Last One Standing

What’s your superpower?

I was struck by a realisation recently with regards to the trials and tribulations that we constantly find ourselves in, that we are looking at the whole thing back to front. As cycles and seasons turn we often recognise the patterns our lives follow and begin to feel let down when the same set of footprints appear to be trampled in what we hoped would be virgin snow or a new chapter of the adventure.

I noticed the amount of posts from friends on my Facebook feed saying 2017 is going to be different and I confess I had a momentary surge of jaded cynicism rise up within me when I remembered the posts from last year… saying the same thing… it quickly receded and was replaced by a sense of appreciation for what has transpired over the last 12 months, fully recognising the familiar patterns for what they were… aspects of my very own superpower waiting to be acknowledged.

My realisation constitutes a simple flip in perspective: begin to see your greatest challenges as a flimsy disguise for your superpowers…

For me, patience seems to be my life long lesson, my bugbear and karmic cross to carry through this lifetime… or so I thought until I flipped the notion and began to understand that my capacity for patience, waiting, endurance and sheer staying power is greater than that of most people I know… The things I’ve waited for in life, many would have (and indeed have) given up on years ago as I continued to believe and still continue to believe… Do I like waiting? Do I hell as like! I’m not particularly gracious at it either; waiting with grace being the very definition of patience… but I am invariably the last one standing in the game.

That’s not a challenge by the way, for any of my friends, acquaintances, clients and colleagues who think that its ok to waste my time on such matters. No indeed, my superpower is closely linked to my faith and my faith to the value of that for which I’m prepared to wait.

So now, using this idea by posing to yourself the question: what is my greatest repetitive challenge in life? Now sift through your history and recollect all the times you were faced with that challenge and survived it beyond the capacity of that shown by those around you.

See, you too are a superhero and now you’ve recognised your power you will never look at those challenges quite the same again and 2017 really can be a better year.

Feel free to leave me a comment on what your superpower is when you recognise it, I’d love to shout out to all the superheroes in my orbit.

Principle 1: I AM God, Principle 3: I AM Human and Principle 4: I AM Truth.

More later… x

 

Might Be Out Of Balance

I’ve had a weird few weeks. Struck down by a pretty persistent chest infection about 3 weeks ago, I set about putting myself first in an effort to take my own Grail advice and embrace Principle 6: I AM Self-Full, the art of self-care. Being a healer, quite often we forget to do the work on ourselves and where our instincts when someone else is ill are sharp, under the spell of our personal infirmity we are quick to lose sight of the healing power for which we are natural channels.

All that being said, I invested in some cough medicine for a chesty cough… (have you ever noticed how many types of cough they sell medicine for? I don’t bloody know if it’s a dry cough, a chesty cough, a mucus cough or a bloody skydiving hedgehogs cough… I just need cough medicine)!!! Anyway, ┬áThe last thing I need is to be half asleep as well as barking like a dog so a non-drowsy formula was the order of the day… I haven’t slept a night since.

Arriving just prior to the newly nicknamed “frazzle moon” that I mentioned last week, disturbed sleep patterns were shunted into overdrive when a stream of near insanity driven dreams began to crop up, fielding a very abstract view of the current state of my life. Anyone else think I might be out of balance?

Out of balance is a concept that is often bandied around the MBS network, but what does it actually mean?

In Grail terms its a simple description of the 2-way flow of energy embraced by Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted, meaning to give and receive in equal measure. We assume this to be about giving and receiving between people but not so… take everyone else out of the equation for a moment and come back to Principle 6, being Self-Full, how much have you given back to yourself this year? Think in terms of appreciation, gratitude, admiration, time off from external stresses. Think about the flow of energy between you and your Source, service balanced with meditation and rest for example.

Being Open-Hearted is a symbol of flow. Like the physical heart whose valves take in life blood and pump out life blood in equal measure, so too are you supposed to allow energy and life itself to follow this same path… like inhaling and exhaling.

For a short while I’m in the process of inhaling, the art of self care is the ability to receive what you need from the universe before you begin to exhale and give back. The season of good will doesn’t exclude you, make sure you’re being good to yourself.

To all my friends who are feeling under the weather at present, my present to you is simply to tell you that you don’t need permission to take a breath.

More later… x

First Monday Challenge – When Not To Compromise

Along the path we often find ourselves, having completed a stage of the journey, reflecting on the lessons and blessings that came with it. We consolidate the ups and downs into wisdom by combining the new knowledge and the visceral experience, the memory of the pain and the pleasure into a metaphorical talisman of protection to remind us what pitfalls to avoid the next time around…

But this path is a tricky little sucker in that it disguises those same patterns with new faces, locations, situations and scenarios just to see if you are paying attention. The moment you complete the lesson, that’s when the test comes.

As its the first Monday of the last month of the year, no doubt you have had many lessons and many blessings since the year began, no doubt replete with many successes and many failures… the need for universal balance dictates that it should be so. So what of today’s challenge?

The universe is sending you an end of year test:

You’ve said goodbye to much, closed the door on some, closed the book on others… you’ve left the gate open for hopes and dreams but slammed your heart shut to potential pain… and here you are, another year gone. Some of you are celebrating an extraordinary year and others are sinking into despair and wondering why you’re here again…

Your challenge, should you choose to accept it is to recall all the times this year you were afraid to take a risk, afraid to step beyond you comfort zone. Don’t dwell there in victim mode asking “why me?” simply acknowledge you had a choice and thus empowering yourself to see a different choice when that opportunity arises again. Now, having done your retrospective risk assessment, look back at all the times you’ve compromised over the last year, all the times you caved in under either external pressure or internal habit or addiction… again, don’t dwell there, just acknowledge and accept that you had a choice in that moment however much it appeared otherwise and empower yourself to choose more wisely next time the opportunity arises.

Now then… The universe has decided that the lesson is complete. You will be tested this week, maybe even today… based on all you’ve learned, it’s your job to know when to take a risk or when not to compromise.

If you closed your heart to pain, you closed it to life and to love and to joy as well… when you shield your heart centre you will never be able to take a risk never learn to fly in an incredible leap of faith and you will constantly compromise on everything.

Isn’t it time your talisman was heart-shaped, open, trusting and full of wonder? Let love in.

Principle 3: I AM Human and Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted.

More later… x

Saturday Oracle – Calling The Control Tower

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Anxiety levels are on the rise and its not just because of the impending holidays…

Since Last Tuesday’s new moon I have been in contact with numerous people who have been overcome with an intense stress energy that is apparently set to lead us into this coming week.

When Principle 2: I AM Detached meets the overly fizzy orange of the sacral chakra, the central nervous system becomes frazzled by the onslaught of stress hormones such as cortisol and adrenalin pushing us into high alert and depleting vital resources and coping skills.

About two years ago I was suffering from an eye injury compounded by my body misinterpreting the threat and undertaking the task of attacking itself instead of the problem. In danger of losing my sight, that meant I had to take massive doses of steroids to suppress my immune response for an extended amount of time. Steroids are basically pharmacological versions of those stress hormones I mentioned earlier… The result was terrifying.

For several months I felt as though I had fractured my own mind, watching an internal battle play out between the different aspects of self over the most basic decisions like whether or not it was a good idea to make a cup of tea and partake of the beverage after 9.30 pm… not exactly a life threatening choice but enough that I began to panic as one version of me argued for and one argued against all the while the sane higher self was desperately trying to get them to listen to reason in that it made no difference whatsoever… my lovely mum eventually settled the argument via the phone, like landing a unmanned airplane remotely from the control tower.

It sounds funny now but the blind panic, shaking, surging anxiety and feeling of being out of control of even the most basic things is a very frightening experience.

In the last few days, these feelings, to a much lesser degree have begun to surface… luckily, being many months now free of prescription pharmaceutical aid (both eyeballs intact), the road to recovery is much less frightening and at least now recognisable without calling the control tower!

Imagine my surprise though when others started reporting in similar symptoms…

Here’s the thing, 2016 has been a year of clearing, literally letting go of the old, of endings. The New Moon, reported to be bringing love and abundance was a magical doorway highlighting the residue of the years work and reminding you that constant letting go causes perforations in the subtle bodies making you extra sensitive to both internal shifts and external manipulation.

Staying present is the most effective method of survival through this short-term flux. Your mind is your enemy during times of stress… your body is your friend… mindfulness is key. Focus on your breath, relaxing each muscle group in order, let go of anywhere you are holding tension and avoid asking why, acknowledging what’s happening during a panic attack is often enough to release its grip. Be very gentle with yourself this week avoid high stress environments and people, and use the age old mantra: this too shall pass.

Back next week… x