t take work on your part. Recently you have found yourself dealing with one hard knock after another and at such times it’s easy to give into pessimism and negativity but like attracts like and kindling your inner magical child, the one who believes anything is possible will help you to take the first step into the slipstream back to your happy place.

The oracle is not portraying so much a time of celebration coming to you, more that you should consciously search for things to celebrate thus transforming fear into bliss. This week is an opportune time to break out of the everyday routine and find something fun to do. The idea of Self-Full Living is to reconnect with your own needs and make sure you do something, however simple to fulfil them. Socialise with friends, play, sing, and even surround yourself with the colour yellow to boost your natural sunny disposition.

I should also mention that when Principle 6 shows up its important to look at your physical health and where you might be in need of reconnecting with your body. As the solar plexus is primarily centred around your stomach, I want to draw your attention to your diet and eating habits… have you been comfort eating through a stressful period? Now is a good time to switch to a more life affirming, nutritious repertoire and be conscious of putting only health enhancing foods in your mouth… it may be too soon for a full on detox as the storm has not yet completely past but you can make a good start so that you don’t create a new set of issues to deal with.

So then: clean food, fun, optimism on purpose and an intention to find your way back to you.

You are worth the effort… I know this because an angel told me so.

More next week… x

Where The Magic Happens

The path is created step by step, moment by moment each time you make a choice… and trust me you make a million choices, consciously or unconsciously across the space of any 24 hours, from what to wear to what to drink, to how to comb your hair or whether today is a good day to change you life entirely. Even adjusting your position microscopically to feel more comfortable is a choice but we often just do it as it comes naturally… something coming naturally is easily trained out when you activate a mindful approach to decision making…

Let’s take the consistent complainer for instance. Quite often they have no concept that their attitude is a negative one or indeed that they are sharing it, just as you may not have noticed that you just altered your posture because your neck was aching from looking down at the device you’re currently reading this from. Chances are they have fallen into the habitual state of acting without thinking first, of allowing conditioning and programming to take over and automatically fill in the blanks when it comes to making choices…

But right here, in this moment, that’s where the magic happens, right here you have a choice…

Before you act, think about the ramifications of your next move… this is not meant to cripple you into inaction, it’s purpose is to put you fully in control of your own life, knowing that the outcome, whether positive or negative is one that you have crafted. When you choose from an unconscious pattern of choice making you get to the end product and ask “why does this always happen to me?” Just because you weren’t paying attention to the decisions you were making doesn’t mean you weren’t making them, so think…

The first job is to recognise that you actually have a choice in front of you… if you are the serial complainer maybe you can start by counting how many complaints you utter during one solitary conversation (it’s just to raise your awareness that its happening). Next ask yourself a single question: “How can I see this situation differently?” What about venturing further by asking: “What would change in my life if I saw it differently?”

Sounds like it might take some time to get retrained but when you realise how much time you wasted walking the path completely asleep and unaware of the creative power you hold, seems like a short term trade off to me.

So, here where the magic happens, what’s it going to be? Choose wisely.

Principles 1 and 2: I AM God and I AM Detached.

More later… x