Lesser Version of The Powerhouse

Little girls and little boys get tired. They begin to pull at their ears and rub at their eyes and engaging with them becomes increasingly less pleasant when all they really want to do is go home, pull off their little socks and lay down in a comfy spot… any spot.

Gentleness at such times is advised… dirty knees and filthy faces may have to wait now, as the harsh scrubbing away of the days debris should obviously have taken place an hour ago… but to disturb play would have been a wasted magical moment… sleep is all that matters now.

Have you ever noticed how when we pursue anything to the extreme we lose ourselves in the driving desire to feel more? Oftentimes this gratification, which I referred to as hedonism in my last post, fuels us to the point of over-stimulation and we all to soon arrive at physical exhaustion just moments after euphoria reaches a pinnacle… (in many adults this is mirrored in a post-orgasmic snooze)… and is merely a reflection of giving life your all.

The thing I’m finding fascinating though (actually, I’m finding everything fascinating at the moment) is the tendency to momentarily fall prey to the belief that you can’t affect anything when you become exhausted… that moment when you mistake an inability to think straight for being a victim or a lesser version of the powerhouse that just spent the last 10 days straight ripping around the playground of life, showing it whose wearing the ruby slippers!

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full is a deliberate statement, it means “me first.” When the little cherub is screaming whilst you’re scrubbing her knees, she isn’t interested in anything except Barnabus the fluffy bunny and bed. Her needs are immediate, she knows it and she has no idea why you feel the grubby child getting mud on the sheets is your priority instead of turning the house upside down to find said stuffed bunny so she can sleep safe… in essence, she’s responding to her own needs and all else will wait until tomorrow.

My only question to you then would be this: are you listening and responding to the needs of your inner cherub? Your body, mind and spirit need to regenerate regularly so staying in touch with your physical self and your moment to moment needs is paramount. If you’re not paying attention then tomorrow’s playtime will be a recreated nightmare and the endless summer will be well and truly over.

Work. Rest. Play… Balance. The moon’s turning dark… listen.

More later… (when I’ve had a day off and a  little nap) x

Endless Playtime

August Bank Holiday in the UK is traditionally the last fling at hedonistic abandon for kids of all ages before September arrives and with it that call back to school… I’m no exception to the rule. Embracing the inner child seems to be the theme for me at the moment as I go deeper down the rabbit hole into the light filled kingdom of bliss.

It’s a weird and long overdue sensation this hugely overflowing Grail cup that I’m currently not only drinking from but actually appear to be swimming in, and its a feeling that were I able to furnish you with it via this technological transmission, I would happily dump a mountain of blessings in your lap… and that’s the key. I learned as a little girl (and again just yesterday in fact), sharing the love, the joy, the endless playtime, goes a huge way towards centering your focus on this never-ending moment… and who wouldn’t appreciate a never-ending internal summer?

Whilst this bank holiday may be a day off for many, I’m not suggesting that irresponsibility become your way of life, I’m simply wishing for you the curiosity of a child’s spirit in everything you do… may your life, work, health and relationships be an endless playtime that you too may share wherever you go and with whomever you meet.

Principle 2: I AM Detached

More later x

The Free Mind

Grail Oracle 5Grail Oracle Indigo

A shift in perspective has opened up a new line of abundance to you and you didn’t know it was so easy to be free…

Principle 5: I AM Liberated and the deep indigo of the 3rd eye chakra have joined forces this week to congratulate you on tapping into the universal law off attraction.

You have spent years worrying about how to make the next pay check or meet the mortgage payment and quite often to the detriment of your sleep patterns and health but the meeting of these energies is a sign that you have let go into the flow of abundance simply by accepting that everything you need is already yours.

The free mind is a mind that is open to possibilities and therefore open to opportunities. It isn’t swayed by promises of material wealth and instead pursues the gratification found only in being useful, creative and of divine service. You may be asking what that looks like… well there’s that old Chinese proverb again: chop wood, carry water… or effectively, focus only on the task at hand, immerse yourself fully into everything you do and look for the payoff in the joy of presence rather than the monetary return on interest.

Visionary thinking is building up your cosmic coffers because that’s not your primary goal. Whereas your past worry was focused on how to make ends meet, your current attitude is on how much fun your having achieving it, God obliges by offering up enough of everything you need to keep the party going.

It really is that simple this week: free your mind of the how, and start enjoying the now. Release all that isn’t necessary and let God take care of the details.

Just as a mini disclaimer though, now isn’t the time to be irresponsible with money, respect it and allow it to flow in and out as it needs to. It will come and it will go whilst you are engaged in enjoying the free things in life like friendship, laughter, singing, dancing…

Life is good.

More next week… x

The Simplest of Gifts

There’s something very attractive about the idea of having it all, having everything you want in this life, isn’t there? You feel a seductive pull towards things, people, situations and lifestyles that can come off as all but deafening to the ego who sits amidst the shiny screaming “more more more!”

You have no concept what you need. That’s God’s job. Surrendering to the flow of life brings into sharp focus the inappropriate choices you have made up until now as you relax into wanting what is and appreciating the simplest of gifts… like breath.

There’s nothing wrong with shiny, you understand that. There’s nothing wrong with wanting things, people, situations and lifestyles that appear from a distance to be shiny… as long as you understand that its the wanting that produces the feeling, the chasing that amounts to the adventure and that once attained, not only can the object of your hunt never live up to the shiny glimpses you’ve caught along the way but nor can it fulfil your need to want, to hunt, to seek.

Once you have it, that’s the point at which you must once again learn to surrender. You have no idea what you need. That’s God’s job. Your job is now to relax into wanting what is, what has become, and appreciating the simplest of gifts… like love.

Principles 2 & 5

More later… x

Love is Fragile

I decided to add in an extra impromptu post today because I’m finding something fascinating if not a little frustrating…

The independent child is an archetype (not restricted to childhood) whereby from the outside, a person appears to be cold and distant and fully engaged in whatever project or current play thing is amusing them, all the while seeming to be fully ignoring the responsible adult… that is until the responsible adult becomes fully involved, engaged and engrossed in something far more stimulating than being shunned by said child… this is the exact moment when that young soul, who remember up until now has been completely disinterested in the comings and goings of those that care for him or her, has suddenly raised some curiosity as to what could possibly occupy the designated grown-up that is more interesting than simply watching the child from a safe distance do his or her thing?

Now I’m wondering if this is a game played mostly by people who have no siblings and are therefore used to being independent whilst remaining the centre of attention or if it is a sign of control to avoid insecurity but I’m speculating on both theories as I myself have siblings and I’m a firm believer that when the grown-ups are talking, they are not doing so in order to ignore the child, they are merely taking the opportunity to have a life that is larger than the workings of the kindergarten.

In grown-up relationships, this phenomenon still exists: “I’m so not interested in you until you appear to become so not interested in me…” it’s a silly game where nobody wins. I remember being subjected to the film Nanny McPhee years ago where she says something like: “When you need me but don’t want me, I’ll be there but when you want me but don’t need me, it’s time for me to leave.” Don’t quote me on the accuracy of my script recollection there but you get the gist. What happens though when you want and need Nanny but she’s off pursuing a career in skydiving or as a superhero hanging out in the shadows of Guatemala because you were so independent?

Anyway, the moral of this story is… you don’t know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone.

Appreciate the people in your life who care enough to appreciate you. Time is finite and love is fragile.

Principles 1 & 7

More later… x

A Redundant Emotion

After recognising you always have a choice, reaching for joy and positivity, next comes a stark realisation. With this sometimes less than pleasant new found clarity you may encounter another negative tidal wave known simply as regret.

Regret is a redundant emotion. It’s counterparts: guilt and shame, also fall into the category of “ways to immediately disempower your self” and are equally as redundant in terms of actually changing anything.

Perhaps whilst indulging in your previous state of negative patterning you did something to belittle, deride or piss off someone who did nothing to deserve your lashing out (whether from fear, pain or other intense form of disempowerment), and now in your enlightened state you can clearly see the effects of your behaviour. Yes, expressing remorse of some kind may go some way towards showing the recipient of your misjudged outburst that there is indeed a human side to you but at this juncture you need to ask yourself a serious question: Am I in fact pained by the notion that I did harm to another or am I simply responding to the fact that I got pulled up over it or lost out on something valuable as a result? 

This question is about shifting your perception from selfish to service.

Now in the second instance, remorse is for oneself and regret is insincere, whilst in the first instance remorse may in fact trigger a healing for both parties… either way, regret is a redundant emotion….

Replace regret, guilt and shame with an empowered state: responsibility. “I did that.” ” I caused that.” “I acted from a disempowered position and I acknowledge I caused pain: to you, to myself, to all involved. I accept responsibility and I will do everything I can to make sure that doesn’t happen again.”

Regret has no potency except to deplete your vital energy. Regret cannot make amends. Regret cannot take action… only responsibility can do that. Be responsible.

I AM Human, or Principle 3 as it is in The Wholly Grail, is the key to forgiveness but nowhere does it state that you should indulge in regret whilst waiting for another to pardon your bad behaviour… forgive yourself, lighten up, take positive action and then the world will have reason to notice your humanity and forgive your f**k ups!

More later… x

Greet The Sun

Did you choose how to greet the day today?

Our experience moment to moment, day to day can appear to be one of only two things: living or life happening to you.

If you are currently in a state of disempowerment then the chances are that life is happening to you and fooling yourself into believing that you have no say in the matter will only magnify the feeling. Whilst it is true to say that there are a multitude of events and circumstances that are happening around us without our apparent input such as the sun came up this morning, your outlook at that miraculous occurrence will be the judge of your experience…

Did you greet the sun upon waking with a groan that indeed you were being forced to participate in another round of “a day in the life of…” or did you decide that with that sunrise came an opportunity to make a real difference in your life, in the lives of others?

You may think that making a shift between these two states is the equivalent of personality surgery or that something would need to drastically change in order for you to feel positive about a Monday morning and you would be right, something would need to change: You! You would need to be that change, make that change and recognise that waiting for life to change around you is as disempowering as it gets. If you are waiting for the universe to serve you a miracle then you need to know that the universe is encouraging you to become the miracle.

Start by one small internal shift, just one: instead of yearning for all the things you don’t have, feeling disappointed, celebrate all the things that you do have by showing them some genuine love.

Everything that exists in your life right now is your creation, whether you actively participated in its creation or sat back and complained without intervention… it’s all yours so start loving it… and watch how much life starts to love you back.

Gratitude is the key to a beautiful life.

Principles 1, 2 & 7

More later… x

The Guilty Party

Grail Oracle 3Grail Oracle Yellow

I can’t believe I pulled this exact combination just two weeks ago in The Ego’s Trap! Persistent energy shows an unresolved dynamic and so let’s delve a little deeper into this combo…

Once again Principle 3: I AM Human jockeys with the yellow energy of the solar plexus chakra in a bid to create fear or cheer. The Guilty Party forces us to look at our failures and fears, our inmate human fallibility with compassion and forgiveness, but often before we arrive at those 5th dimensional qualities of grace we have to explore lower vibrations like shame and guilt to name just a couple. These judgements we make about our mistakes are often confused with the truth of who we are and we begin to see ourselves as the action, for example: “I am a failure” rather than “I have failed.”

This week you are being asked to take a leap into a familiar feeling potential-for-failure type situation but this time you are being asked to replace your fearful and self-accusatory thoughts with positive affirmations in order to short circuit what must have at some point felt like a losing streak.

Remember that when you walk into a room, no matter how many times you’ve been through that very same door, this time, with a positive outlook you could attract the successful greeting that you have been hoping for. You alone have the power to determine your success or failure and it begins with self-belief.

I believe in you.

More next week… x

What Would Love Do?

Joy is contagious. In order for that to be so, there must be somewhere for it to spread to. Sharing is an integral part of building relationships, families, communities, etc, the sharing of oneself and ones gifts and talents especially and sharing joy, more so.

Not everyone wants to share though. In some cases it would seem that some people are incapable of allowing others to participate in the spoils of happiness… you may have one of these people in your life, indeed you may even be one. Be gentle with this bruised soul for in excluding others from their joy they exclude themselves from the cumulative effect of group bliss… singularly, joy will dissipate quickly, but many contributors build the contagion’s potency until it becomes almost unstoppable.

The solitary victor shares joy only as a means to gloat: to express superiority, and sniffs at the joy and success of others. The solitary victor is competitive, derogatory, critical and judgmental, looking down upon the creations of those who may once have seen him or her as a role model… A Grail Knight? Of course… but a lost one. We are all Knights on a Grail pilgrimage just trying to get to a place of inner safety, peace and true joy… true joy not needing justification, quantification or validation.. it just is. The solitary victor perusing this overflowing cup from a fearful stance is not your enemy but instead is a wounded soul in need of love, so…

What would love do?

Principle 3: I AM Human simply requires forgiveness and Principle 7: I AM Open-Hearted asks that love be given unconditionally, regardless of how hard someone makes it to love them.

More later… x

It’s Inevitable

You’re going to upset some people, it’s inevitable. You cannot please all of the people all of the time… and why should you? Of course saying that, you don’t need to deliberately go out of your way to piss people off either, well at least not if you are reading this from a 5th dimensional, compassionate perspective, but here’s the thing: you want to live an empowered, fulfilling life and I’m guessing that it hasn’t always lived up to your expectations, right? Well, there’s a reason for that…

You, the old you that is, have gathered an entourage of devotees. Trust me you have! They are family, friends, neighbours, loved ones, work colleagues, the local newsagent and the kid behind the checkout at your local store to mention but a few and they have an expectation that you live up to your end of the bargain and don’t disturb the status quo. You, being that creature of habit, act a certain way, behave in certain patterns… for example, you eat the same cereal, buy and read the same newspaper and magazines, you take a predictable amount of time in the shower, even the girl on the phone at the Chinese takeaway knows in advance when and what you’re going to order… predictable see? Now this expectation of you that your devotees have become accustomed to, what happens when you change it up?

Once is a blip, twice is a phase, but three times, well now that’s a problem… and your devotees are going to go hell for leather trying to correct your course back to the familiar. It’s their comfort zone you see. “But I’ve already bought the cereal” “What do you mean your having a bath?” “The Times? Are you serious? You know there aren’t as many pictures right?” “Fruit? Are you sure you don’t want Hobnobs, they’re on offer?” Meanwhile at the local Golden Dragon, the girl on the phone’s been let go, due to lack of business… your business.

You’re going to upset some people, it’s inevitable. None of them can see this journey from your perspective, none of them are walking in your shoes or have felt your pain or heard your silent cries for help. When they can’t persuade you to revert to old patterns they will become angry with you, blame you and secretly or not-so-secretly wish for your failure… forgive them, they are acting out from their own discomfort regardless of yours.

Nobody said it would be easy becoming the greater you, but once the greater you becomes the norm, the devotees will take one of three paths: they’ll rise up and join you up there in your new personal heaven, they will look on from the side lines in quiet envy or they’ll fall by the wayside to be replaced by a whole new set of devotees… the kind who recognise a true Grail Knight when they see one, because they too have undergone the struggle to be who they are and have survived the battle for individuation.

Principles 3, 4 & 5

More later… x