The Art of Mardy

I know I appear to have been missing in action for a few days but actually I was right here where you left me, taking full advantage of a few internet connection burps and farts by indulging in a little me time as far as refuelling the creative urge is concerned and also proving that sisters are doing it for themselves by slapping a bit of paint around the residence. I have to admit the place is becoming very girly, little by little, and it feels much more me now.

I wanted to finish the week (or start in this case) by giving a heads up to the art of mardy… (thanks for the inspiration Dawn/Holly/Mum/etc).

Mardy, for those of you considered to be foreign, (which is basically anybody not born and bred in Sheffield, South Yorkshire), is a word used to describe someone who is feeling low in energy or mood and displaying irritability or a short temper as a result, basically a downright grumpy git!

As a Grail Knight I am sensitive to general energies and global shifts and it has become apparent that loads of people have over the last week or so, discovered the art of mardy. It’s an epidemic, the likes of which I have not known (well not for a good few months anyway).

The prolem isn’t that everyone, particularly the girls, are feeling irritable, it’s that they are all going “Whoaa! Where did that come from?” because it’s out of context in the upswing of recent weeks…. like some big orange fellow just ran up tangoed you with the mardy stick! Let me put you out of your misery: it’s the moon. Today in the Western hemisphere is a black moon, meaning the second new moon in a month. Now the black moon is only a date really but the intense energy is this moon rising in Scorpio on the back end of that blessed portal, closing just a few days ago… Scorpio has some pretty passionate energy about it so you will feel things deeply as the clearing out and making room you’ve just done has left you in the void, that beautiful nothingness where seeds must be planted… did you have a plan and seeds at the ready?

An astrologer, which I’m not, could give you the finer details and that’s not what you’re here for so I’m going to give you the lowdown on actually being constructive when your feeling mardy:

This is a time of positive transformation so don’t fight how you feel however contrary it may seem. Now is the time to rest, to plan, to plant seeds for your future and to nurture your sensitive nature. Avoid stressful situations or people and ask the angels to step in and cleanse and protect your aura. Get friendly with the bubble bath and indulge your feminine side (even if you’re a bloke)… in Grail terms this is a time for activating Principle 6: I AM Self-Full, but most of all remember “This too shall pass.”

Happy Black Moon… you’ve earned the right to display the art of mardy… at least until the weekend is over.

I’ll be back tomorrow with an oracle reading for you all… x

 

 

Saturday Oracle – The Dream Weaver

Grail Oracle 7Grail Oracle Indigo

Reality transforms from the inside out. Having been hand delivered a new set of tools from the Divine in the way of ideas, concepts and hopes, filtered through some fairly strange and intense dreams over the last few days, you can now start the process of implementation.

Internal Alchemy happens when you begin to transmute lower, heavy vibrations and stuck patterns, allowing life to follow your renewed intent towards a higher frequency… towards joy, health and abundance.

The Dream Weaver is someone who knits together that vision and prophesy of a better tomorrow with the fabric of reality simply by dreaming that new life into existence.

This week Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted meets the deep indigo of the brow chakra and offers you the opportunity to dream your new life into existence. This skill has rules though, to be open-hearted means to release all judgement of the way life shows up for you, to be accepting of whatever Spirit/Source sees fit to bestow in answer to your skilful dreaming or prayer… if you lock down the finer details you will restrict the level of experience God intends for you.

So let’s see: dream it, believe it, stay open to receive it, and most of all, however life shows up for you this week be grateful for it… you are The Dream Weaver: you create it as you go… co-create something amazing by allowing your heart and mind to sing in unison with the universal flow of abundance.

More next week… x

‘Til Death Do Us Part

Now here’s a subject I don’t broach very often…

A beautiful friend of mine has become obsessed with his own mortality. He must mention it at least twice a week by slipping it in to an otherwise jovial interaction. I’m not sure if he is intending me to notice or if he has even noticed himself, but this underlying fear of his own mortal end (though he will insist that he has reconciled with the fact that all life must in fact cease eventually), has subtly changed his behaviour, so I’m going to attempt a Wholly Grail take on it… not on death itself, for at that moment your Grail is full as you finally and fully return back to Source, but instead on the fear of dying, of leaving those you love behind, of not quite getting done what you intended… but more importantly, holding back on starting something new just in case.

Just in case… that’s a death in itself isn’t it? You deny yourself joy just in case you can’t finish it… it’s like really wanting a big piece of chocolate fudge cake with lashings of ice cream after dinner but then not ordering for fear you can’t finish it… sod that for a game of soldiers: indulge, enjoy, savour every minute, no matter how many minutes you may or may not have left or how many spoonfuls you can demolish before your tummy screams stop!

Those you share your life with will weep, they will feel the pain of your loss, they will grieve, they will heal, and they will remember… or you can deny them that piece of chocolate cake that is you by withholding the love inside for fear that it might be soon taken away.

God is in charge of the chocolate cake and it’s portions, whatever fears you have, however justified, you just don’t know… He does (and He’s not saying).

Principle 2: I AM Detached is the art of being present, of living loving, giving, sharing… right here in this moment. No matter your age, your health, your positive or negative outlook, we’re all heading exactly the same way to exactly the same destination and this journey is simply ’til death do us part.

Your only decision is this: am I going to savour the chocolate cake while I can?

More later… (whilst I’m still here to indulge) x

Far More Profound

I have to admit that its been unusually difficult to write this post. I don’t mean difficult in an emotional sense, but in a creative sense. I seem to have got myself all turned around, unfocused and adrift. You might think that I’m still in holiday mode after my jaunt to Glastonbury but in actual fact where I’ve been for the last 24 hours is more akin to a visit to in internal jumble sale…

Imagine if you will, a mishmash of information and subtle intuitions arriving en masse in no particular order and taking up residence inside your head. Now do you best to either ignore or make sense of it… that’s where I’ve been.

I decided to spend yesterday doing a combination of practical physical work as mundane as I could muster (like laundry) and intermittent meditation to return to Source and clear my thoughts. Each time I entered a meditative state though, being a channel, more information flooded in, each time, I touched clarity but upon my return, the jumble sale increased. Instead of returning from Avalon with an overflowing cup, I arrived home with an overflowing head!

Recapturing the inner peace offered by the Wholly Grail isn’t a hard task once you identify the essence of what’s wrong and for me a combination of two Principles have switched off the psychic bombardment in an instant and returned my equilibrium, grounding me and cleansing away the residue whilst allowing me to hold the information… Principle 2: I AM Detached requires absolute presence. You cannot be grounded in the present when you’re attempting to reconcile the past or anticipate the future, now is where it’s happening and I’m at home here in this place of instant manifestation. Principle 4: I AM Truth dictates the need for trust that there may be a dichotomy between what you feel to be correct for you and what another states as gospel, history or fact, and that dichotomy is natural and acceptable.

Nothing I learned on my travels matches the guidebooks, that’s ok. Nothing I felt on my travels matches the rumours, that’s ok too. Nothing I learned about myself in the process matches my expectations, that’s a confirmation that the class I taught prior to leaving, about expectation leading to disappointment was right on point, and that’s ok too… what I did learn was that the Grail Principles are far more profound than even I imagined and that I have something important to do… and I learned that the way I do it will not suit everyone… and that’s fine too.

If you have been enjoying The Wholly Grail free insights then please share them, give others an opportunity to make their own mind’s up. If you are seeing one of my posts for the first time then scroll back through the archives and also explore the basic Principles, find your way to that place of peace within you… you won’t find it out there, that’s the point in case you missed it… I did, and I will again, but I have 7 easy steps to find my way home… follow me, I know the way.

More later… x

 

Saturday Oracle – Devoid of All Chattels

Grail Oracle 5Grail Oracle Blue

Imagine for a moment that you were devoid of all chattels… all earthly possessions, status, history, etc. Who would you be?

As the effects of yesterday’s eclipsed full moon in pieces drift away we still have a few days left in Mercury’s retrograde grip before the tight hold on our communicative skills is lifted… but before that happens you are being given a rare opportunity…

Now is the time to say what needs saying, no holds barred, allowing your words to be guided, not by need, or by results, or the expectation that they will pay dividends but because it’s been held within you for fear of loss for so long.

I’m not suggesting for a moment that words don’t have consequences, indeed they are mightier than the proverbial sword, the consequences are not yet written but the result of withholding is and has been all too evident.

Principle 5: I AM Liberated, combined with the royal blue of the throat chakra is charging your oracle this week with final stages of the portal to set yourself free.

Speak with compassion and don’t be afraid of what you might lose, you have far more to gain in your honesty, knowing that what comes was made by your magic and what stays was always meant to be yours. Belongs and status have nothing to do with humanity or wisdom… you matter, as do your thoughts and feelings.

More next week… x

Gracious in Victory

I thought long and hard about writing this post. Part of me wanted to defer its subject matter until some kind of outcome has been determined for fear of jeopardising any longed for results, but I’m guided by angels and I’m guided by emotions and when something moves me to write then write I must regardless of the potential results.

I blossomed in joy yesterday when glimpses of my destination (a personal dream) appeared on the horizon with subtle hues of reflected beauty. Already walking a lighter path of late, this wave of encouragement was greeted with a heart full of love and anticipation for whatever comes this way, and my smile, both internally and externally was there for all to witness.

By the evening though, I understood a simple truth: up until now I had played the role of the gracious loser and this time as I appear to be furlongs ahead in the race towards victory, someone else would have to be licking their wounds.

If you have ever been in such a position you will know that when life and love and passion have been poured into a dream, to lose to someone else at the last hurdle is a gut wrenching experience. Self-esteem, worthiness, pride, they all come under heavy questioning in our unforgiving ego’s quest to justify what seems like destiny’s desperately unfair evaluation of the race… that’s why when it comes to competition – I move over, I always have… but not this time: God wouldn’t allow it, the prize wouldn’t allow it. Along the way I forgot it was ever a race, I began to walk, to appreciate the scenery along the way. I recognised that whatever the outcome, I’d already won.

but in the great universal balancing act somebody has to lose.

The glimpse that appeared on the horizon yesterday to make me rise and blossom, was fully visible to make another wither and fall. And I feel it… pride and hubris have no place on the path.

To be gracious in victory is to be compassionate about the pain and suffering of all the beautiful souls on this path… all the Grail Knights seeking that which was never missing from them, being denied access to the love at the centre of their quests, and as such I questioned: would it be wrong of me to express my joy? No… for I have searched long and hard to find my core and that joy, that victory that I already feel, though officially the race is not yet won, is mine to celebrate. But to gloat would I be a misuse of the gifts I have been given, in poor taste and at the expense of another human being, and so I send love… I send angels, I send my gratitude and healing, that should I ever again be the one to be gracious in defeat, let me be healed by the return of the ever flowing light to which I have contributed and refused to dim.

Your turn will come.

Principle 3: I AM Human

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full

But most of all Principle 1: I AM God and I AM Love.

More later… (when I return from my pilgrimage to Avalon, though I will pack the Intuitive Chalice Oracle for Saturday) x

Down and Dirty

As a species we have become programmed over time to consider the concept of “Monday” as a time to go back to work. I, being a contrary little bleeder, decided that wasn’t for me a long time ago and even when working for an employer, chose a job where 9 to 5 was laughed at.

Today I work for myself, or more to the point I work for Big G… He didn’t actually command that Sunday was a day of rest, what He actually said was to keep it holy (and just because He took the day off after 6 days creating Earth, He soon saw his mistake in creating us because ever after Sunday became His busiest day)!

Anyhoo, after a weekend of some pretty intense learning, and deep spiritual self-work, today for me isn’t exactly a day off but it is a day without schedule, a day without agenda and to some extent a day without people… Deep soul work can occasionally over tax the system and the mind and the best antidote for that is to get down and dirty with nature… and that’s my plan.

I have a date with the faeries and wildlife hiding in the unruly overgrowth that is my garden today because I deserve to be surrounded by beauty and fresh air… as do you.

I understand that I’m lucky to have that choice and that you may be more restricted in your ability to leave the office or whatever occupies you on this Monday morning, so in honour of your need to be Self-Full (as in Principle 6), make sure you take lunch outdoors if at all possible, go for a walk near some greenery, introduce some plants into the office space, eat fresh, drink plenty of water and don’t forget to be a little more playful in your approach to all you do today.

Lighten up and invite the faeries to play.

Happy Monday… x

Saturday Oracle – Crisis of Faith

Grail Oracle Chalice

I have a confession to make…

On pulling The Sacred Chalice for the 3rd time in recent weeks I broke my own rules and pulled another combination. The Intuitive Chalice Oracle works by combining ¬†one of The 7 Principles with one of the 7 colours of the rainbow pertaining to the energy centres of subtle body or chakras (as they vibrate at 3rd dimension), but there is an extra card, The Sacred Chalice which if selected, requires no additional card to complement it…

The crisis of faith I’m referring to in the title is less about the selection and more about me not believing our luck… I say ‘our’ luck because each week I pick a group combination meant for all of you reading this.

Last week I was excited because sweet love was calling in soul mate energy and this week looks set to continue the theme of abundant blessings coming your way… but…

…The Chalice, when it runneth over also demands that something be given up in order to make room. Along with the general flow of yesterday’s 999 numerological portal opening and the “completion” of cycles that it heralds, this powerful symbol represents that you are gaining confidence in your own wholeness and as a result others are beginning to mirror that back to you. Those who don’t will find that your magnetic pull on all that you desire will actually repel them.

You are starting to operate on a much higher frequency and as a result your circle of intimates is transforming as you invite in the new and the old and outworn gets washed away with the nectar of universal abundance.

Feelings of guilt will stir as will a tendency to try to hold on but you must not fight the gifts that this benevolent universe is bringing you for the sake of sentiment over the ones that have, over time become burdens.

The only crisis of faith going on is us merry lot attempting to suspend disbelief as the universe begins to deliver.

As for the second combination I pulled: Principle 1 with vibrant orange… you are worthy of the intimate relationship that’s heading your way (or if you’re in one, expect it to step up a notch and transform as you become more aware of your own worth).

May all your blessings have wings… x

The Authentic Voice – Stripped Naked

What is it you think I want to hear?

We run through life at a hundred miles an hour forgetting what this whole journey is for: connecting, learning and growing. In an effort to honour that gift I set out this week with an agenda to have no fixed schedule but to fill every moment with joy. I also, being conscientious of that, noticed how often others limited my moment to moment experience with stuff that wasn’t mine, assuming I’m not already really busy.

Now this was a week of hard work, enjoyable, inspiring, loving service, combined with conversations with beautiful friends and family… that was one of my prerequisite components to achieve the experience I was looking for… but this is briefly what I got:

Exactly what is it you think I want to hear?

Authenticity means allowing the soul to be stripped naked and vulnerable… showing feelings, not suppressing ego; letting the raw, pure self rise, fears and all into a loving, accepting open forum for healing… but all bar one of my undeniably amazing friends (thank you Sue), decided that they would pretend to have already absorbed and applied the wisdom and this time it was different.

Now you may think I’m being sceptical here until you understand that just hours later the repetitive patterns restarted in each of them.

There’s a reason that we go around the boulder time and time again instead of flowing gently downstream towards new experiences and that is simply: denial.

“I’m ascending” spoken aloud, proclaimed for all to hear, (or whatever specific words are used to express the sentiment of growth and change), is the ego’s way of convincing others that they are moving up in the world or the imaginary hierarchy of souls. It’s a symptom of a lack of self-worth and a red light to a lack of self-work.

You have nothing to prove to me. You have nothing to prove to anyone except to yourself (God within you) and no matter how loud you shout “this time it’s different” your soul will quietly sit back and watch your ego jump through every hoop and fly the trapeze at the circus knowing full well that there is always more work to do.

When you come to me and speak the words aloud “I’m drowning,” or something like it, when you no longer need to pretend you’re ok when you’re not, that’s when the authentic voice – stripped naked, takes over and ascension really begins.

You have to face the darkness in order to shine your light.

Principles 1: I AM God, & 4: I AM Truth.

More later… x

Radical Departure

The door is open, but the window is closing… the window in which to make the change by stepping through the open door.

I know you feel it, that “better the devil you know” mantra undermining your sure footed progress in pursuit of a goal, dream or transformative leap of faith, and the pull of the ever cycling karmic wheel is holding your wrist and tugging you back from the threshold with fearful questions like “What if you fail?” “What if you fall?”

Being intuitive doesn’t mean you’re immune from the effects of the inner goblin always asking you if you’re about to make a mistake but just for the sake of an experiment today ask your inner goblin this little question: “how many times have we done it your way up until now?” See the thing about repeating patterns is that you lose count really quickly and the thing about your inner goblin is he or she always starts a sentence with “Ah, but…”

The opportunity ahead of you may be a completely radical departure from your usual way of moving through life but if the goblin is honest, which to be fair he/she is merely fearful not a liar, then you’ll both have to acknowledge that in terms of where you are, the old way wasn’t working…

Walking through that door, accepting that opportunity may mean leaving something familiar behind, but to truly live up to your potential you have to be prepared to reach further, higher with every step… to become more in each breath than you were when you last inhaled… and in order to inhale ‘now and next’ you must first exhale ‘then and done.’

From where you’re standing now it may look like a giant step, but from where you’ll be tomorrow it was merely the first baby step in an entirely new direction.

Principle 2: I AM Detached

More later… x