Tag Archives: Choices

The Most Significant Other

Directly ahead of you is a gateway. Story has it this ancient portal is enchanted and all who cross the threshold shall be changed forever. None that cross have ever returned, so then nobody can verify the truth of this faerie tale…

You have options now: the magical doorway to who knows where or, the path back from whence you came. One thing’s for certain, you may only remain here in this place between places for a short amount of time… time is a mysterious creature whom it would appear is eating up the path behind you as history disappears into myth and legend and as the monster eats, so too do your options slide into an irrevocable darkness that will continue to exist only within the recesses of your mind and memory.

It glows ahead of you, this slice through the fabric of reality, offering enticement to the uninitiated, promises of gold and fame, love and adoration, a path where all lack is left behind in the other dimension… this one, the one from which you have not yet dared step, but beware, beyond this gateway, secrets become realities and those daydreams of reward are merely that… or are they?

And the monster that is time is fast approaching. Will you, won’t you, step through the doorway of promises and dreams?

All who pass here must do so unarmed, naked and vulnerable, for this is a gateway of the soul, an initiation to burn away the lower heavy nature of the ego, of fear and of fight… only love shall pass this floral framed temporal aperture into a new day, beyond the dark moon, beyond the dark night…

What waits beyond the threshold? Step through with certainty that to pass through to the other side is to meet the most significant other that shall ever grace your path… for who you shall become awaits beyond the glow of tomorrow and I for one would love to meet her…

More later… x

Take Care of The Scary Bits

So much has changed. Where you were a year ago is so very different from where you are now even if the geographical location is the same… life isn’t static, every choice you make dredges up a whole new raft of circumstances and inevitably even more choices to the point where nothing of the old life remains except as a memory.

All that being said, now is a good time for re-evaluation. You had a goal and recently I spoke of that goal being brought back to the forefront of your mind in order that you might take another crack at it… but is it still appropriate?

Perhaps the destination is but you are so far off the beaten track that another route would be preferable? A bit like when you take a wrong turn and your sat nav recalculates, sometimes it guides you back to the original route plan and sometimes it aborts that one and finds another. You have to decide on that now… but which is it to be?

A true Grail Knight has to weigh up the pros and cons of the journey to be undertaken, but here’s the thing: trajectory is calculated from where you’ve been not where you’re going, simply because we have no real idea what the future holds. This is where history plays its part and the only legitimate time that you can wander outside of the present without allowing yourself to become entangled in a place you don’t belong anymore… the past. It holds the key to unlock the door to your future, but how?

Looking back objectively you can discern patterns of success and of failure, joy and pain and you can also see what skills, talents and Principles you applied (or failed to apply) in each case. More importantly you can see where your decisions were fuelled by love or by fear. Using this strategy you then create a journey planner towards the intended outcome including the most soul enhancing choices and leaving room for divine intervention every step of the way.

My new life direction was chosen by applying love to areas where I had previously allowed fear to dictate my course and by letting God take care of the scary bits. It’s become a proper adventure!

Wishing you a day of life affirming journey planning, may it be guided always by love.

More later… x

An Invocation for Grace and Mercy

I’ve been working with angelic help for years now, but I’m not the most obedient student! Although I endeavour to serve as the Divine wishes, bearing in mind that we are the Divine and so in effect the angels are always guiding us towards our own wishes or at least the highest version of them, if I can’t see or imagine or indeed understand the path I’m on then it’s my tendency to dig my heels right in and rebel.

Trust is the ability to let someone or something else lead and in order to be a follower you either have to be completely asleep or you have to be awake enough to trust that giving up control is the easiest and fastest way to get where you want to be… yes that’s a contradiction and yes that’s the dilemma.

What if the angels, messengers of God, were asking you to give up control to another fallible human being because somehow your fate was wrapped up in theirs and at this point along the journey your desired outcome was dependent upon allowing them to take the lead, could you? Would you?

In a much broader sense we are doing that at every moment of every day, we allow others to make our laws, uphold them, govern our societies etc… these are all about giving up control on a slightly less personal but still relevant scale, but what I’m attempting to address here is a much more intimate and individual type of leader/follower relationship and it messes with your head in Grail terms because it’s a fine balancing act… that masculine/feminine dynamic.

I’ve come to a crossroads where the angels have recognised after hearing many an invocation for grace and mercy from me that I’m finding this part of the mission excruciating and that the cost feels too high… enter Archangel Samael, without whom free will (or at least the appearance of it) would not be available to us. Light without shadow  affords us only one choice and to embrace my whole self I must learn to dance in the shadows whilst I choose the light… poetic eh? Practically speaking it means I AM Human (Principle 3) and therefore have limits to what I can tolerate.

Archangel Samael has been working with me since last Thursday helping me to review my choices and even to get a clearer picture of where I’m trying to make choices where no real choice exists. It’s an exhausting process when you’re attached to an outcome, highlighting my need to immerse myself into  further study of Principle 2: I AM Detached.

Here’s the thing: We serve The Divine; we are The Divine, we therefore serve our own highest good. Good.

We choose the outcome and The Divine moves us towards that intention (Divine this time meaning us and including the entire universe)… Free will then consists of one question and one question only: do you want what you say you want? Because if you do, this is what it’s going to take to get it.

Let me rephrase the last question… do you want it enough? Me? I don’t know… hence the crossroads. I’ll let you know what I decide (when and if I decide). There are gentler angelic helpers if you want to undertake a similar examination of your direction but Samael deals with shifting a stubborn black and white mindset. He’s not your average fluffy winged being.

I’ll be back with some more insights from the path on Monday but in the meantime look out for the free group oracle reading on Saturday… x