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Monday Mind Manoeuvre – Deftly Handling Ecstasy.

Sssh, I want to share a secret with you: today’s mind manoeuvre is actually about stepping out of the confines of your mind altogether and fully into your beautiful body.

What a gift we were given when we agreed to incarnate into the physical to experience the ultimate pleasure of form and friction. That being said, how many of us wander through life stuck in our heads and fail to even notice the sensations associated with life.

The human body is an incredibly sensitive instrument that has the power to transform spirit into matter, to literally make manifest more life in myriad forms… and then to interact with all it’s creations. But we dismiss all our physical creations as man made and undermine the miracle that it took to give life to an idea that originated as an abstract string of energy that coalesced into a thought before being birthed into form.

I watched an aeroplane fly overhead yesterday and was struck by the enormity of what I was witnessing… someone, somewhere in a bygone age, looked up to the heavens and saw a bird soaring in the great blue beyond and said to themself, “Oh that I might see life from God’s perspective just as that bird does. Oh that I might know such freedom as flight.” Not understanding fully that he or she also had God’s perspective and the perspective God observed was the potential for man to fly… but today we have forgotten and such miracles have become commonplace.

When your spirit fully occupies your own vessel, life flows through you and everything is made new. No matter how many times you have seen it, felt it, breathed it, tasted it, smelled it or heard it, you will do so as if it was the very first time…

Housing the Holy Spirit, which is divine consciousness, is only possible when you release resistance and surrender to what is… losing control and revelling in it, revelling in sensation is what God created you for. Deftly handling ecstasy is not about gratuitously indulging in “the pleasures of the flesh” (unless you want you), it is about allowing all experience to educate and inform you to the universal presence of, and connection to All-That-Is.

It’s Monday, you are probably all up in your head and completely disconnected from the neck down… it’s just a means of getting you from here to there and its functions are most probably a hindrance in your schedule, right? I mean, who has time to savour lunch, smile at the warmth of the sun on your face or acknowledge the gentle brush of your clothes over your skin?

It takes just a moment to enjoy a sensation, any sensation… and that moment might just be the happiest, most enjoyable, innocent and yet simply divine interlude of your day.

Give yourself permission to feel.

E.g. if you’ve been looking down at your mobile device to read this, how does your neck feel right now? If you needed me to tell you to notice it’s a bit stiff then you are disconnected… stretch, give it a rub… enjoy.

Principles 1, 3 & 6

Have a sensational Monday… x

Ps. The tech team are still wrangling with the Seekers sign up issue… hang tight x

Friday Confession – No Longer Hiding The Source Of All Light

Is Friday a good day for a confession? Well ready or not, here I come. The truth, as it is for me, cannot remain suppressed. I’m no longer hiding the source of all light.

I’ve previously been holding back on some of my posts simply to avoid upsetting someone. Knowing that my words can trigger insecurities in those with whom I have a close or karmic connection, and avoiding conflict as best I can by occasionally pussyfooting around issues that might be deemed contentious or taken personally, misread or deliberately twisted to mean something else…

How many of you do that? How many of you dim your light, lower your voice, stay hidden, just so you won’t rock a boat that you are actually being held to ransom in? (That’s a metaphor obviously).

Principle 2: I AM Detached is the part of the Grail that I find often trips up all who begin the journey consciously. At its core it refers to unhitching your attention from a specific outcome, whether that be a repeat of what’s gone before or a desired future destination doesn’t actually matter, when you specify how you want things to turn out you manipulate the path towards it.

By withholding a part of who you are, effectively dimming your sparkling essence, you are manipulating how people see you. Sometimes it’s to protect them from their own shortcomings but more accurately it’s to protect you, either from your own fear, or deeper than that, your fear that their shortcomings and therefore reactions to who you truly are might cause them to dislike you, ridicule you, argue with you, get angry at you or abandon you.

This is where Principle 4: I AM Truth kicks in. They have to do what they have to do. They will always act or react from their own truth however different from yours that may be. Once you have let go of your attachment to the outer goal though, their reaction no longer holds any sway over you. That’s not to say you want to deliberately hurt anyone or offend anyone. If causing harm is your intent then you’re reading the wrong blog. What it does mean though is that you no longer have to continue trading your comfort for someone else’s.

And now we arrive at Principle 3: I AM Human. The art of forgiveness begins with the recognition of a fragile being. That’s what an ego is, it’s a child in pain doing its best to protect itself from the world it perceives as a harsh environment in which it has to fight for it’s own place in existence. The ego, when it feels attacked, slighted or unheard, loses sight of the Soul parent to which its bound and has no concept of how to truly protect itself in a peaceful manner so then it must fight to stay alive, to take power away from its perceived threat… it has forgotten that it has access to the power of the universe through its Soul-Self and will therefore usurp the light from wherever it shines externally… The ego sees only through physical eyes and cannot observe anything through the eyes of the heart. You must love the child despite its attack on you, only love can save it, anger reinforces the cycle of fear.

You are the source of all light. God shines through you (each and every one of you), but His frequencies change and become unique with you as a filter. Not everyone will be attracted to your light frequency (your truth). Some will be repelled by it, others will attempt to reconcile the difference by changing their frequency to harmonise, whilst others still, will try to force yours to match theirs… but the rainbow of truth that is humanity, it’s diversity, is the whole truth. From God’s eye view the pattern is perfection.

Now, to those who love me but would have me fit their mould I say this…

When we arrive at Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, we will have adopted an attitude of balance where we can truly see the beauty in all the light frequencies that blend and dance in a constant exchange of give and take. We will begin to learn from each other instead of taking from each other, we will begin to cherish the exposure to a beautiful array of fresh new ideas that compliment and contrast causing co-creation and eventually a brand new truth, a blended truth that has a frequency all of its own, it has a name…

It’s called love.

More later…x

Ps. We are working to get the sign up link working so you can become a Seeker (free member). Check back soon.

Getting To Grips With Ownership (And The Giving Of Surprise Gifts)

Continuing along the theme of abundance on this beautiful Summer Solstice, I was playing with the title and couldn’t help but notice the irony of it. Getting to grips with ownership actually has two deliberately loaded and unwise concepts at its core:

  1. The concept of ownership
  2. The act of gripping.

Taking you back to Monday’s insight “The Truth About Abundance,” at its core were two more productive ideas:

  1. The concept of allowing or acceptance
  2. The act of sharing.

The two things have a very different feel and the universe knows it.

If you want to increase your quota of anything, be it money and material wealth, love, friends, joy,  even ideas, then recognising that true ownership is universal and ultimately sits within the mind of God is the first step to putting yourself directly in the flow of more good stuff.

Take me for instance. I’ve long been grappling with whether or not to launch the membership aspect of this site. I’ve placed obstacle after obstacle in my path. Now some of that was due to gaps in my knowledge base about the technical aspects of building a site but mostly it was the constant indecision about how much I wanted to share about The Wholly Grail and my work… completely counter to my natural propensity towards sharing… but then I had never had anything taken from me before. Because I give so freely of my work and pretty much everything else I have, nobody has ever felt the need to take what’s mine when it’s always been so apparent that asking for it would yield such gifts and flow of generosity that underhanded tactics would prove unnecessary.

It yielded an ego response from me. That’s what ownership is: ego. It comes from a place of lack and a fear of not having enough. We live in a proprietary world where what’s yours is yours and what’s mine is my own. But more importantly and more accurately it almost stopped the flow. I almost abandoned the whole idea of not just the membership platform but of sharing Grail insights at all. Then something amazing happened…

Did I already mention where true inspiration comes from?

The Grail is an ancient concept that has been fed to many minds over many millennia straight from the mind of God. The uniqueness of The Wholly Grail is determined by the manner in which I interpret the universal flow of intelligence through the filter of my own experiences.

When I release my grip on ownership I begin to understand that though the copyright may remain with me, the information has been given to help mankind, and it was given to me, to flow through me, exactly because of my joy of sharing.

That being said… as a gift to the whole world on this the longest day of the year, Midsummer’s Day no less, I am opening up the first phase of the membership site later this afternoon. You can join as a ‘Seeker’ which is a FREE membership status and get delicious access to the basics of the secret Grail Mechanics that hide in plain site to throw you off the path, as well as 3 upcoming members only workshops with me… and first hand news of when the site will be open for full ‘Grail Knight’ membership and what that will provide to guide you along your path to inner peace, enlightenment and living an empowered life.

So to recap… God owns everything, if you grip onto it you kill it dead… if you let it go you let it flow… sharing is the key to receiving more… exchange of energy makes it grow faster… you don’t have to take someone else’s, yours is on its way if you allow it to come… and the membership site goes live this afternoon… got it? Good.

I’ve immensely enjoyed sharing… it’s Principle 7 in action… Please share this too if it resonates (you never know who might find The Wholly Grail an invaluable tool).

More later… (a lot more if you sign up for FREE today) x

 

 

Monday Mind Manoeuvre – The Truth About Abundance

I hope you had an opportunity to read the Intuitive Chalice Oracle post from Saturday, it pointed at a week of taking care of our basic material needs with a view to smashing through our limiting poverty consciousness and beliefs about lack. Let’s instead then start to focus on the truth about abundance.

The Wholly Grail is all about flow and the peace we find in flow. You can take that concept and give it an image: the Grail Cup or Chalice… imagine that full of whatever you want…

Now a full cup is a beautiful thing, it represents plenty, but it is also a finite amount and the universe just doesn’t work that way. Everything in the universe is energy and energy is renewable, constantly changing form without diminishing and therefore infinite. That being said, if you stop the flow it will divert elsewhere.

When your cup is full, if you block the flow, like placing your hand over a wine glass when you’ve got enough, you cut off the abundance of the universe. Scarcity thinking will set in soon after as you take a sip from the glass and realise it’s contents are now depleting. You become protective of it, obsess about it, measure it, sip less regularly to make it last… basically begin to focus on how little you have instead of how free flowing life previously was.

The truth about abundance is that it requires 4 joyful actions on your part:

  1. Believe there is always more to come
  2. Be grateful for what you have already
  3. Share your gifts graciously
  4. Get out of the way of the flow

The flow, wants you to want it, the moment you say no, usually by disbelieving it’s possible, it feels rejected and diverts to those who play with it, love it, and have fun with it, welcoming abundance into their lives and the lives of those around them.

Transform your vision now into a Grail Cup or Chalice that is full but this time, instead of placing your hand over the rim to stop the flow, feel your excitement rise as it spills over and begins to spread, laugh with delight at its carefree spillage… it’s not wasteful, share the excess with everyone you love, those in need, those who welcome the flow and agree to abide by the four rules of abundance… now you can have fun with it together.

There is always more so have an abundant Monday (and everyday after that)!

More later… x

Why Would You Want To Be Anybody Else?

They say the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence… living next door to a lovely retired couple as I do, the two of them both keen gardeners, this adage is actually very true in my case. A pristine lawn (devoid of buttercups), though appealing is far from my priority in life and I don’t hanker after a keeping up with the neighbours kind of life.

The general feeling this week from those I’ve been in contact with has had a similar feel. Not about grass you understand but about an underlying envy that directs people’s choices and somehow forces them to recreate what’s already been done.

We are each a unique manifestation of God, and Big G gave you a unique set of attributes, talents and skills with which to make magic… why wound you want to be anybody else?

The differences that you work so hard to hide or to correct as if He somehow made a mistake are a part of the greatest tapestry in existence. Attempting to morph into the nearest pretty, outwardly perfect specimen, is attempting to diminish the diversity of the pattern that exists as chaos in our eyes but as perfection from a higher perspective.

When a human being attempts perfection on a local scale, they create bland sameness… when The Divine creates perfection on a universal scale, It creates awe, wonder, inspiration and magic.

You may not have the perfect lawn, the perfect bikini body, the perfect Hollywood-white smile, or the perfect anything on the surface… but that’s all it is: surface.

That lawn my be laced with chemical weed killer and its owner using it as a way to avoid engaging with the world outside, that bikini body may endure living on lettuce leaves and wither at the thought of being seen as nothing more than “meat” despite a beautiful mind. That smile may be fake. hiding tears and trauma that nobody will ever know about because how can you possibly be sad with such a brilliant smile?

Everyone is subject to their own personal pain, and no matter how sexy they make it look on the outside, yours is the only pain you’re equipped to handle… The external qualities Big G gave you were specifically set up to teach you what you needed to know to become who you needed to be to achieve what you needed to achieve… if you then chose to become something else, someone else, then you took all the gifts He gave you and dropped them on the floor like an ungrateful toddler who was far more interested in taking what someone else was given.

Take what you have and nurture it. Nobody else has what you have and nobody else can recreate it.

Principle 1: I AM God

More later… when I’ve tended the lawn (buttercups and all)… x

 

Maintaining Focus In The Face Of Distraction

I’m devout in my spiritual daily practice, not for any other reason than it helps me stay well. When I say well I mean balanced in mind, body and soul, but over the last few days it has been almost impossible maintaining focus in the face of distraction.

Daily practice for me begins with journaling, is followed by meditation and I end the day the same way. I take a few minutes out in the afternoon to check in with my Higher Power (what I refer to as God, though I’m aware you may have a different name for It).

When that routine is disturbed for whatever reason, I feel the absence of focus begin to creep in almost immediately… you know that feeling that you’ve forgotten something important? Having that routine disturbed for a few days though, and I start to feel genuinely unhappy. I’ve been two days with a disturbed practice. It started on day one as a necessity and continued as an experiment… “what’s the worst that could happen?” I didn’t always have this routine and I must have survived before it or I wouldn’t be here, right? The experiment was kind of like seeing what it would be like to go cold turkey to break a habit… is it just a habit?

Daily practice, whatever it may be, is fundamental to my wellbeing. I used the word unhappy to describe something indescribable, but let me break it down for you:

No focus, no direction, impending sense of doom, overwhelming feeling of being alone even in a crowd, physical lethargy, headaches, anxiety, inability to cope with stressful situations, poor digestion even… all because I thought “what’s the worst that could happen?”

When Saturday’s oracle honed in on Self-Full Living (Principle 6), and particularly on taking care of your self-care/personal grooming in order to build confidence, it’s also worth noting that you are a human holy trinity: your mind, your body and your spirit require restoration and respect through meditation.

You deserve to be at the top of your own priority list, and a simple daily practice can help you achieve not just confidence but also health, happiness, balance, insight, connection and focus.

I’m off now to do just that before anything else.

More later… x

 

Fighting With The Fear Of Freedom

Years ago, weary and jaded by the corporate grind, downtrodden by the internal politics of the all-too-familiar company dynamic, unable to affect real change for myself or my employees even as a senior manager, I decided that the only logical course of action open to me that didn’t mean me collapsing into another cycle of blind apathy was to quit.

Scary shit man! I mean, walking away from the stability of a decent salary at the height of a countrywide recession when you have a mortgage to pay and no clue what to do next…

That was beginning of my placing my full trust in the universe to guide me, the start of my spiritual adventure and the unification of my everyday material life with my soul’s direction for me. I’m not going to tell you I wasn’t terrified about being income-less and dependant on my then husband’s meagre wage, but the truth was that the moment I walked out of the front door of that multi-million pound personal prison, the relief I felt melted away all the fear of lack and was replaced by sheer determination.

My first task was to decide where life was going to take me next…

That’s the crux of this story… I had to decide.

Freedom is the scariest place on Earth if you have spent your life following someone else’s rules, policies, timetables, agendas… basically towing the company line. For the first time you stand there and go: what do I do? Which way do I go? God, what is my purpose?

You are so used to having your life mapped out that you panic and latch on to the first guru that seems to have got it all together, or the family member or friend that says “do this,” or “do that.”

That very voice that had you break out of the gilded cage though, will rise up within you and scream “You lead the way. We fought for the right to choose our own path now don’t give it away!”

But you’re so used to being told what to do… and now you’re fighting with the fear of freedom. The fear stems from deep within where you have yet to understand the power of responsibility, that place where you only have yourself to blame… and once you understand that blame is a redundant emotion wrapped up in judgement and self-criticism, you can swap it out for self-appreciation that regardless of whether you succeed or lose, you took the reins of the chariot and began blazing a trail of your own into the wilds of who knows where…

And when you ask God what your purpose is, He simply smiles knowing that He didn’t have to say a word for you to find it… to find you… to find freedom the moment you decided to choose for yourself.

If you are completely lost for a direction to choose then try this affirmation instead of letting someone else choose:

“God bring me a multitude of exciting opportunities today that I may sample, and choose for myself whichever brings me passion.”

Principle 1, 3, 4, 5 and 6 (that’s a whole lot of Principles!)

More later… x

 

First Monday Challenge – Revealing The Master Illusionist

After a lot of consideration I decided to follow this train of thought to see where it led me. Being the first Monday of the month, shying away from whatever is challenging is against my self-declared process and so we must be prepared to dive deep down the rabbit hole in search of our own answers and face head on what scares us the most. In my case that would be in revealing the master illusionist.

First let us understand the illusion a little better…

Someone has led you back to the point where you fall asleep and forget that you’ve been here before. I don’t mean in the reincarnation sense of having lived a physical life in a different time in a different body, though that would demonstrate this cycle on a lager scale, I mean you are going around and around with something, never really moving forward but instead being lulled into believing you are making progress when really you are being controlled, manipulated, placated. Like placing a dummy (pacifier) into the mouth of a crying baby and whispering “there there,” as the child settles and sleeps believing, at least temporarily, that the very thing that made them cry has been solved.

The master illusionist is a comforter and the means’ by which he or she comforts are mere distractions from that which would bring permanent relief and escape from the repetition of pain and peace…

Addiction is an easy hook by which to control. The promise of the substance provides a lure, the provision of a small sample of the craved for poison buys the illusionist time… is it a drug, alcohol, food, videogames, sex and romance, shopping? That temporary relief provides the “Ah yes, this time I will have what I want and this feeling I have now is proof that it’s on its way.” And now you’re asleep once more. You’ve forgotten that you’ve had a taste of this so-called proof before and you’ve forgotten that however many times you’ve repeated “it will be different this time,” here you are again.

Revealing the master illusionist is simple: who benefits from keeping you in denial of your true situation? Who now has perceived limitations as an excuse for stilted expansion? Who has created an infrastructure set up to withhold connection and intimacy? Who has ensured nobody has expectations of them that cannot be fulfilled thus negating the chance of failure, rejection and ridicule?

There will always be mirrors of the illusionist, others sent to highlight the original, those who have identified the strings, bonds and chains. They will, offer samples of the things you crave, take advantage of the devoted clientele you provide, but the true face of the master illusionist is the one that seeks out a new source of poison when a vendor dries up, the one that finds replacement numbing agents to lull you back to sleep when the pain of being awake gets to unbearable. The master illusionist will always be YOU… and the illusion will always be that you are helpless to help yourself. Only the poison changes form and whatever form it takes you convince yourself it holds all the power.

Today’s challenge is to stay awake, even if you partake of your own particular poison, do so with your eyes wide open and acknowledge the decision consciously.

At every moment through today and this week when you choose to indulge in distraction or addiction, repeat the words “I know what I’m doing and I’m choosing to do it anyway… at least until I find a permanent solution and my freedom no longer frightens me.”

Principles 3 & 5. Later this week I might go deeper into why we fear freedom.. but for now…stay awake.

More later… x

Sad It’s Gone, Happy It Came

May is my absolute favourite month of the year. I just realised it was over and we have arrived into June almost in stealth mode. I was writing in my journal yesterday morning and paused to date the entry, I was overcome with a brief moment of sadness about it’s passing. I wrote: “Sad it’s gone, happy it came” and transformed that moment into deep gratitude for what is, what was and what may still be to come.

Last year, I remember having that same feeling on the Summer Solstice, (which is once again fast approaching). Instead of revelling in the midsummer festivities, I was overcome with a single thought: “it’s all downhill from here!” Not exactly the optimist’s angle of approach to things is it? But then again I was in a much different place last year and at the time I pulled myself up and reminded myself that it was “Flaming June” and there was fun to be had… make hay while the sun shines and all that stuff.

This whole attitude I was temporarily taken in by is about something much more fundamental than just the passing seasons, it’s about the climb, the pursuit, the chase… always having something to look forward to.

Principle 2: I AM Detached, asks that we remain present in the current moment… that, combined with appreciation is the antidote to any ending or at least the associated feelings of loss. The human condition though, for most of us, needs a driving ambition. When we stop climbing we start falling, when we stop growing we start dying. This cyclical force is a natural part of the duality of the entire universe in constant motion… you must honour every part of it, every age, every stage of the great procession.

Whatever you are rising towards now, you will eventually reach and then you must rise towards something new, the next stage of your journey will be different, but it will be equally as beautiful, equally as filled with moments and new memories and just as much an adventure as this current phase.

Give thanks for the climb, gives thanks for the conquer, give thanks for the decline and give thanks for the release… all serves the quest and allows a new beginning to be born again and again. May will come again and that’s something to look forward to while I play nice with the rest of the year.

More later… x

Preparing On Purpose

Be prepared. What does that even mean? As the motto of a boy scout it seems like a worthwhile pursuit, but how exactly do you expect to be prepared for the unexpected?

You are prepared, at least as well as you can be, for whatever life has to throw at you, simply because you have spent your entire life preparing for this moment… yes, this one.

Everything that has ever happened to you, every person you have ever met, every conversation you have ever participated in, everything you have witnessed, experienced, learned and done, has been in preparation for this moment. You see, God does nothing by accident. If you look back at your life you can clearly see the synchronicity of each event and how it smoothly led to the next which eventually brought you to this place. And no matter how ready (or not) you felt to undergo each transition through initiation by fire, you got here… that means you were ready and life had prepared you for the level of success or failure it required to get you to the next step…

Success or failure?

Yep! That’s what I said. Only The Great Unseen has the big picture and so what you see, as success may actually be the opposite of the catalyst you need to move the pieces across the cosmic chessboard towards your destined outcome, big picture success could require small detail failure, at least for now. But win or lose, the experience is the preparation for the next bit.

Now of course the boy scouts could be referring to the contrived concept of preparing on purpose….

Imagine for a moment you’re about to go on a first date. What does preparation look like then? Oh my goodness the lengths we go to, just in case: scrubbed, shaved, waxed, buffed, plucked, preened… moisturised, manicured, and that’s all before we select the perfect outfit… do we wear super-sexy, girl next door, casual, formal? What about shoes? Oh yeah, and do we go for the Bridget Jones knickers or the matching skimpy set? Now if you’re a boy I’d imagine the process is similar if a little less lengthy and stereotypically more focused on whether your car is waxed and buffed than your body, but what’s the point of all of this?

Are you now preparing on purpose for every possible eventuality or are you simply focusing on the external causes of your own lacking self-esteem in an attempt to convince yourself that you can cover up your imperfections? If that’s the case than I suggest that your preparation time would be better spent on learning to appreciate how beautiful you are from the inside out. Nothing is more attractive that confidence, self- love and the ability to shine your Divine essence in spite of outward appearance.

This applies to all events and encounters… you are ready now for whatever Big G sends your way…. if you aren’t ready, it won’t arrive anyway. Remember this: you are in exactly the right place at the right time, with all the appropriate training and wherewithal for whatever is coming your way. Succeed or fail, win or lose… this moment is yours. Don’t waste it on wondering if you have the right knickers on. If it’s worth all the fuss then the fuss won’t matter.

Principles 1, 2 & 6, included above, can be found here.

More later… x