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First Monday Challenge – Revealing The Master Illusionist

After a lot of consideration I decided to follow this train of thought to see where it led me. Being the first Monday of the month, shying away from whatever is challenging is against my self-declared process and so we must be prepared to dive deep down the rabbit hole in search of our own answers and face head on what scares us the most. In my case that would be in revealing the master illusionist.

First let us understand the illusion a little better…

Someone has led you back to the point where you fall asleep and forget that you’ve been here before. I don’t mean in the reincarnation sense of having lived a physical life in a different time in a different body, though that would demonstrate this cycle on a lager scale, I mean you are going around and around with something, never really moving forward but instead being lulled into believing you are making progress when really you are being controlled, manipulated, placated. Like placing a dummy (pacifier) into the mouth of a crying baby and whispering “there there,” as the child settles and sleeps believing, at least temporarily, that the very thing that made them cry has been solved.

The master illusionist is a comforter and the means’ by which he or she comforts are mere distractions from that which would bring permanent relief and escape from the repetition of pain and peace…

Addiction is an easy hook by which to control. The promise of the substance provides a lure, the provision of a small sample of the craved for poison buys the illusionist time… is it a drug, alcohol, food, videogames, sex and romance, shopping? That temporary relief provides the “Ah yes, this time I will have what I want and this feeling I have now is proof that it’s on its way.” And now you’re asleep once more. You’ve forgotten that you’ve had a taste of this so-called proof before and you’ve forgotten that however many times you’ve repeated “it will be different this time,” here you are again.

Revealing the master illusionist is simple: who benefits from keeping you in denial of your true situation? Who now has perceived limitations as an excuse for stilted expansion? Who has created an infrastructure set up to withhold connection and intimacy? Who has ensured nobody has expectations of them that cannot be fulfilled thus negating the chance of failure, rejection and ridicule?

There will always be mirrors of the illusionist, others sent to highlight the original, those who have identified the strings, bonds and chains. They will, offer samples of the things you crave, take advantage of the devoted clientele you provide, but the true face of the master illusionist is the one that seeks out a new source of poison when a vendor dries up, the one that finds replacement numbing agents to lull you back to sleep when the pain of being awake gets to unbearable. The master illusionist will always be YOU… and the illusion will always be that you are helpless to help yourself. Only the poison changes form and whatever form it takes you convince yourself it holds all the power.

Today’s challenge is to stay awake, even if you partake of your own particular poison, do so with your eyes wide open and acknowledge the decision consciously.

At every moment through today and this week when you choose to indulge in distraction or addiction, repeat the words “I know what I’m doing and I’m choosing to do it anyway… at least until I find a permanent solution and my freedom no longer frightens me.”

Principles 3 & 5. Later this week I might go deeper into why we fear freedom.. but for now…stay awake.

More later… x

Saturday Oracle – One Step Too Far?

I’m beginning to wonder if The Sacred Chalice has made more appearances than any other card or combination in the set. It certainly seems prolific of late and each time it arrives it brings with it a slightly expanded energy. Perhaps though, this week that expansion is one step too far?

In everyone’s life there are times when you just don’t feel as if you can possibly take any more. Too much pain, too much joy, too much anything is a strain on the human psycho-emotional system and this oracle energy turns up at the moment before release.

Don’t assume that suffering is born only of negative over stimulation. Imagine if you will that you are undertaking a blissful journey. The journey, as they say is the destination, but for most the destination is a conclusion from which point a new journey can begin. If the destination is perceived to be forever out of reach, then the sojourner eventually arrives at a point where they can no longer continue because no end is in sight. This reminds me of the symbol of the Ouroboros (the snake curled around in a circle swallowing its own tail), eternally going round and round and never quite completing anything.

Now on this particular leg of our hero’s journey is a promise that you’re almost there. I’ve been seeing an image of a threshold all week that portends standing on the brink of the new, but when the Sacred Chalice shows up, as I’ve said before, it demands that you can no longer carry on doing life the same way. The proverbial tower falls, structures are rearranged as one journey ends and another begins.

This is the excruciating bit just before the miracle, just before the tipping point… but you can’t see the miracle, you can’t see the finish line, you’ve endured for so long that the promise of it sounds just like all those other promises and you are standing in the gateway, the threshold between what was and what will be and right now you have a choice…

You have no idea what stepping through will bring, you have no idea what stepping back will bring either… everything is operating at a level of uncertainty. This miracle could be supreme success at the peak of your climb or it could be sweet relief at the very bottom of your fall… and here’s your dilemma: do you believe in miracles or do you believe that to take one more step would be to fall asleep once again under the influence of the master illusionist only to begin the cycle again and perpetuity?

The Chalice shows up when you’re empty and you can be empty for one of two reasons: either you’re making room for the universe to deliver the mother load, or you have allowed life to use you up, which is it?

The fearful mind will create distress, compel you to panic and force some form of drama (after all you’ve convinced yourself you can only take so much and this is where you usually begin to struggle), but the hero will stand on the edge of heaven and wait for the gates to open, fully believing in the benevolence of the master illusionist and that this journey is not an illusion at all.

You’ve been here before… but you’re awake now, you’re aware… be The Sacred Chalice and let whatever happens next to break your heart wide open ready to be filled.

Nothing goes on forever, don’t quit right before you arrive at the destination. You’re almost there. Take a drink from the Chalice and find the strength to keep going.

More next week… x

 

Where The Magic Happens

The path is created step by step, moment by moment each time you make a choice… and trust me you make a million choices, consciously or unconsciously across the space of any 24 hours, from what to wear to what to drink, to how to comb your hair or whether today is a good day to change you life entirely. Even adjusting your position microscopically to feel more comfortable is a choice but we often just do it as it comes naturally… something coming naturally is easily trained out when you activate a mindful approach to decision making…

Let’s take the consistent complainer for instance. Quite often they have no concept that their attitude is a negative one or indeed that they are sharing it, just as you may not have noticed that you just altered your posture because your neck was aching from looking down at the device you’re currently reading this from. Chances are they have fallen into the habitual state of acting without thinking first, of allowing conditioning and programming to take over and automatically fill in the blanks when it comes to making choices…

But right here, in this moment, that’s where the magic happens, right here you have a choice…

Before you act, think about the ramifications of your next move… this is not meant to cripple you into inaction, it’s purpose is to put you fully in control of your own life, knowing that the outcome, whether positive or negative is one that you have crafted. When you choose from an unconscious pattern of choice making you get to the end product and ask “why does this always happen to me?” Just because you weren’t paying attention to the decisions you were making doesn’t mean you weren’t making them, so think…

The first job is to recognise that you actually have a choice in front of you… if you are the serial complainer maybe you can start by counting how many complaints you utter during one solitary conversation (it’s just to raise your awareness that its happening). Next ask yourself a single question: “How can I see this situation differently?” What about venturing further by asking: “What would change in my life if I saw it differently?”

Sounds like it might take some time to get retrained but when you realise how much time you wasted walking the path completely asleep and unaware of the creative power you hold, seems like a short term trade off to me.

So, here where the magic happens, what’s it going to be? Choose wisely.

Principles 1 and 2: I AM God and I AM Detached.

More later… x