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Friday Confession – No Longer Hiding The Source Of All Light

Is Friday a good day for a confession? Well ready or not, here I come. The truth, as it is for me, cannot remain suppressed. I’m no longer hiding the source of all light.

I’ve previously been holding back on some of my posts simply to avoid upsetting someone. Knowing that my words can trigger insecurities in those with whom I have a close or karmic connection, and avoiding conflict as best I can by occasionally pussyfooting around issues that might be deemed contentious or taken personally, misread or deliberately twisted to mean something else…

How many of you do that? How many of you dim your light, lower your voice, stay hidden, just so you won’t rock a boat that you are actually being held to ransom in? (That’s a metaphor obviously).

Principle 2: I AM Detached is the part of the Grail that I find often trips up all who begin the journey consciously. At its core it refers to unhitching your attention from a specific outcome, whether that be a repeat of what’s gone before or a desired future destination doesn’t actually matter, when you specify how you want things to turn out you manipulate the path towards it.

By withholding a part of who you are, effectively dimming your sparkling essence, you are manipulating how people see you. Sometimes it’s to protect them from their own shortcomings but more accurately it’s to protect you, either from your own fear, or deeper than that, your fear that their shortcomings and therefore reactions to who you truly are might cause them to dislike you, ridicule you, argue with you, get angry at you or abandon you.

This is where Principle 4: I AM Truth kicks in. They have to do what they have to do. They will always act or react from their own truth however different from yours that may be. Once you have let go of your attachment to the outer goal though, their reaction no longer holds any sway over you. That’s not to say you want to deliberately hurt anyone or offend anyone. If causing harm is your intent then you’re reading the wrong blog. What it does mean though is that you no longer have to continue trading your comfort for someone else’s.

And now we arrive at Principle 3: I AM Human. The art of forgiveness begins with the recognition of a fragile being. That’s what an ego is, it’s a child in pain doing its best to protect itself from the world it perceives as a harsh environment in which it has to fight for it’s own place in existence. The ego, when it feels attacked, slighted or unheard, loses sight of the Soul parent to which its bound and has no concept of how to truly protect itself in a peaceful manner so then it must fight to stay alive, to take power away from its perceived threat… it has forgotten that it has access to the power of the universe through its Soul-Self and will therefore usurp the light from wherever it shines externally… The ego sees only through physical eyes and cannot observe anything through the eyes of the heart. You must love the child despite its attack on you, only love can save it, anger reinforces the cycle of fear.

You are the source of all light. God shines through you (each and every one of you), but His frequencies change and become unique with you as a filter. Not everyone will be attracted to your light frequency (your truth). Some will be repelled by it, others will attempt to reconcile the difference by changing their frequency to harmonise, whilst others still, will try to force yours to match theirs… but the rainbow of truth that is humanity, it’s diversity, is the whole truth. From God’s eye view the pattern is perfection.

Now, to those who love me but would have me fit their mould I say this…

When we arrive at Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, we will have adopted an attitude of balance where we can truly see the beauty in all the light frequencies that blend and dance in a constant exchange of give and take. We will begin to learn from each other instead of taking from each other, we will begin to cherish the exposure to a beautiful array of fresh new ideas that compliment and contrast causing co-creation and eventually a brand new truth, a blended truth that has a frequency all of its own, it has a name…

It’s called love.

More later…x

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For The Weekend – Learning The Art Of Forgiveness

I’ve travelled to hell and back over the course of this week. It was a most illuminating journey. Taking a small group through a higher ascension training last Sunday, I was allowed by spirit to see for the first time how many of the 7 gates I’d passed through (9 in some teachings), on the way to my own personal hell. And then shown how easily I could climb through the golden gates in the other direction by learning the art of forgiveness.

Principle 3: I AM Human, is the way home to redemption.

This is not a biblical dissemination of sinful behaviour, on the contrary, it’s about the pieces of ourselves that we trade for our vision of what will fill the emptiness we feel when disconnected from our own higher power. The gates include self-transgressions like loss of self-respect, self-worth, humiliation, degradation etc. and we rarely see the outward effects when we are mesmerized by the end goal… that thing that we want, in effect would never lead us into compromising our own integrity if it was ever actually worth having.

The first gate on the way to redemption is acceptance. Also the first step on the way to forgiveness. Acceptance is a state of surrender to what is… it’s the end of the slippery slope. Here you stop struggling and look into the mirror of your life, which is reflected in your surroundings and tangible so-called reality, but you take a look with humility and reverence. I say humility because you must claim ultimate responsibility, and reverence because although you may not enjoy what you see, the awesome power it took to build this reality is a power that flows through you… you have God within you and you can use it to create miracles too.

Now comes the hard part: turn your face to the heavens and away from what was leading you into hell. You may have been stripped naked little by little at every gate you passed through but God created you naked and as you realise that is where you are heading once again, He can wash you clean.

That did end up sounding quite biblical didn’t it?

Let me put it another way… you were born naked, screaming, shitting, pissing and puking and the world looked on and said “Ahhh how beautiful.” Consider this moment, no matter how much crap you appear to be covered in, to be another crack at the great game. Acceptance will lead you to responsibility, responsibility will guide you back to empowerment, empowerment to empathy, empathy to forgiveness and forgiveness will lead to liberation and to love.

Forgive yourself first, forgive those who opened the gates, forgive those who attempted to strip you naked and sully your innocent soul, forgive those who watched you fall, forgive those who laughed at your pain and then finally smile gently with compassion as you watch and wait for them to come to a place of acceptance that in order to open the gates they too had to be standing knee deep in the shit.

Help them out when they ask. That’s what the gates of heaven demand.

This weekend, ask yourself how many gates you’ve passed through? Meditate with the Sumarian Goddess Ishtar, she will help you do a fearless assessment of what you blindly gave up for your goal.

More later… x

The Power To Survive Anything

Upon waking this morning I was overcome with a sense of internal invulnerability that I haven’t felt in a long time. It comes ahead of a weekend filled with a full moon, a weird cosmic alignment, a comet etc… but more importantly it comes ahead of change. Maybe unprecedented change.

We always know when change is approaching because we are wired to understand at least on a subtle level the nuances and invisible fluctuations of the energy moving towards us, as the chakra system acts as a sequence of receivers and transmitters constantly interpreting the environment we live in… that’s what a sixth sense is.

Maybe you have noticed a subtle change in the behaviour of another or that the message has changed in even the tiniest of ways; a minute drop in temperature that warns you of incoming weather or birdsong that registers unconsciously as the approach of spring?

Change is neither good nor bad, change just is. And its essential to the cycle of life too, without it we stagnate. Not knowing what change is on its way though can be a scary prospect. Then you get this feeling I’m experiencing…

The power to survive anything happens when you recognise that you already have survived… just arriving here on the planet, being born is an ordeal in itself and yet here you are. Chances are you have been through some pretty memorable stuff up to this point in your life too. I’ve survived bereavement multiple times, divorce, severe illness, near blindness, relationships both good and bad, financial expansion, financial collapse, connection and rejection… up as well as down and yet I’ve survived. I believe I will even survive death, (at least on a soul level) because according to Principle 1: I AM God…

That feeling of invulnerability comes not from a place of defiance or arrogance but instead from a humble place of acceptance that all is as it should be and all is part of the adventure. Any experience that is meant for me I open my arms and my heart and welcome with gratitude as a lesson and a blessing from an ever loving Divine Parent.

And once again  I ask to step simply and swiftly into the slipstream towards my miracles.

More later… x

The Real Treasures

Winter Solstice Blessings to you all.

In my last post I asked that you join me today in sending more love out into the world, you can read that via the archive but today let’s also concentrate on loving what’s present in our lives.

Principle 2: I AM Detached asks that you focus not in the past or in the future, but in the present and on what is. The winter solstice is the longest night of the year wrapped up in the stress of the Christmas season, when blessings are sometimes hardest to see and easiest to overlook… but not if you focus on the real treasures present in your experience.

Family, friends, health, home… love, that’s the key to everything. There may be a million things that you want and are actively striving for but just for now, settle down to accept and appreciate where you are, what you have and who you are sharing it with.

Keep the light in your heart until it returns to the world. In the deep midwinter let us all become beacons of hope, gratitude and grace that set the example for the rest to follow.

Blessings Abound x

One of The Most Boring Posts

This post could seriously mess up my blog strategy… but seeing as though I write what I feel and there is no strategy, that shouldn’t actually be a problem. This is possibly one of the most boring posts I’m ever going to write…

Being a passionate soul, my most inspired articles come from a place of anguish and of suffering. I’m not afraid of that truth: personal experience combined with professional application means I know what I’m talking about, so to feel through each Principle of The Wholly Grail can be what we term research and vigorous testing, realtime, on the ground human guinea pig style… seeing as though The Wholly Grail was rolled out in 2012 as my philosophy for creating inner peace and happiness a fair few human guinea pigs have been subjected to its methods since then.

I’ve found that The Wholly Grail offers solutions to every problem if you’re willing to do the work and because life is constantly offering up tests there has been much to work on and with… it’s not anecdotal evidence it’s real lives, mine included, that have undergone transformative processes through embracing the seven main Principles. But what I wanted to share with you today is my confession of what constitutes a boring post…

Inner peace means acceptance, acceptance means no drama, no drama means no anguish or suffering and this girl is so very happy to be boring if all that is the case.

My own personal and most sticky Principle has always been 2: I AM Detached. Dealing with being present and being grateful for where I am here in the moment, for the current situation, for the people in my life, for the things I have and for the love I’ve been blessed with. Do I have it all? That depends on your perspective… I have everything I need, though there are things I still want. In giving up the wanting and knowing that if it’s meant to be here it will arrive when it’s good and ready and all I have to do is stay open and believe… not that it will arrive, but that I will be just fine if it doesn’t. My drama has always been in believing that something was missing but nothing ever was save for one thing… me.

I’m not lost anymore. I AM God (Principle 1 – everything and everyone is), and nothing is ever lost to me except when I insist on covering my eyes, shielding my heart and I refuse to see…

My Wholly Grail is overflowing with an abundance of grace… so excuse me if I’m boring you but… I’m happy!

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More later… x

Saturday Oracle – The Dream Weaver

Grail Oracle 7Grail Oracle Indigo

Reality transforms from the inside out. Having been hand delivered a new set of tools from the Divine in the way of ideas, concepts and hopes, filtered through some fairly strange and intense dreams over the last few days, you can now start the process of implementation.

Internal Alchemy happens when you begin to transmute lower, heavy vibrations and stuck patterns, allowing life to follow your renewed intent towards a higher frequency… towards joy, health and abundance.

The Dream Weaver is someone who knits together that vision and prophesy of a better tomorrow with the fabric of reality simply by dreaming that new life into existence.

This week Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted meets the deep indigo of the brow chakra and offers you the opportunity to dream your new life into existence. This skill has rules though, to be open-hearted means to release all judgement of the way life shows up for you, to be accepting of whatever Spirit/Source sees fit to bestow in answer to your skilful dreaming or prayer… if you lock down the finer details you will restrict the level of experience God intends for you.

So let’s see: dream it, believe it, stay open to receive it, and most of all, however life shows up for you this week be grateful for it… you are The Dream Weaver: you create it as you go… co-create something amazing by allowing your heart and mind to sing in unison with the universal flow of abundance.

More next week… x

Irreconcilable, Inconceivable Even

We attempt an analytical approach to unfathomable situations mostly because it’s the rational mind’s function to compute. Acceptance and allowing are concepts native to the opposite side, the receptive side of the brain. Acceptance is easy when the calculation amounts to a satisfactory conclusion but when the requisite parts don’t add up then reconciliation, i.e. closure doesn’t come and getting your head or more precisely your left brain hemisphere (the logical side) around that is like getting a computer to stop calculating the unsolvable mathematical equation you asked it to do.

One of my favourite programmes growing up was “The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy” and I remember the super computer, affectionately named “Deep Thought” being given an equation to solve… one question kept it occupied for thousands of years and it just kept computing and calculating… the question: “What is the answer to life, the universe and everything?” Thousands if not millions of years later it came up with the answer: “42” ( good old Douglas Adams).

The incessant drive to find answers is an admirable trait of the human psyche but not necessarily one that’s conducive to inner peace. Not all questions have answers, that’s irreconcilable, inconceivable even to the logical mind but to the part of you that is Divine there never was any question… all is, was and ever more shall be exactly as it’s meant to be.

The logical mind, like a child will try to understand… “Why?” will be it’s favourite word and no explanation will quench its thirst until it hears what it wants to hear to make the jigsaw pieces fit together, until the loose ends are tied and the uncertainty has been stored in pretty little boxes. Have compassion for the child but interrupt the calculation with a new programme: “I have faith that God knows the answer and I have faith enough in myself to feel complete without it.” …or of course if that doesn’t work you could always just go with 42!

Principle 3: I AM Human

More later…x

Happy Step

I’ve been battling this morning with an internal contradiction. On the one hand “I’m ok with how things are right now” but on the other hand “I’m not ok with how things are right now.” This dilemma when put into the context of: “I’ll be happy when…” is a classic example ignoring Principle 2: I AM Detached, projecting your attention to an as yet unwritten future and delaying your happiness until those criteria have been met (which of course they never will be because by the time you’ve achieved that set of wants a new set will have taken over).

What if though, what if you are not projecting into a future or for that matter looking back into a rose tinted past? What if your attention is right here in the present moment and you are looking at this current set of circumstances and saying “I am unhappy with how things are”?

When you commence a sentence with I AM… you are stating a command to the universe, defining your being and anchoring it to a certain set of parameters, be damn sure you want “unhappy” to be one of them before you announce the intention aloud, as even the continuous thought has immense power… so that’s the first job, correcting your vocabulary… now we need to address the underlying feeling of dissatisfaction.

Right here, now, in this moment you have a choice, the choice to be happy with your life or not, and there are only 3 things that stand between you and choosing happiness: gratitude, acceptance and self-improvement.

Acceptance is the key you’re looking for but sometimes acceptance feels a little out of reach when you aren’t where you hoped you be. Beginning with gratitude lubricates the fixed consciousness you’ve acquired and widens the perspective to everything that’s beneficial about your current circumstances so start by making a comprehensive list of those things that you’re grateful for… try to keep it relevant, you can include being grateful for the trees if you like (I am) but unless your current circumstances involve being unhappy in your job as a forest ranger or tree surgeon then it’s a little out of context. Keep listing until you can see an emerging pattern to the blessings of why you’re here in this situation and acceptance becomes the next natural progression… appreciation will almost certainly begin to creep into the mix and at this stage you need to be careful because you are getting dangerously close to feeling content and oh my goodness, hold the phone, are you happy? Well, not quite…

Self-improvement? I’m not talking about the endless programs of self help stuff, I’m talking about accepting responsibility for your own life and where you are at, and then committing to taking the action needed to change it… down tools, assess the direction you wish to travel and then take measured steps towards it… not towards happiness, every step should be a happy step, but away from dissatisfaction which only comes from being unfulfilled and that comes from not living up to your potential and that comes from not being all you can be…

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full has many connotations but being the happiest, healthiest, highest achieving you is central to your well-being. If you’re unhappy, you’re not being Self-Full.

My list is underway already and I’m dangerously close to contentment…

More later… x

The Willing Recipient

Grail Oracle 1Grail Oracle Yellow

I’ve been chomping at the bit today to explore this combination from The Intuitive Chalice Oracle for all of us, me included, because when I pulled the cards first thing this morning to contemplate, I had such a rush of excited enthusiasm about the way the energy is flowing.

Blending the first Principle: I AM God with the bright yellow energy of the Solar Plexus, The Willing Recipient is heralding a boon of unprecedented proportions arriving either energetically or tangibly from a benevolent Source. This gift is the universe’s way of compensating you for the work you’ve done thus far in arriving safely at your present location, experience safely translated into personal wisdom and packed into your toolkit for future use on the path.

We have come through a rough passage of late, many have been walking around dazed and confused since the new moon wondering why they feel the way they do… Somewhat baffled in fact by a sense of overwhelm detracted by a field of grace… Like you are wandering around thinking, “I should be depressed. To the outside world I might look and even sound depressed… but the absolute truth is I don’t feel depressed… but I dont know why I don’t!” Ridiculous as that sounds, being sensitive to energy flow, standing on a threshold of what’s done and what’s to be offered, knowing that now is the point when everything changes but not what changes are required…

I was privileged to work with one of my healing clients this afternoon (always a pleasure… you know who you are), and I described this sense of transition as being like the old Wheel of Fortune game show whereby you are the needle on the dial and the universe has just spun you around, you’re not in control of where that needle is going to land and there is nothing you can do until it stops spinning so you might as well let go and let God until such time as you come to a full stop and a real life opportunity to choose is placed in front of you…

Now this is the fun part (or not) because you have no idea what the choice is going to be and what area of your life it’s going to affect and if indeed it is a ‘gift’ then why is a choice involved at all? Well, because the universe is all about balance and that’s why you have been making space for this gift to arrive but, and it its a big but, you are going to have to make one final sacrifice in order to receive the bounty… I wish I could tell you what it is… I’m psychic but I’m not that good! Imagine if you will, a new baby, what a blessing? You will have to grow up, give up your freedom, take on the responsibility… see what I mean about a gift that brings with it sacrifice?

So why The Willing Recipient? Principle 1 is the quest for self-worth. An angel is going to turn up at your door this week (not literally, at least I don’t think so), and say “Special delivery for the resident Grail Knight” and you now have a choice, you can say “Oh yes that’s for me, Ive been expecting something wonderful, where do I sign?” or you can say “I’m not sure who it’s for… no Grail Knight’s here just surfs and waifs and the great unwashed” and though the angel knows damn well it’s a gift just for you, he’ll wing it back to the cosmic depot and report in to the Big Fella saying “Not ready to receive, delivery declined, the package was too much, too big, too…

Being worthy isn’t about hubris, its about the quiet acceptance that you are the Divine in human form and that He doesn’t make mistakes… When your angel shows up with a gift this week, no matter how big or small, simply say “Thank you, I’m not sure if I’m ready… but I AM Willing.” The needle will stop spinning and you can make your choices.

May your week ahead be filled with a thousand blessings… all of which you are worthy of.

More next week… x