I forgot a cardinal rule this week and it caused a stall in the flow of creativity. In order to kick start that creativity I felt the need to kick against a fixed point… a bit like a sprinter pushing hard against the blocks at ready, set, go! Unfortunately in the game of life, pushing against a fixed point usually means creating some form of personal drama as drama, in its own right is fuel for a good story… but it’s hardly helpful in creating a peaceful life. Creativity on the other hand is essential for bending the light of Source energy into a form that pleases you and fulfils your needs to move the story along.
So what was the cardinal rule?
You don’t need a reason to create.
This morning I awoke and had an urge to paint, my logical brain then piped up and said: “How is that going to move you forward on the path?” I basically chastised myself for wasting time on triviality when work needed to be done. The truth is, I make my own deadlines for work, what if today I don’t want to move forward? What if I want to sit and explore right now through a different creative medium? What if by painting I find a new passion that God wants me to use in my work? What if I really enjoy myself?
My creativity stalled because I felt I needed to mould it into a productive form that fits within the boundaries of my conventional day to day tasks, that the outcome needed to be useful in some way or strategic, calculating even. Instead of just creating from my intuitive guidance, for my pleasure, I told myself it had to have a point and a discernable purpose. My inner child had a plan and my outer grown up shat all over it from a great height… and then the well was dry.
Convention, when living a fulfilling, peaceful, joyful life, is a prison whose walls not only confine you but drain the life and light out of you…
I’ve got an overgrown garden, 3 half written training programmes in progress, meditations to record, research to complete and the next chapter of The Wholly Grail book to write… I’m off to get my paints out, sod it!
Principle 2: I AM Detached and Principle 5: I AM Liberated.
More later… x