Happy Step

I’ve been battling this morning with an internal contradiction. On the one hand “I’m ok with how things are right now” but on the other hand “I’m not ok with how things are right now.” This dilemma when put into the context of: “I’ll be happy when…” is a classic example ignoring Principle 2: I AM Detached, projecting your attention to an as yet unwritten future and delaying your happiness until those criteria have been met (which of course they never will be because by the time you’ve achieved that set of wants a new set will have taken over).

What if though, what if you are not projecting into a future or for that matter looking back into a rose tinted past? What if your attention is right here in the present moment and you are looking at this current set of circumstances and saying “I am unhappy with how things are”?

When you commence a sentence with I AM… you are stating a command to the universe, defining your being and anchoring it to a certain set of parameters, be damn sure you want “unhappy” to be one of them before you announce the intention aloud, as even the continuous thought has immense power… so that’s the first job, correcting your vocabulary… now we need to address the underlying feeling of dissatisfaction.

Right here, now, in this moment you have a choice, the choice to be happy with your life or not, and there are only 3 things that stand between you and choosing happiness: gratitude, acceptance and self-improvement.

Acceptance is the key you’re looking for but sometimes acceptance feels a little out of reach when you aren’t where you hoped you be. Beginning with gratitude lubricates the fixed consciousness you’ve acquired and widens the perspective to everything that’s beneficial about your current circumstances so start by making a comprehensive list of those things that you’re grateful for… try to keep it relevant, you can include being grateful for the trees if you like (I am) but unless your current circumstances involve being unhappy in your job as a forest ranger or tree surgeon then it’s a little out of context. Keep listing until you can see an emerging pattern to the blessings of why you’re here in this situation and acceptance becomes the next natural progression… appreciation will almost certainly begin to creep into the mix and at this stage you need to be careful because you are getting dangerously close to feeling content and oh my goodness, hold the phone, are you happy? Well, not quite…

Self-improvement? I’m not talking about the endless programs of self help stuff, I’m talking about accepting responsibility for your own life and where you are at, and then committing to taking the action needed to change it… down tools, assess the direction you wish to travel and then take measured steps towards it… not towards happiness, every step should be a happy step, but away from dissatisfaction which only comes from being unfulfilled and that comes from not living up to your potential and that comes from not being all you can be…

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full has many connotations but being the happiest, healthiest, highest achieving you is central to your well-being. If you’re unhappy, you’re not being Self-Full.

My list is underway already and I’m dangerously close to contentment…

More later… x

The Final Dragon

If I was to tell you there where only seven things that stand between you and complete mastery of your own inner peace and well-being, just seven doors to unlock to find your best life, love, and light, would you ask for the keys?

Easter Monday, and with the energy of rebirth and resurrection in full swing, what better time than to gift yourself the keys to your own freedom, the ability to embrace your greatest challenges and overcome your deepest fears simply by dedicating yourself to these seven steps to happiness.

Do I sound like a sales pitch? Ha! Sometime in the not too distant future, I will be travelling deeper into the Grail Principles for those who wish to go with me, but if you’re paying attention then you will see that the entire Wholly Grail is and has been freely available for those wishing to embark on this quest and all you have to do is tame seven dragons:

The first Dragon is named “Worthiness” and He is King.

The second Dragon is named “Presence” and He is a thief.

Dragon three is named “Forgiveness” and He is damaged.

Dragon four is named “Authenticity” and He is adaptable.

The fifth Dragon is named “Freedom” and He will not be chained.

Dragon six is named “Me” and He will reflect your every move.

The final Dragon is named “Love” and to conquer Him is to move beyond need and into peace for He is completion.

These Dragons, The Principles of The Wholly Grail will highlight the path, protect you whilst you walk it and bring you squarely home to your dreams.

Have a happy bank holiday… I’m off now to teach a Magical Chalice Workshop (The Grail through the veil of magic and mysticism).

More later… x

The Wisdom Keeper

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I was struck this morning by  a number of articles arguing over the true meaning of Easter. Tempers rising, matter of fact attitudes about this belief and that belief, whose opinion holds most weight and which tradition has a claim on its origins…

This week’s combination of Principle 4: I AM Truth and the vibrant violet of the crown chakra brings into focus a measure of truth in all things. The Wisdom Keeper as I am affectionately naming this duo, is helping to guide us towards our own truth by unravelling the need to be right  about where or when our traditions and higher perspectives come from.

Truth and fact are different things. When you begin a sentence with “You are wrong about…” you are attempting to impose your truth on another, in this context truth causes conflict, war. If however you begin that same sentence with “It is my understanding that…” then that dichotomy becomes an oportunity to share ideas and to expand consciousness and current thinking.

Truth is only perspective and The Wisdom Keeper is the eternal seeker who expands that truth every day but by the same token, is a teacher who seeks to disseminate understanding everyday. To ‘keep’ wisdom is to simplify truth and to understand truth is to simplify wisdom.

You have nothing to prove but much to teach and your inflluence will grow this week when you keep understanding in your heart and see all diversity from a higher perspective…

As for Easter… wherever the tradition began, may you be blessed by a million opportunities to be you, for you have much to offer the world.

More next week… x

The Diamond Water

Good Friday has an underlying theme that runs through the whole Easter experience, much like the energy of New Year we turn our attention to rebirth, renewal, resurrection and reinvention of self, life, home, career, finances and even love.

For the last few days I’ve been banging on about letting go of the stuff that holds you back or down in order to have a clean slate when the time comes to make that transition into the life you’ve been planning and dreaming about for so long. Now it’s time to do a spring clean of your mind, body and spirit.

I know you’re tempted to reach for the chocolate eggs, I’m not going to tell you to do otherwise, after all self-denial is almost as bad as stuffing your face in the happiness stakes. No, I’m acting on a very clear message I received from Archangel Gabriel last week whilst meditating on Principle 6: I AM Self-Full, simply put, the message was this: “There are only two things you must omit from your diet: restriction and over-indulgence.” That to me sounded like a recipe for life.

When you decide to spring clean your mind, body and spirit you are in fact committing to spring clean your habits. As with all things, that must commence with untangling the mess of what’s useful and what’s cumbersome, unhelpful or down right harmful. Thought patterns, behaviours, what you give away and what you receive. The whole universe is based on flow… the flow of energy. The faster the energy the lighter it is and formats sound, thought, ideas and concepts, even beliefs (which are merely thoughts that you have accepted as your truth and then continued to identify with). The slower the energy the denser and more solid it becomes and enters the realm of the material plane becoming ‘stuff.’ From your physical body to your car to the planet which we inhabit…

Your chakras are the energetic receivers and transmitters of that universal flow… they don’t discriminate; good, bad or ugly, if it’s energy they’ll suck it up, interpret it and then attempt to spit it out! I like to describe chakras as tv sets. They don’t know the difference between a Disney cartoon and Freddie’s Nightmares they simply transmit and receive… you on the other hand are equipped with a remote and as soon as you recognise that the channel you’ve chosen (the frequency that’s being received) is a horror movie, change the channel! But how do you know? Well, how does it feel? Are you enjoying it or is it making you scared shitless? Are you feeling uplifted or glum? Is your health and vitality soaring or are you tired, drained and feeling ill? Do your energetic filters need a good clear out?

Imagine if you will an amazing water fall of pure clear spring water, infused with Archangel Gabriel’s Diamond Ray Energy, step under the water and let it run down the central column of your chakras, first entering your crown, passing down through your 3rd eye, throat, heart, solar plexus, sacral and finally your base chakra before running through your legs and out of your feet to rejoin the flowing crystal water. As it passes through each energy centre visualise the chakra spinning like an old vinyl LP, turning crystal clear like the diamond water and then changing to its natural healthy colour: violet crown, indigo 3rd eye, blue throat, green or pink heart, yellow solar plexus, orange sacral and red base… Doing this exercise in the shower makes it twice as powerful as you can let the actual water wash away any residue that’s attached itself to the outside…

There now, that should give you a good start… a fresh start.

More later… x

 

Blood, Sweat and Tears

I started the week processing subconscious emotional discomfort in various forms of negative traits rising to the surface through my dreams. Dreams are amazing things because they allow you to work through the deeper aspects of the psyche which in a waking state you are perhaps unaware of. The energy it takes to withhold information from your conscious self is incredibly draining and may contribute to an indefinable sense of fatigue, both physical and emotional, rendering you joyless and lacking in vitality without you knowing exactly what the cause is. That being said, exploring and interpreting dream recall is an excellent way through to self healing… but I didn’t want to talk about that today, it was the other aspect of my last post that I wanted to dive into a little deeper: loss and liberation.

Imagine for a moment standing on top of a hill under a solitary tree with a path running down each side. In one direction you would be heading back down the way you came and the other sliding into a brand new adventure… now, are you standing with a red spotted hanky tied to the end of a stick holding the sum of your knowledge or are you standing beside a pile of suitcases and boxes?

Did I mention it’s a long road, you have no transport other than your wits and your ability to make friends along the path? You could always gamble that your new friends won’t mind carrying your baggage with you…

Liberation is about lightening the load, the tree is about strength, longevity, patience and fruitfulness, and it represents shelter and safety; the road offers a choice to go back, to stay put or to explore, and the baggage… well that represents how easy your choice is going to be.

Letting go of the baggage has to be a choice and some times it’s a painful one, especially when you’ve worked so hard and invested so much in terms of time, energy and resources to achieve it: blood, sweat and tears I believe the term is.

When you invest, invest in experience. Experience creates knowledge, wisdom and memories… and they all fit in your red spotted hanky. it’s time to ditch some of the stuff you can’t carry. If you cannot picture what part it plays in your intended new life, let It go.

Principle 5: I AM Liberated.

More later… x

End of The Blame Table

Having just awoken from a particularly violent dream and still feeling a little shaken by the apparent underlying emotion of anger that must exist within me in order to allow my subconscious to enact such visions of potential rage, I’m intent on unravelling a part of The Grail that on some level I have yet to reconcile with.

I AM Liberated. It seems a ludicrous statement after my opening sentences but as “I AM” gives a command to the universe, if you use the term often enough according to the laws of the universe you become what you constantly attest to be.

Principle 5, in this case disturbing my sleep, is about letting go of things that are no longer meant to be a part of ones journey. When somebody or something leaves of its own accord, my ability to let go is what’s known as an open door policy, you come, you go, you stay a while or you don’t, I grieve, I move on. What happens though when that thing or person is taken away?

Blame is a horrific sentiment and was the route cause of my bad dream so that’s where I’m starting my cleansing process today and I’m starting with the ultimate detergent: Principle 3: I AM Human. Principle 3 embraces the art of forgiveness and in this case it’s me that I need to forgive, firstly for the underlying capacity to hold such darkness as all human beings do and secondly because the questions like “Did I do the right thing?” “Should I have fought harder for what was mine?” “Did I let down someone or something that needed me?” These questions are all punishments that I don’t need to endure and whoever sits at the other end of the blame table has a unique perspective of human need and naivety that warrants the same level of forgiveness.

So on that note, today I wish you a day of self-forgiveness, liberation and peace. May you be blessed inside your own Grail.

More later… x

The Absent Intimate

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Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock…

I can actually hear the clock in my office very loudly marking time as I write this piece and I have to admit that when I pulled the combination for us all this morning, I was secretly asking myself whether or not I should put the cards back in the deck and choose again… but what good would that do any of us? Instead I went off to do my healing sessions and began to contemplate each, seeing how the energy was playing out through the day.

This combination from the Intuitive Chalice Oracle blends Principle 2: I AM Detached, with the brilliant orange of the sacral chakra, the centre of intimacy and creativity and at first glance its a garing reminder of the biological clock running amuck and making no apologies for it… The truth is so much deeper than that and is the route of all impatience.

I’m one of the least patient people I know. Others tell me the opposite. Don’t get me wrong, I can wait forever if I know what it is I’m getting at the end of the waiting period but patience is about “waiting with grace” and I’m damn sure I’m going to make a song and dance about it whilst ever I feel like I’ve been promoted to “Advanced Mushoom Status” (Keep ’em in the dark and feed ’em on shit). I’m sue the angels despair of me regularly when I get into this mode but as always look on with deep compassion and endeavour to show me what this energy is really about… I remember when I was young, I was a drum majorette and we used to do something called “marking time,” most military marches involve this at some point, it’s where you march on the spot literally going nowhere…

Have you forgotten to create?

Whilst you are waiting (clock still ticking) for something to happen, someone to appear, dreams to come to fruition, or even just for your lift to arrive, you could be fully connected to your source of creative potential, your inner muse, and using the time to bring something else into being. Intimacy is the perfect joining of masculine and feminine, the divine marriage which sparks into life the birth of the perfect child (Oh God, I’m back to that biological clock), but it isnt just about man and woman and the “how long is it going to take to find that perfect partner with which to officiate that divine blending?” its about the masculine and feminine within you producing the perfect creation, whatever it might be.

Masculine creative energy needs feminine receptive energy to incubate and gestate an idea into existence, and if you are in the impatient stage, allowing yourself to become attached to the outcome and the deadline and the “what if?” and the “what’s the hold up?” then you have lost connection with the feminine aspect of self… She is The Absent Intimate.

If you have found yourself experiencing this impatience then may I suggest that you call on the very gentle energy of Quan Yin this week to help you find the feminine key to just being.

And if you’re waiting for something specific that you have no apparent control over, why not focus on creating something else in the meantime?

More next week… x

An Angel Told Me

Physician heal thyself!

Well I’m not a doctor, but I am a healer and therapist and how easily we forget to attend to our own needs regardless of how much time we spend spewing practical solutions for others.

Having had an angelic encounter during a meditation class last night (not unusual for me), I was reminded of my main mission for this leg of my journey… it’s a 3 tiered mission, one of which involves me divulging the secrets of The Wholly Grail to you but the other two tiers are much more personal and to achieve one of those I must  be in good all round health… I pulled a muscle (I think) in my lower back yesterday and was pretty much having to drag my right leg because of the pain in moving it. I don’t do immobile graciously, so instead I took myself off on a mile walk! Precarious at first, by the time I got back, I was stronger, more flexible and my back had relaxed enough to relieve the pain… I can still feel a slight twinge today but I’m fully mobile…

How many of you would have laid down and given in to the painkillers? At first glance you might think I’m not built for exercise, a few years ago I might have agreed with you, but nothing makes my physical body feel better than a combination of proper rest, nutritious food, gentle and regular exercise, pure clean water and love. Love is the key to healing anything.

Principle 6: I AM Self-Full is your cosmic permission slip to lavish love upon yourself first. Grail Knight heal thyself! Whatever ails you, instead of trying to shut your body up when it’s in pain, ask it what it needs… and then do everything in your power to oblige. An angel told me to tell you.

More later… x

 

 

Another Layer of The Onion

Ho long do you afford yourself to assimilate new information? In such a fast paced environment as the 21st century is, we as a culture seem to demand immediate action, whether the time it takes to prepare or purchase food, the speed at which our vehicle’s travel, email response time… how long is long enough?

I’ve just taken a few days off from posting, not because I didn’t want to communicate with you but because how I was feeling, I was incapable of communicating… over the weekend I was asked by spirit to do some energy clearing work as part of my divine service to the planet. It was powerful to say the least but what was even more powerful was the past life experience that surfaced for me as a result. I was forced to peel another layer of the onion so to speak. If you have ever experienced a past life regression you will know that it can stir up some quite turbulent emotions as some of your behaviours in this current life are given an origin and repeating patterns are identified. Now, I don’t suggest that you do it by yourself if you are interested in the process (there are plenty of practitioners out there), but what I do want you to do is slow right down when you’re dealing with what surfaces during your spiritual practice.

For me, issues of equality, worth and freedom of expression were all underlying themes in my past life and I’m so pleased that the experience of that lifetime has led me to create The Wholly Grail in this one. My favourite Principle: I AM Truth (and the first one I explored for myself, consciously) was most in evidence… but the truth takes time if you haven’t yet explored it for yourself.

No matter who is demanding an answer, no matter how pressing and insistent they may be, take your time… the world won’t end whilst they wait (and if it does then your answer won’t matter).

More later… x

The Willing Recipient

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I’ve been chomping at the bit today to explore this combination from The Intuitive Chalice Oracle for all of us, me included, because when I pulled the cards first thing this morning to contemplate, I had such a rush of excited enthusiasm about the way the energy is flowing.

Blending the first Principle: I AM God with the bright yellow energy of the Solar Plexus, The Willing Recipient is heralding a boon of unprecedented proportions arriving either energetically or tangibly from a benevolent Source. This gift is the universe’s way of compensating you for the work you’ve done thus far in arriving safely at your present location, experience safely translated into personal wisdom and packed into your toolkit for future use on the path.

We have come through a rough passage of late, many have been walking around dazed and confused since the new moon wondering why they feel the way they do… Somewhat baffled in fact by a sense of overwhelm detracted by a field of grace… Like you are wandering around thinking, “I should be depressed. To the outside world I might look and even sound depressed… but the absolute truth is I don’t feel depressed… but I dont know why I don’t!” Ridiculous as that sounds, being sensitive to energy flow, standing on a threshold of what’s done and what’s to be offered, knowing that now is the point when everything changes but not what changes are required…

I was privileged to work with one of my healing clients this afternoon (always a pleasure… you know who you are), and I described this sense of transition as being like the old Wheel of Fortune game show whereby you are the needle on the dial and the universe has just spun you around, you’re not in control of where that needle is going to land and there is nothing you can do until it stops spinning so you might as well let go and let God until such time as you come to a full stop and a real life opportunity to choose is placed in front of you…

Now this is the fun part (or not) because you have no idea what the choice is going to be and what area of your life it’s going to affect and if indeed it is a ‘gift’ then why is a choice involved at all? Well, because the universe is all about balance and that’s why you have been making space for this gift to arrive but, and it its a big but, you are going to have to make one final sacrifice in order to receive the bounty… I wish I could tell you what it is… I’m psychic but I’m not that good! Imagine if you will, a new baby, what a blessing? You will have to grow up, give up your freedom, take on the responsibility… see what I mean about a gift that brings with it sacrifice?

So why The Willing Recipient? Principle 1 is the quest for self-worth. An angel is going to turn up at your door this week (not literally, at least I don’t think so), and say “Special delivery for the resident Grail Knight” and you now have a choice, you can say “Oh yes that’s for me, Ive been expecting something wonderful, where do I sign?” or you can say “I’m not sure who it’s for… no Grail Knight’s here just surfs and waifs and the great unwashed” and though the angel knows damn well it’s a gift just for you, he’ll wing it back to the cosmic depot and report in to the Big Fella saying “Not ready to receive, delivery declined, the package was too much, too big, too…

Being worthy isn’t about hubris, its about the quiet acceptance that you are the Divine in human form and that He doesn’t make mistakes… When your angel shows up with a gift this week, no matter how big or small, simply say “Thank you, I’m not sure if I’m ready… but I AM Willing.” The needle will stop spinning and you can make your choices.

May your week ahead be filled with a thousand blessings… all of which you are worthy of.

More next week… x