The Silencer

Grail Oracle 3Grail Oracle Green

This week sees the meeting of the heart and the mind as you begin to recognise the power of your own feelings. They need to be heard and to be acknowledged, not by others but by you.

A combination of Principle 3: I AM Human with the emerald green of the heart chakra is highlighting your habit of suppressing your deepest emotions and the need to forgive yourself for not listening to what is buried so deep within your being.

The Silencer is a survival instinct that has been overruling your needs without you even noticing and has done so for so long that you don’t even know he or she exists. Don’t look out outside yourself for this person or entity (though when this combination arrives its possible that someone else is doing it to you also), instead look to where you deny your emotions simply by dismissing them as nonsense.

Have you ever been told “Don’t be silly” for allowing your feelings to show? How many times do you say that to yourself?

The Silencer started out life as your ally, protecting you from ridicule or unwanted attention but over many years has become your internal abuser and is now being called out…

This week, first you must listen without judgement to your thoughts and feelings, secondly you must listen to your immediate knee-jerk internal reactions knowing that the voice you hear is The Silencer… your final job is to forgive yourself for all the times you’ve been disrespectful of your own heart and now begin to truly hear, fully feel and start living, loving and laughing again.

More next week… x

Betrayed and Exposed

Divine marriage is the union of two apparently opposite forces joining to create a much greater, balanced and neutral entity. Some might describe it as yin and yang, some might embrace the idea of the god and the goddess, for many it is the meeting and commitment of soul mates that personify the quality of the sacred dance. Divine marriage is essential for each of us as we walk a conscious Grail path, but don’t assume that this involves another human being.

My writing, indeed my teaching in general is fuelled by my personal experience and journey, my own learning, seeking and often vulnerability are as I understand it, my greatest assets, but of late it has been tinged with generalities and has taken a less intimate tone… there’s a really good reason for that…

Divine marriage is sacrosanct. In a partnership, the most intimate details of your hopes, dreams, fears and fantasies are laid bare for the other party to embrace and the level of trust involved is the difference between feeling safe, loved and cared for or feeling betrayed and exposed. I’ve entered into a Divine marriage with my soul in order to know me better, in order to heal what holds me apart from the overflowing cup that is my Grail and that requires me to honour my soul’s vulnerabilities or rather it requires my soul to honour my ego’s vulnerabilities as my soul is my most invulnerable part and cannot be diminished by anyone’s actions including my own.

The most significant thing that has become apparent as a result of this union, is that I undertook the commitment in order to lead me to the Grail but the Grail was never lost, it was never out of my reach and very second my ego allowed my soul to speak and found the only words my soul knew how to say were: “I love you, welcome home” suddenly the cup overflowed and those words were all I needed.

Principle 1 & 7

More later… x

Trawl For Truth

Most of what you see before you today is a product of what you were thinking yesterday. The past has a powerful grip on your current state of being because it is in evidence all around you.

Have you reached a point in your life where you feel you can no longer continue along the same lines as before? Coming to deeply understand that the balance in your situation is heavily stacked towards apparent obligation rather than towards living, loving, giving, feeling, being free, is a ¬†key moment in your timeline at which point you have the opportunity to switch from living life unconsciously to becoming wide awake, and now all you have to do ask “why?” Why do I do that? Is it because it’s what I’ve always done? Is it because someone told me I had to? Is it simply that I haven’t yet imagined a new way to be yet?

Personal history can be your greatest teacher or you can be its prisoner but the choice is entirely yours. If you can stop for just 5 minutes today and think: ” What would I be doing now if I had a choice and there were no limitations to my experience?” Whatever comes to mind, trawl for truth… truth feels right, it doesn’t jar against your emotional centre, it brings a smile, a feeling of joy from your inner core. Sit with this vision of your truth for just a few minutes, write it down, find a picture or representation of it and begin to grow the image in your mind and in your journal or on a dream board over time…

Once this image of what you really would like to do, be, feel and have has solidified in your mind and you can easily see it each day, go back to the question about your current state: “why?”

One subtle change today can be the inaugural step towards a different reality for tomorrow… make a change.

More later… x

Smash Through It

The first Monday of the month is upon us and as we gallop into the second half of an already eventful year, my personal challenge of late has been one of reflection.

At the beginning of this year I gave Angelic Annual Forecasts to 10 lovely ladies as gifts to guide them through the coming months and at the same time I created one for myself. June was to be a particularly difficult month according to the chart as Archangel Samael was to be my guide and so foretold of coming face to face with the shadow side of human affairs… and Samael didn’t disappoint. Far from feeling like June broke me though, I’ve arrived here in July feeling empowered and confident that I can move towards whatever life has in store without worrying too much about whether or not my bubble will survive its sharp blades.

As I inspected my forecast over the weekend and found I was to be escorted through this month by Seraphiel, a seraphim creation angel, I almost had to laugh: if Samael was going to have me trawl the depths then Seraphiel was going to push me to the heights… The heights are much harder when you limit yourself with small-self thinking. Spiritually speaking what was previously my highest potential is about to be proved a glass ceiling and the angels aren’t messing about when they ask you to smash through it.

If there is one challenge I can set for you today and for the rest of this month it’s this: let go of what you think you know about your own capabilities, let go of the small-self, let go of the limits that your past seems to have imposed upon you and soar towards your highest potential… which incidentally, you have no idea what that is yet.

Principle1: I AM God

Principle 2: I AM Detached

Happy 4th July x

An Empty Vessel

Grail Oracle Chalice

It’s been only a very short space of time since The Sacred Chalice was pulled from the deck and today it almost fell out.

The Intuitive Chalice Oracle is a tool for diagnosis, inspiration, guidance and personal healing as well having predictive capabilities. It includes 7 Principle Cards along with 7 Chakra Cards making a possible 49 combinations, each combination has a positive and a negative possibility creating 98 interpretations… but then there’s the wild card: The Sacred Chalice, a card that when chosen requires no chakra card to accompany it as it has one of two opposing and yet replete messages neither leaving room for anything else…

Message 1: You are full

Message 2: You are empty

The first requires nothing but your complete appreciation of all the goodness that has manifested for you as a result of either your own sense of wholeness or as a result of miraculous intervention and the second leaves no room for anything but your full focus on creating that state.

An Empty Vessel is the latter and this week sees your need to drop all superfluous ambitions in favour of a singular dedication to your mind, body and soul’s need for nourishment, care and meaning. This may be a time where you feel the need to withdraw from your social and public duties and find solace in prayer, meditation, and other sacred ritual.. whatever works for you. That might be running for some, reading for others… every person is unique and so too are their methods for self renewal. This time is not about resting exactly, more about taking gentle positive action without need for sudden movement or knee-jerk reactive approaches. Allow your inner self to slide into slow motion no matter how fast the outside world is moving.

Once you reconnect with the true source of your power, your Sacred Chalice will refill and normal service will resume without you having to think too much about it.

Remember that an empty vessel is not always a negative thing, sometimes it’s just a perfect place to fill with love and light.

More next week… x

 

Detach, Define and Dance

Today apparently is the exact centre of the year with the same number of days behind us as there are in front. It’s as though we’ve reached a pivotal point, literally, a balance point or natural turn. Usually that turn occurs on the solstice but as we use a calendar that merely tips a nod to the natural solstices and equinoxes and have done for centuries, our internal clocks are somewhat misaligned. No matter, we work with what we’ve got.

The days leading up to this non-celebrated event have been poignant for me as I’ve subconsciously reset my own personal targets and shifted gear to ensure I’m on track with personal goals and agendas… they in fact have been refined or even redefined as I’ve set about questioning the “why” in each case. The why is the platform on which we build a dream, it’s the driving force behind every action and its the compass keeping us on track. My why has shifted after some deep internal work, liberating me from a multitude of doubts and fears, my “I want this” has become “If God wants it for me it will come to pass.” The results have been miraculous so far, at least in my whole attitude and level of internal peace… God, it seems, has gone all out to get me what I want just simply because I let Him.

If you’ve read some of “the pear” posts over the last week you’ll know that my life goal has been waved in front of my eyes for me to turn my attention to bringing it to fruition now, and when life reminds you you have a looming deadline, like hitting the halfway point in the year when your natural tendency is think “Shit! The year’s half done,” then internal panic could set in pretty darn quickly. Negative statements like: I’m never gonna achieve this, could cripple you into inaction and even depression if you allow the fear to creep in but there’s an alternative that involves recognising that you just cannot do this alone…

Letting go and letting God is a terrifying notion when you’re a control freak but once you actually get the hang of Principle 2: I AM Detached, the whole process becomes a dance with angels as they lift you up and carry you to each desired check point along the road to the goal. When you open up a dialog with Source energy and confirm your wish and your why, if the wish is for your highest good and the why is a noble one then your path will be filled with synchronicities that make you wonder why you ever doubted in the first place…. you were just focused in the wrong direction.

In the last couple of weeks, life has had its ups and downs, my home is in turmoil with building work going on, my work schedule has gone to pot along with it, but do you know what? I feel content that all that is happening around me but none of it is happening to me…. I AM Detached. My plans are moving along at a steady pace and fun is happening as standard.

The year may be half over, but there’s still half left… detach, define and dance your way with angels to your desired destination.

God’s in charge of the journey… so let Him be.

More later… x