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Friday Confession – No Longer Hiding The Source Of All Light

Is Friday a good day for a confession? Well ready or not, here I come. The truth, as it is for me, cannot remain suppressed. I’m no longer hiding the source of all light.

I’ve previously been holding back on some of my posts simply to avoid upsetting someone. Knowing that my words can trigger insecurities in those with whom I have a close or karmic connection, and avoiding conflict as best I can by occasionally pussyfooting around issues that might be deemed contentious or taken personally, misread or deliberately twisted to mean something else…

How many of you do that? How many of you dim your light, lower your voice, stay hidden, just so you won’t rock a boat that you are actually being held to ransom in? (That’s a metaphor obviously).

Principle 2: I AM Detached is the part of the Grail that I find often trips up all who begin the journey consciously. At its core it refers to unhitching your attention from a specific outcome, whether that be a repeat of what’s gone before or a desired future destination doesn’t actually matter, when you specify how you want things to turn out you manipulate the path towards it.

By withholding a part of who you are, effectively dimming your sparkling essence, you are manipulating how people see you. Sometimes it’s to protect them from their own shortcomings but more accurately it’s to protect you, either from your own fear, or deeper than that, your fear that their shortcomings and therefore reactions to who you truly are might cause them to dislike you, ridicule you, argue with you, get angry at you or abandon you.

This is where Principle 4: I AM Truth kicks in. They have to do what they have to do. They will always act or react from their own truth however different from yours that may be. Once you have let go of your attachment to the outer goal though, their reaction no longer holds any sway over you. That’s not to say you want to deliberately hurt anyone or offend anyone. If causing harm is your intent then you’re reading the wrong blog. What it does mean though is that you no longer have to continue trading your comfort for someone else’s.

And now we arrive at Principle 3: I AM Human. The art of forgiveness begins with the recognition of a fragile being. That’s what an ego is, it’s a child in pain doing its best to protect itself from the world it perceives as a harsh environment in which it has to fight for it’s own place in existence. The ego, when it feels attacked, slighted or unheard, loses sight of the Soul parent to which its bound and has no concept of how to truly protect itself in a peaceful manner so then it must fight to stay alive, to take power away from its perceived threat… it has forgotten that it has access to the power of the universe through its Soul-Self and will therefore usurp the light from wherever it shines externally… The ego sees only through physical eyes and cannot observe anything through the eyes of the heart. You must love the child despite its attack on you, only love can save it, anger reinforces the cycle of fear.

You are the source of all light. God shines through you (each and every one of you), but His frequencies change and become unique with you as a filter. Not everyone will be attracted to your light frequency (your truth). Some will be repelled by it, others will attempt to reconcile the difference by changing their frequency to harmonise, whilst others still, will try to force yours to match theirs… but the rainbow of truth that is humanity, it’s diversity, is the whole truth. From God’s eye view the pattern is perfection.

Now, to those who love me but would have me fit their mould I say this…

When we arrive at Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, we will have adopted an attitude of balance where we can truly see the beauty in all the light frequencies that blend and dance in a constant exchange of give and take. We will begin to learn from each other instead of taking from each other, we will begin to cherish the exposure to a beautiful array of fresh new ideas that compliment and contrast causing co-creation and eventually a brand new truth, a blended truth that has a frequency all of its own, it has a name…

It’s called love.

More later…x

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First Monday Of The Month Challenge – Believing In Fairy Tales

Is it really April? Theses first Monday of the month challenge days seem to come along thick and fast and I’m wondering where the year is disappearing to?

Following on from the weekend’s oracle, I wanted to broach the subject of make believe and come at it from a slightly less pragmatic angle. No sooner had I posted the oracle on Saturday about distinguishing fact from fantasy and getting yourself firmly grounded in the real world, getting yourself out of denial if you like, than the universe began encouraging me to do exactly the opposite!

I was reminded of a long lost dream I had as a teenager and invited to dream the dream anew in a more updated and creative way, bringing my imagination into the real world to see if I’d like to transform the fantasy into a reality now, or if I’d like to put it back in the box among the other lost or wasted wishes… The same evening I was transported into the world of a Disney princess as I, (popcorn in hand), was subjected to a friend singing the entire soundtrack through Beauty and the Beast at the cinema… and the two of us completely accepting the normality of a talking teapot and chipped cup (because obviously that happens every day)!

All this got me thinking about the magic of believing in fairy tales, and how Principle 7 of The Wholly Grail asks that we stay open-hearted… having experienced this transformation on April Fool’s Day only added to the magic when you begin to understand that the story of the fool in tarot, is the story of innocence, an open heart and a belief in magic.

So my challenge for you today is this: as you keep one foot in the real world, doing the things that you must, taking care of business and honouring your mundane responsibilities, I challenge you to see through to the unseen world and find your own magic. A dream today might become tomorrow’s reality with a little planning, hard work and a sprinkling of fairy dust… just don’t lose sight of which world you’re in!

Right I’m off to dispense some daughterly duties doing household chores for mum, (and I have just enough imagination and belief in fairy tales left to conjure a few of Snow White’s bluebirds to help me along).

More later… x

Tiptoe On A Knife Edge

Balance is in full focus today as we arrive at the Spring Equinox (autumn if you’re in the Southern Hemisphere) that seemed to creep up on us whilst we were occupied with everything and nothing. One of two points in the calendar where the light and the darkness share precisely the same amount of moments and we pivot towards a new dominance. As we tiptoe on a knife edge seasonally, so too do we have an emotional choice to make… do we favour the darkness or the light.

The oracle combination I pulled at the weekend mirrored this shift from healthy exploration into potential addition and sets the scene for this post. Though it appears at first glance to have a sinister undertone it is in fact an invitation to understand that within you exists that point of perfect balance, liminal space, neither light nor dark, just sublime equilibrium, a pause between breaths, when you are neither one thing nor the other and power runs through you without resistance or hindrance… and then trust, faith, belief and innocence give way to fear on this knife edge… fear of falling.

When you fear something you create it.

Where you had balance you resorted to your conditioned state of believing that you needed something to maintain it, that someone might try to take it from you and you must protect it. And in that moment you veer to the left or to the right and the sharp line you were treading begins to wobble as you flail about trying to regain your centre but falling at this stage is inevitable… just as surely as tomorrow the light, the daylight hours will gain ground in the north and the darkness or night will take back dominion over the south.

It’s a subtle shift, a tilt you may not notice at first, but opposing forces must continue to circle around each other so that the elaborate game of life goes on.

Take time to honour and notice the shift within. Whatever state you are moving from or to emotionally, physically, intellectually, geographically… what ever area of your personal experience is evolving, observe, respect and bless this point of transition.

Take a moment today to assess where you’re at. Don’t panic, don’t struggle, balance will be restored naturally when you relax and trust that you are exactly where you need to be. Principle 2: I AM Detached will help you stay present with what is and Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted allows giving and receiving in equal measure… or in other words: perfect balance.

More later… x

Knowing When To Let Life Happen

Emotion and personal conviction often compel us to act, sometimes on instinct, without thought or care for the potential consequences. That becomes more profound when survival is at the heart of the action required, be it our own or that of someone you either love or feel particularly protective of such as an infant, the infirm, or elderly.

Being able to stand back and understand the bigger picture is a real skill when such a compulsion takes over.

Why would you want to stand back in such circumstances?

Taking a moment to think about how your behaviour will impact someone else’s life and giving your higher perspective time to override your ego is never going to be easy in a drama-rich event but unless it’s life or death, and I mean that literally, you could actually be doing more harm than good by interfering.

Knowing when to let life happen can often be the most empowering thing you can do for another human being. It allows them to reach outside their own comfort zone and achieve new heights in their own evolution… like when a child first falls off a bike. They get hurt sure, it’s heart-wrenching, yep, but they also have a new found understanding of how not to do it and they learn the most important lesson of all… how to fail.

Failure is the first step towards humility in success and the first taste of the contrast it will take to truly savour a victory and celebrate every minor achievement in their road to becoming who they were always meant to be. So ask yourself this question: “Will you jumping in to help actually slow down their progress with the bigger picture?”

The same power that exists in you, exists in them too. It may be at different stage of evolution but then you had to learn didn’t you? You got knocked on your arse, didn’t you?

We think karma is a form of punishment, but the truth is its one of the biggest blessings that the universe offers… like riding a bike, it’s about learning to find your balance.

Principles 1, 2, 4 & 7

More later… x

Saturday Oracle – The Beginning Of Wisdom

First let me say that this combination, though a little too frequent for my liking, is not in any way a surprise. When I turned over the cards of The Intuitive Chalice Oracle today they all but jumped out to greet me and here’s what notion immediately entered my mind…

On my short walk back home yesterday from the local supermarket, where I had been picking up some supplies for a workshop I’m running on Monday, I had what my mum would term “a funny turn.” Now you must understand that there is nothing in the least bit funny about feeling unwell at any time but halfway across a busy road through the middle of a woodland carrying heavy shopping bags is even less amusing… I stopped as soon as I reached the pavement, put down my shopping and focused all my attention on my breathing until I began to feel grounded again, quickly calling in my angelic helpers to “fly” me home safely… I don’t remember much more of the walk but I remember arriving at the front door and feeling relieved to have made it in one piece… my body isn’t happy and the oracle is suggesting that problem is rife among us this week.

It’s really cliche at New Year for us to be talking about resolutions and getting healthy and I was determined not to do it, (talk about it I mean), that was until I flipped this combination of Principle 6: I AM Self-Full and the blood red base chakra. Your body is about to start screaming for your attention if it hasn’t already, and right now is the time to listen.

Health issues are once again the focus as we step not just into a new week but into a brand new year. Evidently too much indulging combined with a recent cascade of shocks, both media and personal, have taken a toll and we are all in need of some self-imposed TLC. For me personally, I try to eat at home as much as possible where I can prepare fresh and healthy foods, but over the Christmas period I’ve been privileged to have been fed by some beautiful friends and family and in attempting to be a gracious guest, the result is my diet has included increased wheat and refined sugar, swamping my system with a whole load of stuff I’m sensitive too and its rebelling big time.

Be gentle with yourself if you are starting to feel overly tired, sluggish or unwell… any symptoms you are experiencing are the beginning of wisdom when it comes to your physical, mental and emotional health, assuming of course you listen and take steps towards purposeful healing.

Healthy choices might be a good idea as might a gentle detox, but do see a physician/GP if you aren’t sure. Let’s get ready for Happy & Healthy New Year! It’s not a resolution, it’s a gift to yourself.

More next year… x

Might Be Out Of Balance

I’ve had a weird few weeks. Struck down by a pretty persistent chest infection about 3 weeks ago, I set about putting myself first in an effort to take my own Grail advice and embrace Principle 6: I AM Self-Full, the art of self-care. Being a healer, quite often we forget to do the work on ourselves and where our instincts when someone else is ill are sharp, under the spell of our personal infirmity we are quick to lose sight of the healing power for which we are natural channels.

All that being said, I invested in some cough medicine for a chesty cough… (have you ever noticed how many types of cough they sell medicine for? I don’t bloody know if it’s a dry cough, a chesty cough, a mucus cough or a bloody skydiving hedgehogs cough… I just need cough medicine)!!! Anyway,  The last thing I need is to be half asleep as well as barking like a dog so a non-drowsy formula was the order of the day… I haven’t slept a night since.

Arriving just prior to the newly nicknamed “frazzle moon” that I mentioned last week, disturbed sleep patterns were shunted into overdrive when a stream of near insanity driven dreams began to crop up, fielding a very abstract view of the current state of my life. Anyone else think I might be out of balance?

Out of balance is a concept that is often bandied around the MBS network, but what does it actually mean?

In Grail terms its a simple description of the 2-way flow of energy embraced by Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, meaning to give and receive in equal measure. We assume this to be about giving and receiving between people but not so… take everyone else out of the equation for a moment and come back to Principle 6, being Self-Full, how much have you given back to yourself this year? Think in terms of appreciation, gratitude, admiration, time off from external stresses. Think about the flow of energy between you and your Source, service balanced with meditation and rest for example.

Being Open-Hearted is a symbol of flow. Like the physical heart whose valves take in life blood and pump out life blood in equal measure, so too are you supposed to allow energy and life itself to follow this same path… like inhaling and exhaling.

For a short while I’m in the process of inhaling, the art of self care is the ability to receive what you need from the universe before you begin to exhale and give back. The season of good will doesn’t exclude you, make sure you’re being good to yourself.

To all my friends who are feeling under the weather at present, my present to you is simply to tell you that you don’t need permission to take a breath.

More later… x

Saturday Oracle – Divergent Path

Grail Oracle 6Grail Oracle Orange

This week’s oracle comes with a warning.

I pulled a combination for myself yesterday as I occasionally do for guidance but then imagine my surprise when the exact same cards came out for the group reading today.

Stress is a killer. At the very least it can make you very ill, very unhappy and steal your zest for life… I’ve worked with many people over the years and one thing that has become apparent to me is that nobody burns out doing what they love.

Whenever Principle 6: I AM Self-Full turns up in a reading it is asking you to consider your own needs: physical, emotional and spiritual, and it is asking you to be mindful of your true life path. Combine it with the vibrant orange of the sacral chakra and the warning that ignoring  your innermost requirements is draining your vitality, putting unnecessary stress on your adrenals and pushing you towards your own case of fatigue, whether that be full on physical shutdown, or a serious bout of depression.

You were sent here with a mission. You might think you don’t know what that is yet and that’s ok as long as you remember that your mission is in alignment with your skills, your joys and your passions… God didn’t send you ill equipped to fulfil your destiny, he stocked you full of urges and abilities as guidance… sure you have to learn new stuff to get there but being passionate about learning is one of those urges too. The point is that many of us drift through life doing what we’re made to do, what we feel obliged to do and often through these obligations we forget that we were given a voice and a choice…

Your soul has a plan for you and this week your mind, body and spirit are railing against the fact that you have been consistently taking a divergent path.

If you are exhausted, feeling low, run down, experiencing minor illness or suffering any form of stress then this is the week to assess where you are out of alignment with your divine plan and make radical adjustments to your life. Eat well, sleep well, remove yourself from toxic environments, people and situations, tie up loose ends that are draining your energy and resources, de-clutter your home and work space and begin an inventory of what bits of your life bring you joy and peace and which bits bring stress and discord…

Most of all, go back to your innermost hopes, wishes and dreams and ask if you are neglecting them or casting them aside for some reason.

Call upon the angels and meditate… your health is your ticket to joy, your emotions are your map, your spirit carries the keys but only your soul knows that X marks the spot… start listening.

More next week… x

The Art of Mardy

I know I appear to have been missing in action for a few days but actually I was right here where you left me, taking full advantage of a few internet connection burps and farts by indulging in a little me time as far as refuelling the creative urge is concerned and also proving that sisters are doing it for themselves by slapping a bit of paint around the residence. I have to admit the place is becoming very girly, little by little, and it feels much more me now.

I wanted to finish the week (or start in this case) by giving a heads up to the art of mardy… (thanks for the inspiration Dawn/Holly/Mum/etc).

Mardy, for those of you considered to be foreign, (which is basically anybody not born and bred in Sheffield, South Yorkshire), is a word used to describe someone who is feeling low in energy or mood and displaying irritability or a short temper as a result, basically a downright grumpy git!

As a Grail Knight I am sensitive to general energies and global shifts and it has become apparent that loads of people have over the last week or so, discovered the art of mardy. It’s an epidemic, the likes of which I have not known (well not for a good few months anyway).

The prolem isn’t that everyone, particularly the girls, are feeling irritable, it’s that they are all going “Whoaa! Where did that come from?” because it’s out of context in the upswing of recent weeks…. like some big orange fellow just ran up tangoed you with the mardy stick! Let me put you out of your misery: it’s the moon. Today in the Western hemisphere is a black moon, meaning the second new moon in a month. Now the black moon is only a date really but the intense energy is this moon rising in Scorpio on the back end of that blessed portal, closing just a few days ago… Scorpio has some pretty passionate energy about it so you will feel things deeply as the clearing out and making room you’ve just done has left you in the void, that beautiful nothingness where seeds must be planted… did you have a plan and seeds at the ready?

An astrologer, which I’m not, could give you the finer details and that’s not what you’re here for so I’m going to give you the lowdown on actually being constructive when your feeling mardy:

This is a time of positive transformation so don’t fight how you feel however contrary it may seem. Now is the time to rest, to plan, to plant seeds for your future and to nurture your sensitive nature. Avoid stressful situations or people and ask the angels to step in and cleanse and protect your aura. Get friendly with the bubble bath and indulge your feminine side (even if you’re a bloke)… in Grail terms this is a time for activating Principle 6: I AM Self-Full, but most of all remember “This too shall pass.”

Happy Black Moon… you’ve earned the right to display the art of mardy… at least until the weekend is over.

I’ll be back tomorrow with an oracle reading for you all… x

 

 

Down and Dirty

As a species we have become programmed over time to consider the concept of “Monday” as a time to go back to work. I, being a contrary little bleeder, decided that wasn’t for me a long time ago and even when working for an employer, chose a job where 9 to 5 was laughed at.

Today I work for myself, or more to the point I work for Big G… He didn’t actually command that Sunday was a day of rest, what He actually said was to keep it holy (and just because He took the day off after 6 days creating Earth, He soon saw his mistake in creating us because ever after Sunday became His busiest day)!

Anyhoo, after a weekend of some pretty intense learning, and deep spiritual self-work, today for me isn’t exactly a day off but it is a day without schedule, a day without agenda and to some extent a day without people… Deep soul work can occasionally over tax the system and the mind and the best antidote for that is to get down and dirty with nature… and that’s my plan.

I have a date with the faeries and wildlife hiding in the unruly overgrowth that is my garden today because I deserve to be surrounded by beauty and fresh air… as do you.

I understand that I’m lucky to have that choice and that you may be more restricted in your ability to leave the office or whatever occupies you on this Monday morning, so in honour of your need to be Self-Full (as in Principle 6), make sure you take lunch outdoors if at all possible, go for a walk near some greenery, introduce some plants into the office space, eat fresh, drink plenty of water and don’t forget to be a little more playful in your approach to all you do today.

Lighten up and invite the faeries to play.

Happy Monday… x

Lesser Version of The Powerhouse

Little girls and little boys get tired. They begin to pull at their ears and rub at their eyes and engaging with them becomes increasingly less pleasant when all they really want to do is go home, pull off their little socks and lay down in a comfy spot… any spot.

Gentleness at such times is advised… dirty knees and filthy faces may have to wait now, as the harsh scrubbing away of the days debris should obviously have taken place an hour ago… but to disturb play would have been a wasted magical moment… sleep is all that matters now.

Have you ever noticed how when we pursue anything to the extreme we lose ourselves in the driving desire to feel more? Oftentimes this gratification, which I referred to as hedonism in my last post, fuels us to the point of over-stimulation and we all to soon arrive at physical exhaustion just moments after euphoria reaches a pinnacle… (in many adults this is mirrored in a post-orgasmic snooze)… and is merely a reflection of giving life your all.

The thing I’m finding fascinating though (actually, I’m finding everything fascinating at the moment) is the tendency to momentarily fall prey to the belief that you can’t affect anything when you become exhausted… that moment when you mistake an inability to think straight for being a victim or a lesser version of the powerhouse that just spent the last 10 days straight ripping around the playground of life, showing it whose wearing the ruby slippers!

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full is a deliberate statement, it means “me first.” When the little cherub is screaming whilst you’re scrubbing her knees, she isn’t interested in anything except Barnabus the fluffy bunny and bed. Her needs are immediate, she knows it and she has no idea why you feel the grubby child getting mud on the sheets is your priority instead of turning the house upside down to find said stuffed bunny so she can sleep safe… in essence, she’s responding to her own needs and all else will wait until tomorrow.

My only question to you then would be this: are you listening and responding to the needs of your inner cherub? Your body, mind and spirit need to regenerate regularly so staying in touch with your physical self and your moment to moment needs is paramount. If you’re not paying attention then tomorrow’s playtime will be a recreated nightmare and the endless summer will be well and truly over.

Work. Rest. Play… Balance. The moon’s turning dark… listen.

More later… (when I’ve had a day off and a  little nap) x